I woke up, afraid of what's going to happen today. Louis laid next to me with my hand in his. I smiled when I saw his sleeping so peacefully but knowing that today is going to be fucked up. I got out of Louis' grip and unlucked the door. I got out of my room and walked downstairs. The only person I saw was my mother. I just passed her and took water out of the fridge.
"You don't need to say something to your mother, no? I stood with my back to her so I rolled my eyes and just ignored her.
"Alicia, turn around" she said but I didn't
"Alicia, I'm still your mother!" She said as I turned around and walked away. Eric stood there, yeah ofcourse.
"Say sorry to your mother" he said and hit my arm with his fist.
"This is a daily routine, why don't you say sorry first? Don't you think that would be nice?" I said and he got angry. I'm so tired and sick of this shit. It's always the same, can't he be a real father or at least a bit friendly maybe?
"Just let me pass please" I whispered looking down.
"Say sorry" as he roughly pulled my head up.
"Let me pass then you'll get your fucked up sorry" I said angry back. I'm tired 'cause I didn't sleep that well, I just wanna go away from here. Laura sits there alone with the guys, I needed to be there with her... I was knocked out of toughts 'cause my father slapped my cheek and held my both arms:
"SAY THAT FUCKING SORRY!!!" He yelled in my face
Sorry..." I whispered tearing up. He let go of my arms and I walked upstairs. I opened my door and Louis was still asleep, 'how cute' I tought and smiled. I looked in my purse and searched my phone. Calum called me like 23 times and many texts, Luke called 16 times and a couple message, the same as Laura, Michael and Ashton. I just wanna be alone for some time now... But maybe I should answer them to let them know that Louis and me are okay. I texted Calum back:
"Hey guys, we're okay. Don't worry! We'll come over soon. I don't know when but we will! Kisses-hugs, Louis & Alicia."
"Louis" I whispered in his ear
"Wake up" I whispered. I kissed his cheek and neck.
"Alicia" he moaned
"Wake up Lou" I whispered in the crock of his neck
"Ali" he moaned and I kissed his neck. He opened his eyes and grabbed me by my waist. It hurted 'cause I was blue again. I didn't say anything and let him just do. He pulled me on top of him. I sat at his boxer but I didn't ment anything with that. He moaned again because I moved.
"Sorry Louis I didn't ment to do that" I said as I wanted to go of but he just sat me back on him but a bit higher this time so I wasn't moving on his dick.
"I missed this" he said as he sat up and I sat between his legs.
"So do I" I smiled
"I'm gonna get a shower" I said and he kissed my cheek. I blushed and we both smiled at each other.
"What should I wear?" I asked Louis
"Dunnoh, you're standing infront of your closet so I can't see anything" he said laughing and I took a step aside.
"I'll get us some coffee and you take my clothes" I said laughing and he nodded.
I unlocked my door and ran downstairs. My mom was sitting in the livingroom. Eric was at his work I guess. I didn't say anything and just walked into the kitchen and made some coffee.
"Why'd you change so much when I was gone?" She asked. I turned around and she stood in the door gate.
"What did you just said??? I changed??? Really?? I?? Don't you think that you've changed while you whete gone! Couldn't you let me know that you weren't dead and that you were okay? You yell at Louis and me all the time just like Eric does... You've changed, I didn't" I said and took my 2 cops of coffee.
"Don't talk to me like that Alicia!" She said
"You see? That what I mean, you're angry at me? Why? What did I do wrong? Can't you just talk to me like a normal person? If you aren't shouting at me you ignore me. Why?" I asked
"Go to your room and don't come out today! Why did I have such a daughter like this?!" She yelled at me and my eyes start to water.
"Yeah that's what I think all the time... Why didn't you let me take away, or kill me. I would be much happier in Heaven or Hell then here on earth.." I whispered walking upstairs. A tear rolled over my cheek as I opened the door with my elbow. I fastly gave Louis his coffe and whipped the tear away. I sat my coffee on my desk.
"Y-you have my-my clothes?" I asked turning my back to him.
"What's wrong?" He asked as he stood up and walked up to me. He laid his arms around my waist and turned me around so I was facing him. He whipped my other tear away.
"Nothing just my mom, you know... D-daily routine" I said and he hugged me tight
"Louis... I'm going back to Belgium... I'm fucked up done here!!" I said as I broke down to the ground and Louis had me in his arms.
"You can't running away from your problems Ali, you're the strongest girl I know! You need to face your problems 'cause they'll run behind you. Don't let let the world bring you down, 'cause it's not over, you're not alone your with me!" He said and I sobbed into his chest
"Don't go back" he whispered and I felt a tear on my shoulder. His head was now in the crock of my shoulder again. I looked up and lifted his head up.
"I won't" I whispered and he kissed my mouth. I felt safe with him but we can't be together... I got back of the kiss and hugged him. We both stood up and smiled.
"So you have my clothes now?" I asked and we both giggled.
"Yup! I have this white MCR shirt and the black ripped skinny jeans" he said smiling.
"Good choise" I said and we both laughed
"Turn around when I change" I said
"I've saw more before" he laughed and I nodded laughing too. I just took off my ling shirt and pulled the clothes Louis took for me on.
"You look good" he said and I smiled
"Can I straighten your hair?" Louis asked and I started to laugh
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, if I can, I want to try" he smiled and blushed
"Aww ofcourse, if you want to you can" I smiled and gave him my straightener. I sat down and Louis was straightening my hair. After 20 minutes he was ready. I looked into a mirror wich he handed me.
"It's perfect Lou, thank you" I said and hugged him and he laughed and blushed.
"Maybe we can go to the guys?" I asked
"Yes that would be better then here" he said and we laughed. I opened my window and Louis looked weird at me.
"What are you?? Huh??"
"My mom said I couldn't leave my room and I did this many times before so c'mon" I said laughing. Louis jumped to the tree and climbed out if it. I followed him and we both walked to the guys' house now.