I woke up around 8 in the morning. I look at phone and scrolled down twitter. I always got some hate on twitter and today again.
"@AliciaTomlinson you're such an ugly bitch"
"@AliciaTomlinson maybe you shoud kill yourself, that would be much better."
"@AliciaTomlinson you really don't deserve to be Louis' stepsister, I mean he's beautiful and you're so fucking ugly!!"
"@AliciaTomlinson kill yourself!
"@AliciaTomlinson you're such a freak!"
"@AliciaTomlinson hands off of Louis bitch!"
"@AliciaTomlinson go cut yourself"
With this one I stopped reading and ran to the bathroom with tears in my eyes. I took a razor and started to cut my wrists and my upper leg... With that I heard a knock on the door.
"ALICIA OPEN THE DOOR" Louis almost shouted
Shit I forgot to lock the door. Louis came in with tears in his eyes. He saw my phone and scrolled down my twitter. His eyes start to water and pulled me into a hug. He putted down the razor that I had in my hand. I felt a tear on my cheek. Louis was crying... I made him cry? Louis stood up and took some bandages and pulled them around mij wrists. He took my hand and we walked downstairs and maked our breakfast.
"Where is that tree house?" Louis asked
I stood up and walked to the door.
"What are you doing?" Louis asked
"I'm gonna show you where it is" i said with a smile on my face
She was hurting herself with a stupid razor. Her wounds were really deep and I was afraid of losing her and I start to tear up while pulling her in a big hug. She told me before that she felt safe in my arms so I hope she felt the same now. A tear escaped my eye. I pulled some bandages around her wrist and we both walked downstairs and maked our breakfast. I asked where the tree house was and she just stood op walking to the door so I followed her. I always kind of liked her more than just a friend but I know we can't be together...
We arrived at a secluded park but it looked like a really dark forrest. She stay walking so I follow her but I took her hand in mine. We were hand in hand it felt good for me. Would she feel the same?
We were walking trough the forrest while Louis took my hand in his. It felt good but he was my stepbrother, I mean.. We can't be togheter.. Or? Can we??
"We're here" I say while smiling and climbing in to the tree house
We sat down to the ground and he pulled his hand around my waist. I started to blush and he started to giggle. I like it when he huggs me and when he pokes me and when he makes me blush and when he kisses my cheek and when I really feel safe with him.... OK ALICIA STOP SAYING THESE THINGS IN YOUR HEAD, I CAN'T LOVE HIM IN THAT WAY.
When we sat down to the ground I pulled my hand around her waist and she started to blush. She laid down her head on my shoulder and thats when I started to giggle a little.
This looks so perfect, it looks like we're a couple but she will never like me that way.
We sat like this a couple of hours. It was 2 in the afternoon and we decided to get some foot at MC Donalds. We took our food and water and walked back to the tree house. We arrived here and we ate our food and drank our water.
For me it felt like a date but I know for almost sure that she don't think the way I do. That makes me a little sad and I think Alicia saw this.
"Whats wrong?" She asked while putting her hand on my upper leg
"Nothing" I answered
"I know there is something wrong Louis, look at me and tell me whats wrong"
"About..." She asked
"N-nothing s-sp-spp-special" I answered while I was thinking about what I could tell her
"Now look at me Louis" she said with a very soft voice while lifting my chin up with her finger
"J-just about my father really there is nothing special" I say with a weak smile
"Okay but if there is something else you know you can tell me, you can tell me everyithing" she said while pulling me into a hug
"I-I think I lo" I was about saying that I loved her but then her phone rang so I stopped talking
After a while speaking with her mother she ended the phone call.
"What were you saying?" She asked again
"Euh-euh- I- I think I lo- I think I n-need to pee, I'll be back in a sec" I answered
She looked at me with a very weird face but with that I climbed out of the tree house and walked behinde a tree were I can pee.
After some time we decided to go back to our home. It was 8 in the evening so we first got to a restaurant for food. At 10 in the evening we were back at home.
Louis wasn't the same anymore. He didn't spoke much and he didn't touched me like before. Did I do something wrong maybe? When we opened the door of our house we saw my mother and his father sitting in the sofa, watching a movie.
"I'm going to bed. Goodnight" I spoke
"Goodnight sweet" my mother answered
Louis followed me and when we were upstairs he followed me in my room and he pulled me up to a wall and held my hip with one hand and his other hand held my both hands above my head. That was the Louis I wanted ;)