My brother dropped me off at the airport and I was left waiting for Joey. My gosh, my heart was racing and I knew I had a big smile on my face. It's been so long and I couldn't help being so excited that he was back home. Through the crowded groups of people, I saw him. His face with a smile as big as mine. He dropped his bags and opened his arms wide, inviting me into a hug. I ran over to him as fast as I could and dove into them. I nearly knocked him over but I didn't even care at this point.
I closed my eyes and melted into the warmth of his body as I could feel his arms tighten around me. I breathed in his smell and I felt that feeling in my stomach again...the feeling of love. He picked me up in his arms and looked up into my eyes before pressing his lips against mine. I kissed him like the world was ending and I didn't want this moment to end, but of course it had to at some point.
"I missed you so much, buttercup." Joey said, while setting me down and cupping my face in his hands, making me look straight into his beautiful green eyes. "I missed you, too, Joey." I looked deep into his emerald ocean color and I melted even deeper into his arms.
Once I greeted his parents, we soon left in their car. I sat next to Joey with my head on his shoulder and his arm around me. My eyes began to close as I felt safe again.
"So Chloe, how was it here without us?" Joey's mother asked, jokingly. Joey and I were making our way up the stairs to his room when she asked. I stopped and turned, with my voice caught in my throat. How should I respond? Oh yeah, it was great. I was only urged into drinking alcohol, raped by a guy who I didn't even know went to my school and the busted knuckle I have that I'm surprised you haven't asked me about yet, but yeah, it was just wonderful.
I cleared my throat and I forced a smile across my face. "Quite lonely, Mrs. Parker." She smiled and was about to respond, but Joey grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs into his room. "You guys can talk another time. Let's go, Chlo."
I rolled my eyes and smiled as I watched him open his bedroom door and pull me inside. The smell of him blew into my face and I remembered how much I missed this about him. His smell reminded me that he was near, close, and protective.
"Finally, just some you and me time. I have been stuck with my parents for too long and I need some time with my girlfriend." Joey said, while closing the door and locking it before snaking his arm around my waist and pulling me close. He ran his thumb across my cheek and looked into my eyes. "I'm not even going to ask about your hand because I already know...but please don't be so reckless next time, you dummy."
This made me smile and I shook my head as I laughed at his remark. He smiled that perfect smile right back at me and leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. His tongue entered into my mouth while he picked me up and laid me down on his bed. I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck, pulling him closer as we both continued to kiss each other.
He grabbed my hands and laid them above my head as he kissed down my chin, to my jawline, and to my collarbone. I felt his tongue run down to the deep 'v' of my breasts and I felt chills run through my body. His hands left my own and ran down my body to the button of my pants.
Flashbacks to the night of the party ran through my mind. My heart began to race and I knew I couldn't let Joey see the bruises on my body. The memories kept coming back over and over. The pain I felt. I began to collect feelings from when I was knocked out. The voices began running through my head again. "You asked for it. You asked for it. YOU ASKED FOR IT...!"
My body reacted before my mind could. I pushed Joey off of me, onto the ground, and I scooted backwards far away from him . I hugged my knees to my chest and I could feel tears running down my face as I could see Kevin's face behind my closed eyes. His panting of when he was on top of me, his constant yelling and swearing so he could finish his dirty work.
"You asked for it! YOU ASKED FOR IT! YOU ASKED FOR IT!"
I covered my ears again with my hands as I began sobbing in horror. A familiar voice pushed through the images and brought me back to the real world. "Chloe, Chloe, baby stop crying. I'm sorry, please don't cry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry. Please don't cry. What did I do? Did I go too far?" Joey's voice made me snap back into reality and I soon felt arms wrap around me and pick me up. I opened my eyes and I looked through the tears and saw his face.
I was curled up in his lap and I saw tears running down his cheeks and fall onto his shirt. I was glad to see his face and not Kevin's. I was glad to hear his voice instead of the voices in my head. I was glad to be held in the arms of the person I loved. But, I was in the arms of a person I had hurt.
I didn't say anything to him. I just watched him cry and I felt stabs of pain entering my heart. I looked up into his pain revealing eyes, almost as if they were asking for an explanation of why I had acted this way. My eyes filled with tears but they never fell down my cheeks, they just stayed in my eyes, making my vision blurry but easily visible enough to see my Joey in pain.
But I couldn't watch anymore. I sat up and wrapped my arms around his neck and I hugged him tightly. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before saying my words, carefully.
"Alright...I'll tell you."