8. Falling apart
After the dance, we kept fighting all the time. It was a bit of a routine to fight about once a day by now. Until finally one day, she text me.
-Frank, you know how much I love you. And this is literally killing me. I'm really sorry Frank. But I think we're done.
There's a lot more to it... but it would really hurt to continue.
Then we got into a huge fight, I said a lot of things that I regret. I was really mean to her, and I feel horrible for it. I was in love with this girl... And I just completely ruined my chance of getting her back.
I wanted her to be the one... and honestly I still do. There's no words to express the pain I feel now. Going to sleep feeling like this is not a good thing. It's not healthy. Having dreams about this girl is just as bad, especially when they're the ones that are all intimate, you think they're real... Then you wake up. You feel more horrible than you did before.
I'm in love with a girl who doesn't even want me... How do you cope with that?