Chapter 3: Realisation
I couldn´t find head or tales in anything. The whole kissing scene from yesterday still hunted my mind and I was about to go absolutely mental. Just the thought of it forced shivers down my spine. I might have fallen for him. The sound of my phone buzzing snapped me out of my thoughts.
From: Luke :)
Good morning sunshine :) I was wondering if you would like to come over and hang out with me and the lads today?
I didn´t know what to think. One part of me was begging to go and see the lads and not least Ashton. But the other part told me not to. What if everything would be all akward between us?. We didn´t get to talk things through yesterday. Did the kiss mean anything to him at all?
Message for: Luke :)
Good morning :) I´m sorry but I´m not feeling that well today, I think I´ll stay home. :( But thanks for asking. See you around.
Yeah. I know what you are thinking..... I lied. And then what?. I didn´t really want to put me into another akward situation. And maybe I could just use this as an excuse to have a lazy day by myself.
I walked to the kitchen still only wearing my pj and grabbed a bowl of cereal and threw myself onto the couch. I ended up watching Sponge Bob... I always do. About 1 and a half episode later there was a knock on the door.
I moved my body from the couch and took my time to get to the door. I then lifted my hand to the door knob and turned it to reveal 4 well known Aussies behind it.
" Hi Sunshine. We brought movies and ice cream"
Said Luke as the first thing when the door opened.
" Yeah. We thought you would like some company. Now when you felt too bad to go to our place, we thought we would come to you."
Calum continued, smiling brightly as ever.
Sigh..... This wasn´t a part of my plan.
" Oh.. well thanks. Get in then."
Personal note to myself: Never lie about being sick.. IT DOESN´T HELP!
( One movie and 4 boxes of ice cream later)
We just finished watching Mean Girls.
I still hadn´t talked to Ashton I had actually tried my best to completely ignore him. I didn´t want to get hurt. Of course he didn´t feel the same way... He just got cought in the moment. It meant nothing to him. He could have any girl in the world. Why would he choose me?.
" Hey guys... What about watching Dumb and Dumber next" Michael suggested.
We all agreed trying to get comfy on the couch.
" Can I just borrow you for a second?" A well known voice asked.
I looked up and my eyes met Ashton´s for the first time today.
" Sure. What is it?" I asked trying to sound comfortable with the situation.
" If you don´t mind I would like to go somewhere more private." He said gesturing his head in the direction of the others.
" Oh. Sure" I said as I got up and took him to my room, both of us ending up sitting at my bed.
" Sooooo... What do you wanna talk about?"
I asked trying to start this conversation so I could get it over with.
" Kat, Listen"
" Look I don´t know what i´ve done to make you upset and avoiding me but i´m sorry."
" I´m not avoiding you"
I know... I lied again.
" Or actually I am avoiding you, but it´s only beacause i´m afraid"
I said trying not to get eye contact with him.
"Of what?" He said sounding worried.
" Getting rejected."
" Why? I would never reject you"
Now I looked up... I might have been looking like a huge question mark but I couldn´t care less.
" That´s what I wanted to talk about. That kiss.... Listen Kat... I really like you and what happend yesterday was amazing. You made me feel something I haven´t been feeling for a long, long time.... You made me feel loved."
My jaw dropped.
" And I was wondering if you would like to be my girlfriend?"
He smiled showing his dimples but looked nervous at the same time and I couldn´t help but giggle.
" I would love to"
Soon I felt a hand on my cheek and a pair of lips against mine. But this kiss was different. This time I kissed my boyfriend. What happened to start out by a kiss soon turned into some kind of make out scene. Ashton was hovering over me kissing my lips and neck while I was some point of giggling like a little child.
But soon what happened to my own personal heaven got interrupted by the door opening.
" Ahh.. My eyes, My precious innocent eyes" Michael whined as he entered the room. About to seconds later Michael wasn´t the only one standing in the door frame. " Ohh. Get a room!" Calum yelled as Luke just stood akawardly silend in the back.
We both laughed and pulled apart.