Life doesn’t come with convenient signposts letting us know which is the path to' happiness and which is the path to misery, so we’re stuck taking blind gambles. Sometimes we choose well. Sometimes we don’t. Sometimes we have chances to change mistaken choices we’ve made. Sometimes we don’t.
But all along the way, we’re guessing and hoping, no matter how much thinking and reasoning we bring to bear on our choices. And we frequently end up with regrets that we carry to our graves.
I thought about this because I consumed with trying to make a decision that will affect me the rest of my life. The reason why I’m telling you this is because I have two men who wants’ me, but I can’t decide what to do. So I dated both of them, but the relationships have been very different. With the first guy, There aren’t the up and downs, but there also isn’t the magical connection. What’s more, i feel that he needs me far more than i need him. He’s apparently a great guy who will be a good boyfriend— and he’s more financially stable and charming — but the things i like about him are mostly in my head, not in my heart. He needs me — and wants me — so much that I feel guilty.
With the other guy is completely different. I feel this magical connection that most of us want to feel and that a few of us have felt in a very real way. But that relationship had problems. I saw things in him that i knew needed work — for both of us.
The first guy who’s name is Micheal by the way is about to move to the other side of the country. So while I’m been waffling about who to choose — I don’t feel that i have plenty of time to keep waffling — i feel that I have run out of time. I had to decide now — and I’m scared of making the wrong choice.
But I’m scared, I’m scared of choosing between the two of them, cause if I fail choosing between them I might lose both of them. And that’s the problem, the first guy – Micheal, I have been knowing him since two years ago, and we started to date about 4 month ago and the funny part is that he’s one of my friends brother so I’m afraid that he might come between us or in the other hand if I don’t choose him I might lose her. :-(
The second guy – Scott is my best friend we have been best friends since forever, when I started to date Michael he got jealous so I thought that maybe he’s just afraid that I might forget all about him but then one day he asked me out and then it just kept going that I dated the two of them.
So I started to get feelings for both of them and I didn’t know what to do, I was always thinking what if, what If I choose Scott and then we found out it didn’t really work out or if we broke up, would we be apple to stay as friends or would it come between us. And what about Michael if I choose him would me and Scott still be friends?
But I took the chance and chose him, that guy that knows me better than anyone, that guy who will be there for me no matter what, that guy that I have strong feelings for and had that for a while but just figure it out now, him I trust most, my best friend… I chose him because as the rumors says
“If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one because if you really loved the first one you wouldn’t have fallen for the second”