I did what Ashton told me to do. I washed my face and I had a bottle of water already in the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror, I should be there with her, this fucking tour! It's nearly over. We have like a week left. Why didn't she tell me? Why didn't mum, or Brenda, or Mali, or dad tell me? Why! I could have a little boy or girl! This is a big deal, a HUGE secret to keep! I can't believe that I couldn't tell when we Skyped! Or FaceTimed! What the actual fuck!
I really need to calm down, I really don't want to see angry Ashton! I try splashing my face with water again, it cools me, I drink my water, it clears my dry throat, I breathe in, and out, in, out. Ok I am calm, I walk out and open a window, I breathe in, out, in, out. I am now really calm.
'You ok now? You calm?' Ashton asks as he walks over to me.
'Yeah, I'm ready.' I say, he hands me the phone, I breathe in and out once more and dial her number.
She didn't answer! Wtf!
'She didn't answer!!' I say getting hyped up again.
'Its ok! What's the time?' Michael asks.
'5:30' Luke says.
'Shes probably asleep.' Ashton says.
'Yeah you're probably right, she loves her beauty sleep.' I say with a smile, remembering the day when we went to Maccas and how I asked if she could make me pancakes, and she said 'HA HA HA... No.. I can't cook for shit!'. She can actually cook, she's just a bitch in the mornings, too stubborn to do anything that involves her doing nearly anything, I was lucky she even drove to Maccas for me. When ever I think of her it brings a smile to my face.
'Call her later.' Michael says, snapping me out of my daydream.
'Yeah, I will.' I say with a sleepy smile. I don't know why, but crying makes me tired. 'I think I am going to have a little nap.' I yawn and stretch 'I will be up later to call her, Ashton, take my phone just incase I do anything stupid! And I changed the password so.' I stuck out my tongue, gave my phone to Ashton and then went to my bedroom door. 'Oh and it was nice meeting you Hannah, I just wish it could've been a different time.' I say with a sleepy smile and a yawn.
'Nice to meet you too.' She says with a bright and happy smile.
I walked into my room and just landed on my bed, I took my top off and then took my shoes off, then my pants. I got under the covers, I couldn't get to sleep, so I put on some music and then I slowly drifted to sleep.
I woke up and stretched. I got dressed, then walked out to the lounge room, I see Mikey and Hannah asleep on the couch, and Luke and Ash on the other side of the couch watching T.V.
'Good--' Ashton says looking at his watch, 'Good morning.' He continues with a sleepy smile.
'Ughh what time is it?' I ask rubbing my eyes.
'2:15' Ash says. 'You wanna call her now?' He continues.
'Will she be awake?' Luke asks.
'She should be.' I say. 'Pass me the phone.' I continue. Ashton gives me the phone.
I dial her number.
***ring, ring, ring***
My heart is beating like crazy at this point in time. All these questions going through my mind, will she answer? What will I say? What will she say? What is--My thoughts were interrupted.
'Hello?' She asks sleepily.
'Hello' I say as a small smile appears on my face, but then disappears once I realise that I really need to talk with her.