I woke up from the smell of pancakes. Me and the guys laid on the counch but Ashton wasn't there si I guess he was baking pancakes. I got up and walked to the kitchen.
"Good morning Ali!" Ashton said and hugged me.
"It smells good"
"Thanks, can you maybe wake the guys up 'cause they're almost ready" Ash said and I nodded. I walked back to the living room and woke the guys up. We sat around the table and ate the pancakes.
"They're really good Ash" Luke said and we all nodded in agreement. When we where finished, we sat our plates in the dishes machine and we watched tv. I've got a message. When I opened it I saw it was Laura:
"Can you come on skype bae? <333333" it readed
"I'll ve online in 5 mins babee <333333" I texted back
"Guys I'm Skyping my friend who called me yesterday so if you need me, I'm upstairs"
"I always need you sweetheart" Calum said and he held my hand and kissed it. I looked at Luke and he rolled his eyes. I walked upstairs and washed my face and dressed myself into a really oversized Green Day shirt so I didn't need to have pants on. The shirt is a bit higher then my knees. I put some new mascara on and took my iPad. I logged in on Skype and just 2 minutes later Laura called me. ((She's dutch but I write it in English))
"Heeeeey girll!!!" She yelled laughing
"Heeeey babeee!!" I answered laughing
"How ya doin?" She asked
"Good good, and what 'bout ya?"
"Also good, I have a present for you babeuh!"
"What's it??" I asked excitedly
"Well, I bought tickets for coming to Australia!!!!" Shesaid jumping
"OHH MY GODDD ARE YOU SERIOUS????? FOR HOW LONGGGG??" I asked jumping also now excited
"I only bought a ticket to come to Australia so when I'm tired of Australia I buy a ticket back home" she said smiling
"When do you leave?" I asked
"Tomorrow morning around 9 I have a plane, so it will be 9 in the evening when I arrive in Australia. Can you come and het me off of the airport?"
"Oh my Goshh!!! You make me so happy!!! Ofcourse I'll come for you!" I said jumping up and down again
"I'm packing my things 'cause it's now 9 o'clock in the evening in Belgium, I'm so excited to see you again!!" She said as I saw her taking her bag and some clothes
"I'm excited too babe!! Maybe I'll better let you pack your bags because the guys are screaming my name." I said laughing
"Okay babe see you tomorrow!!!"
"Text me tomorrow before you get in the plane, okay?"
"Okay babe much love!! Kiss!!!" She nodded and we both kissed the camera. We ended the call and I ran downstairs.
"Finally, you're here" Michael said laughing
"TOMORROW MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND IS IN AUSTRALIAAAAAAHH!!!!" I yelled overhappy and jumped around the whole house laughing
"REALLLYYYYY???" Ashton asked and I nodded and stopped jumping. I put on my serious face but we all soon end up laughing our asses off on the floor.
"Maybe it's something for me? Is she hot?" Michael asked
"Don't get your hopes up too high 'cause she's a lesbian" I said
"Mehh maybe she'll change her mind when she sees me" Michael said and we all laughing
"Nohh Mikey, you just wish that" Luke said poking him
"STOP THAT LUKEYYY" he said laughing
"Is she really a lesbian?" Ashton asked and I nodded
"Are you bisexual?" Calum asked. I didn't want to get this question 'cause when me and Laura were younger, we had a relationship for 3 years... I looked at the ground.
"Are you?" Luke asked and I nodded
"Really?" Calum asked and I nodded again
"How do you know that for sure?" Louis asked
"Wellllll... Euh... Just forget about that" I said as I wanted to walk upstairs but Calum held my hand and pulled me against him
"Please... Don't leave me" he said almost crying
"Calum, I won't, never"
"Sure?" He asked and I nodded and kissed him
"But you still didn't answer my question" Louis said
"I had a relationship with Laura when we where younger" I said looking down
"For how long?" Ashton asked
"Do you still love her?" Calum asked as he let go of my hand
"Calum no" I said as I took his both hands in mine
"I don't want to loose you okay.." He said and I nodded
"I love you Calum!" I almost yelled and he kissed me
"Sure you do?" He asked and I nodded
"Sure as hell" I said and he smiled. He hugged me really tight and kissed my shoulder softly.
"Don't make out infront of us please" Michael said laughing and Luke ran upstairs, is he still not over the brake up brtween him and me?
"What's wrong with him?" I asked
"Alicia... He still loves you, don't you see? It hurts him when he sees you kissing with another one" Ashton said and I looked down, sad.
"Maybe you guys don't kiss infront of him?" Ashton added and I nodded
"Go talk to him Alicia" Michael said pointing to the stairs and I nodded. I kissed Calum and went to Lukes room. I heard sobbing. I knocked the door "Luke are you okay?" I asked and opened the bedroom door. I saw him crying in a corner with a blad in his hand.
"Luke!!" I yelled and ran up to him. I kneeled down infront of him and I took the blade out of his hand while he cried harder. I saw his wrist... I could read the letter 'A'. Luke looked down.
"Luke..." I said and hugged him. He hands where around my waist and I could feel his blood on my body.
"Why Luke?" I asked softly and still not letting go of the hug.
"I... I don't know" he said and I now let go of the hug. I took his hands in mine and I felt a blood drop on my knee.
"I also still love you Luke... But we both know that we aren't a good match. We broke up because it's the best for both of us. I was happy with you but we aren't ment to be together. You can get much better then me. I'm not a good girl for you, there are many, many more and better girls then me for you Luke" I said softly and he let his head fall down. I let go of one of his hands and I lifted his chin up with my index finger.
"Luke... Look at me" I said and he looked me in the eyes
"I still love you and that will never change" I said. It was quiet for a bit and he looked down again. I let go of his other hand and cupped his face in my hands. I kissed his cheek softly and whispered an "I love you" I took his arm and looked at his wrist and the cuts where now dry blood. I kissed them softly.
"Don't do that anymore please, if you cut I'll cut too"
"I---I know---I know you won't do---that-for me" he said in between sobs. I didn't want to do this because I was 3 days clean now. I took the blade and cut the letter 'L' in my wrist.
"You see Luke, I will" I said softly
"No Luke, if you cut then I'll cut too and I've prove it now" I said and he looked into my eyes. He hugged me really tight.
"come back downstairs with me please" I said as we both let go of the hug
"I love you" Luke whispered
"I love you too, now come back downstairs" I said as I stood up and stick my hand out for him to help him up and he grabbed my hand. He hugged me one last time.
"You can go, I go get a bracelet" I said and he said he wanted to wait. We walked into my room and I grabbed 2 bracelets to cover my cuts. We walked down the stairs and the guys where playing COD.
"Wanna play with us?" Ashton asked and we both nodded.
Tomorrow morning I'm going to Australia for who knows how long. I'm so excited. I pack my bags and brought them down the stairs so I don't need to do that tomorrow. I'm going to take a shower now and then I go to bed. It's going to be a long plane ride.