I woke up to the sound from the kitchen. It smelled eggs and I heard that Niall made breakfast. My first thought was to shout that I wasn't hungry, but at the same time, I felt that the stomach needed food. I looked at the clock and it showed at nine. I smiled a little bit and it felt better in the body. I sat up and I realized that I had no headache anymore. I felt in the body that I wasn't healthy yet, but I could at least move around.
"Are you awake?"
I nodded and I looked towards the kitchen. Niall stood there and he smiled big. He eyed me suspiciously, but when I was able to stand up on the floor, he was satisfied.
"No headaches?" he asked. I smiled and I shook my head.
"I'm okay, but not quite as healthy as I want to be."
He laughed a little bit.
"Good, then you need me. I have put out breakfast in the kitchen and now you'll eat so that you get the strength back."
It felt strange to sit in my kitchen with Niall. He had really done everything prepared. He had fried eggs and bacon. I had toast and a big mug of tea. There was everything I needed and I really tried to eat.
"Louis called while you were asleep."
"On my cell phone." he said cheerfully. "I have to leave for a few hours today, but I will come back here."
"Are you going to work?"
"Yes, something like that." he said. "And tomorrow it's Friday."
I came to life. The dress? The party?
Niall laughed a little bit and he looked at me.
"If you're not healthy, we will stay here. Just take it easy. There will be more parties and I still don't want to go there."
I couldn't help but smile.
"But if they want you to come?"
He giggled a little bit.
"They know that I'm with you, and they understand that I don't feel like going without you."
I just looked at Niall. How much had he told about me to the others? I almost blushed.
"So you've told them about me?"
He nodded with satisfaction.
"I don't want them to hear it from someone other than me." He looked at me. "Are you mad?"
I smiled and I shook her head.
"I'm just surprised."
He smiled awry.
"You know what I feel for you and you know I'll take us seriously." he said it with well-meaning voice. "Therefore, I make sure that everyone around me knows about it."
"Okay!" I whispered. "I have only told my mom. I didn't say that you're a big star, but I said I'm with you."
Niall was silent. He looked at me and it was like he was thinking about what I had just said. I felt that I started to blush again, because of his eyes.
"So my mom...." I paused. He seemed to collect himself and then his face lit up.
"Okay, then I can tell you that I told a little about you to my parents."
This was serious. This was the start to something big? I smiled and I realized that we were about to enter phase two. It was getting serious between us. I saw that Niall certainly thought the same thing, and for a few seconds, we just stared at each other.
"This is unbelievable." he mumbled. I woke up from the thoughts.
"What do you mean?"
He smiled weakly and he raised his eyebrows.
"I think you read my mind." he whispered. "I was thinking that now we have something big going on. It's now it's really getting serious between us."
I smiled and I nodded.
"I was thinking the same thing."
He stretched his arm across the table and he caught my hand. Niall looked straight into my eyes and I felt my stomach tingled.
"Jenny, I haven't had a serious relationship before." it sounded almost comical, and he smiled a little bit. "It's exciting, but at the same time it's scary."
I agreed. What else could I do?
When Niall had left the apartment, I sat down on the couch and I felt almost tired by all the emotions. From that day it was therefore serious between us? Niall was really my boyfriend and I could no longer say no to him. Okay, I didn't want to say no. I wanted to say yes all the way.
Sarah rang again and I heard on her voice that she was hesitant.
"So it's serious between you?" she asked. I couldn't tell her anything but the truth.
"Yes, it's serious."
She laughed a little bit.
"I have to say congratulations." She meant it. "I called to hear how you feel, but I understand that he will take care of you?"
"Well, he chose to be here tonight and I'm feeling better."
She laughed a little bit.
"I have long wondered why you are single, and now when you have boyfriend, I'm almost jealous."
I understood her.
"You will also meet a guy one day." I said it felt strange to talk to her about the subject. It was odd, it was different, it was exciting. Sarah laughed a little bit.
"I hope the same." she said. "Call me when you feel better so we can meet?"
I took a shower and I put on clean clothes. It was nice to be clean again, and then I sat down at the computer. I went through twitter and I checked the latest from Sweden. I was looking up some information about One Direction. There wasn't much that interested me more than that Niall said he was single. I knew I would have to live with that lie, outwardly. I had nothing against it, just Niall was faithful.
//Dear fans, it's happen much in my life and nothing will be the same again//
I gasped. Niall had written it five minutes ago and I just stared at the computer. If he wanted to, he could tell the fans about us? I felt my mind spun around and I got panic. I wasn't ready for it yet and I didn't want everyone to know who I was. Quickly, I went in and I made my account private. I didn't want the fans to found me. I was pretty sure that Niall would ask me before he spoke about who I was, but still?
When Niall came home, I had to ask him. He laughed a little bit about the issue and he seemed to avoid me.
"I spoke to Liam and he thinks that we shouldn't take too long time before we telling it to the fans."
"But Niall, I'm not ready."
He looked at me and I saw that he hesitated. It was as if this was the first time that we didn't share the same opinion.
"But I want to shout it to the world." he whispered nicely and almost prayerful. "I don't want to hide my feelings."
I walked up to him.
"Sorry!" I mumbled and I crawled into his lap. "I just wasn't ready that you would approach the truth so quickly."
He smiled and he held me tenderly.
"I'm not going to write it yet, but I figured out that I could prepare them?"
I looked at him.
"By small changes in the posts, small changes that make them think."
He kissed me and I responded to the kiss. I realized that we couldn't prevent that the truth came out, but at the same time, I was so scared. I was just an ordinary girl and there was nothing special about me. I didn't look like a model and I hadn't such a face that everyone would enjoy. Okay, Niall liked what he saw, but it wasn't the same. I would have to suck up to the fans and I was anything used to doing so.
"Do you want to know about one thing!" Niall whispered, and he ended the kiss. "We're taking it slow and I promise not to write anything until you're ready."
He looked at me and he hugged me tenderly.
"I understand you and I know it's different for you."
I tried to look at him calmly. My body tingled whenever he looked at me, and my legs were weak.
"And tomorrow?" I got out from me just to change the subject. "Shall we go to the party?"
He raised one hand and he pressed it against my forehead.
"You're still hot?"
"But I feel pretty okay."
He sighed just to annoy me.
"We'll see tomorrow how you feel?"
It was wonderful to be someone's girlfriend, although we hadn't gone public with it. I wondered how I would explain everything to Andy, but at the same time he knew already what he needed to know. Anna didn't needed at all to know anything about Niall and me. I was sure she would tell everyone and she would proudly tell reporters about who I was.
"What are you thinking?"
I sat on the couch next to Niall and I leaned my head against him. He had his arm around my shoulders and on our knees lay a blanket.
"I think of all the people I know." I replied. "I sit and think about what I shouldn't tell them."
"Isn't it enough that you just telling them that you have a boyfriend?"
I looked at him and I smiled.
"Girls always want to know everything. I plan to keep some parts private and just tell them what they need to know."
He watched my face closely and he smiled awry.
"I think it will work out?"
"But I can be prepared so that I don't accidentally say the wrong things."
He laughed a little bit and then he kissed me.
"You're funny." he mumbled. "And maybe that's why I love you?"
I gasped. Niall realized what he had said and immediately he became red in the face.
"I mean.... I said... I..." he gasped. "My God, I talk too much?"
I swallowed and I felt how my whole body was on it's guard. He loved me? Could he really love me that way already?
"Thanks anyway." I whispered. He swallowed and he looked at me, then he turned up a smile.
"Now you know that I feel much for you?"
I nodded. This was odd. Only my parents had said they loved me and Niall was the first guy who talked about that emotions.
"Do you regret it?" I got out of me. Niall shook his head and he continued to smile. I assumed it was because he was nervous and he realized that those words came too quickly.
"No, with you I regret nothing." he whispered. "Why should I?"
I tried to smile.
"Because we've only met each other for a short time?"
"But in that short time I have been honoured to know you better?"
"And I get to know you?"
He kissed me. I felt his lips streaked over mine and it was wonderful. His tongue was playing with mine and he did it exactly as I wanted. I took my arms around his neck and I felt how he once again ended up on top of me on the couch. This was a habit. I liked this habit. He tried not to push down towards me. I tried however to push me up against him.
"Damn!" he muttered, and he ended the kiss. "We always end up here on the couch?"
I smiled and I nodded.
"A good habit?"
He laughed and he nodded.
"Since you are so good at kissing me."
I just smiled and I just enjoyed. I felt his hard part to me, but I knew that he wouldn't force me into anything. I was content to lie underneath him and I was happy to feel his body against mine. That's what I called love.
"I love your kisses." I mumbled and I got him to kiss me again. He was gentle, yet so demanding. He tested the way and he always managed to make everything seem so simple. I took my legs around his waist and I followed him in every movement. I was his and he owned me. Niall took my heart and he took my sanity. I really liked it.
"I'll sleep on the couch?"
We would go to bed. I hesitated, but I really didn't want to let him lie on my hard couch.
"No!" I mumbled quickly. "I allow you to sleep beside me in my bed."
He laughed a little bit.
"You have to get a double bed?"
"I've done well with my bed before?"
Niall pulled me down on the bed and he made sure we had the blanket over us.
"But now you have me?"
I was grinning. He took his arms around me and I put my head against his chest. Nialls body was so soft and so cuddly. I just loved to feel him close to me. He had only underwear on, but I had chosen to wear my nightgown and underwear.
"I could get used to this." I heard him whisper, and my whole stomach tingled.
I could hear his heart pounding in his chest. I was happy that his heart was beating for me. I couldn't help but listen to his breath and when he fell asleep, I continued to enjoy. This was really more than I could have dreamed about. The only thing that came back was the thought about all the fans. Yet I knew that the fans couldn't change anything. They couldn't get me to leave him and they couldn't get me to stop loving him. Yes, I loved him, but I wasn't ready to tell him about that yet. And what did I know about love? The only thing I knew was that my body was owned by him and my heart beat for him. Nialls eyes, Nialls smile, his gestures, everything affected me, and if that wasn't love, then I didn't know much.