I wake up on Thursday morning and decide that I am going to school. I haven't heard anything from Luke since Tuesday. I walk into my bathroom and get in the shower. I get out and get dressed. I leave my hair as is. I grab my phone and walk down stairs. "Hey!" Ashton says bouncing. "Heller"I say walking out the door. We get into Ashton's car and start to school. "Are you going to that party tomorrow night?" He says keeping his eyes on the road. "Yes. Calum wouldn't shut up until I said yes so" I said watching Ashton's dimples. "Me too!" He says. "Bye Ash!" I say getting out of his car. I look around for Calum but I can't find him. I head for my locker when I am stopped by Calum. "You don't need to go to your locker." Calum says grabbing my arm. "Yes I do. I have to get my books!" I say yanking my arm away from Calum. I start to walk again until Calum blocks me. "Move Calum!" I yell pushing him out of the way. I walk through the doors leading to the lockers. I stop in my tracks and watch the boys. Luke had Tray pushed up against the lockers with his forearm against his throat. I gasp and Luke turns around to look at me, letting Tray fall to the ground. "Tray!" I yell and run towards him. No I don't like Tray but still I don't like people getting hurt. Tray gets up while Luke isn't looking. I drop all my stuff when I see Tray about to take a kick at Luke's back. I run as fast as possible and jump in front of Luke. Tray kicks me in the stomach as hard as possible. I fall to the floor. It hurt worse than ever now. Why the hell did I do that? I roll over onto my side as the blood starts coming from my mouth. I watch as Luke picks me up and carries me out the door. Luke gets in the passenger seat of his car and Michael gets in the drivers seat. Calum gets into the back seat. Luke holds me tight, making me feel like no one can ever get me. I hear Calum in the back talking to Ashton on the phone. We get to the hospital and Luke gets out. He runs to the emergency center. I am quickly taken out of his arms and put into a little portable bed. I try to reach out to him but I'm already being taken away. I see Ashton run through the door and run after me. He out of everybody knows how scared I am of the hospital and the thought of needles. I am pushed through to big doors. Ashton keeps running after me until he is stopped by security. He try's to get past them but they don't budge. I am takin into this cold room. I feel the doctor put something over my mouth. Exactly what I was scared of. I quickly fall asleep.
What the hell was thinking?! This is all my fault and she got punished for it! I admit it I'm in love with Ruth. She's not like the rest of the girls. Out of all the girls a had sex with and all the cigarettes I lit. I thought I was never going to stop. I knew I was never going to stop. But she changed everything. She thinks I hate her. I don't I'm in love with her and all I want to do is kiss her beautiful pink lips. I wanted her to be mine. I'm jealous and look where that go her. It was me that started the fight. I pushed Tray on the ground and told him never to come around Ruth again. He tried to throw a punch but I blocked it and pushed him up against the locker. I was so focused on killing him. He broke her. This is why she is like this. No one was supposed to be treated the way she was treated. I stood there with my forearm against his throat. Fire was lit in my eyes. Until I heard that familiar gasp. I let him go and now we are here. I stand in the boys bathroom at the hospital banging my head up against the wall. I feel a warm tear roll down my cheek. This girl has changed my whole life. She hates me. She knows my past and what I do with other girls. I don't deserve her. But I want her. "You can make everything up to her ya know. If she gets better she is coming to the party tomorrow. You can take her around and prove that you aren't that kinda dued anymore. And that you changed just for her. Just tell her that your in love with her and keep hanging around. I promise she will break and let you in." I hear Ashton's voice from behind me. I turn around to see Ashton, Calum, and Michael. "No she won't" I say letting another tear stream down my face. I quickly wipe it away. "How did you know that was what I was thinking about?" I say looking at myself in the mirror. "Because you said half of that stuff out loud." Michael says while leaning up against the wall. "I did?" I ask leaning up against the sink. "Yep" Calum says popping the p. I walk out of the bathroom door and head to Ruth's room. The boys trailing behind me. We see Ruth's dad talking to a nurse. She hands him some medicine bottles. I feel my heart sink into my stomach. "Ok so these are to make the bruise go away. But she should be just fine and ready to go home!" She says then walks away. Ruth's dad crosses his arms and turns toward me. "So are you the one that got my daughter into the middle of the fight" he says burning wholes through my heart with his eyes. "No he wasn't! That was Trent and Tray! Luke was no where around when it happened!" Ruth says walking out of her hospital room. He cheeks are bright red. "So lay off Mr Dexter!" She giggles and kisses him on the cheek. He laughs and gives her a hug. She runs past me and into Ashton's arms. "Ashton they tried to kill me!!" She says digging her face into his chest. We all laugh at her. She's so cute. I want to go hug her. We all start to walk. "So are you still coming to the party?" Calum says kicking me in the butt. "Yea I guess so" she says twirling around. "Doesn't your stomach hurt?" I hear Michael say. "No not really" she says. "It's not hurting right now because of the medicine" her dad informs us. "Danny would it be ok if Ruth spent the night with me tonight."Ashton asks. "Yea sure! Just ask long as you don't let her go to school" he says walking towards his car. "Uh but dad I will miss my school work and everything!" Ruth says stomping her foot. "Ruth i said your not going to school in your condition and that is final!" He says opening his car door. "But dad I will be ok! Calum will be there every step of the way!" She says crossing her arms. "Sweet heart I know he would but I still don't want you going anywhere around Tray!" He says starting the car. He tosses the medicine to Ashton. She rolls her eyes and kisses her dad on the cheek once more.
I look at the bottle of medicine in Ashton's hand. "Good luck trying to get me to take those!" I smirk at Ashton. "Ok now stubborn" he says pinching my cheek. I glance at Luke then look back at Ashton. "Let's go" I say softly. Ashton takes my hand and helps me into his car.
*skip to Friday morning*
I sit at the table eating some ham and biscuit that Ashton made for me. "Ok so are you going to take these our am I going to force you?" Ashton says walking in the kitchen with Michael right behind him. He stares at the bottle. Being me and my stubborn self I flip Ashton off. "GET HER!!" He yells. I quickly get up from my chair and start to run. I run around the table in circles as Michael and Ashton chase me. They corner me and I jump up on top of the table and on to the other side. I run and do a front flip right over the couch. "Hazzaaa" I says waving a red blanket that was laying on the couch. I spring for the door but before I get to it Michael grabs me up then lays me on the table. He holds my wrists tightly above my head as Ashton walks around the table with an evil smirk on his face. "You wouldn't dare!" I growl at Ashton. "You are going to take this medicine or you will be wooped...by me!" He says brushing his invisible mustache. "I am not your peasant!" I yell at Ashton. "Fine! ... You shall be!... TICKLED!!!" And with that Michael releases my hands and starts to tickle me. Ashton joins in and I laugh so hard I start to cry. "Please take them?" Ashton says softly while pouring some pills into his hand. "Alright fine" I say brushing the curls out of his eyes. I take the pills out of his hand and swallow them. Michael gives me a cup of water and I take a sip of it. I sit the cup to my side. I am sitting on the end of the table. The table comes up to Ashton's waist so I am taller than him. I give Ashton a hug. "What would I do with out you?" I whisper to him. He wraps his arms around my waist and lays his head on my shoulder. "I think that should be the other way around" he softly giggles. He kisses my neck and I giggle. "I love you Ashton" I say resting my chin on his shoulder. "I love you too R" he says squeezing me. We release and go into the living room. We all sit down on the couch. I sit in the middle of the two boys. I throw my feet up on top of Ashton's thighs then lay my head down in Michael's lap. I really didn't care if me and Michael were friends or not. I'm tired because I didn't sleep a wink last night. I close my eyes as Michael's hand starts pushing the loose strands of hair out of my face. When the loose strands are all behind my ear, Michael starts rubbing my head. I reach my arms up and hug one of his legs. I lay there still wondering why all this was happening. I don't like Luke and Luke don't like me. It's that simple but why is it being so hard? Who knows? I open my eyes and hop off the couch. I walk till I get to Ashton's room. I get on my knees and pull a box out from under his bed. It is labeled 'Rs stuff'. It had all my belongings that I have at Ashton's house in it. Like some nicknacks and crap like that but most importantly it had my mint blue guitar in it. It was a present from Calum and Ashton. They bought it for me on my sixteenth birthday. Yes, I can play instruments. I grab my guitar and go to the boys practice room. I close the door behind me and set up Ashton's microphone. I'm not really a country person but I like some country songs so I decide to sing 'over you'. I start:
Weather man said it’s gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn’t be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I’m not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn’t mean to give them to me
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone
Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
I end the song and burst out laughing. "Oh wow like I can actually sing!" I sit there laughing at my self. I can believe I actually though I sounded good there for a minute. Woo what a rush. I strum my guitar once and turn around to see a Michael with his mouth almost touching the ground. I take my guitar off and run to him. I put my hands up against his chest and push up against the wall. "You will not tell anyone!" I say squinting and pointing a finger at him. I look up at him and he looks down at me. He looks at my hand on his chest. I look down at it to. I turn around whipping my hair and walk back into the practice room slamming the door behind me. I hear it open and someone literally tackle me. We land on the couch that they have in there to rest on. "Get off of me!" I squirm. "Oh my dear Lord! How come you never told anyone you can do that!?" Michael says lifting me in the air and spinning me around. He sets me downs and I wobble around. "Do what?" I ask leaning on Ashton's drums. "You just sang! You sounded amazing! And you can play the guitar!" He says. I roll my eyes. "Your hallucinating" I say brushing past him and out of the practice room. "No I'm not! I sat there and watched you!" He keeps nagging. "Ashton tell Michael he is hallucinating!" I say opening the refrigerator. "No I'm not! I saw you with my own to eyes! Ashton tell her that I saw her sing" he say pointing to me. "Noooo youuuu didnnnttt!" I hum. "She didn't sing or do anything Michael" Ashton says plainly. Ashton knows that I can sing and play instruments but I made him and Calum promise not to tell anyone. Michael grabs his hair and pulls on it. "I know I seen you! I'm not going crazy!" He groans. "See Mikey's going crazy" I say ruffling his hair. He glares at me. "Alright. Fine! Yes I can! But you have to promise not to tell anyone!" I say throwing my hands in the air. "Ha I knew it! And I promise that I won't tell anyone!" He says giving me a fist pump. "Hey R we are going to be leaving soon for the party!" I hear Ashton yell from who knows where. I walk into Ashton's room and shut the door. I straiten my hair and decide that I am going to wear my black and white misfits shirt. With some black skinny jeans and combat boots. I stair at the one strip in my hair that is dyed completely white. I check myself in the mirror one last time and walk out of the door. I run right into Ashton. "You ready?" He smiles at me. "I guess" I reply. He takes my hand and we run out the door with Michael following. We decide to walk to the party. It's is completely dark when we get to the driveway. I instantly regret agreeing to this. Some one runs up behind me and hugs me. "Hey Cal!" I say returning the hug. "Lez go!" Calum yells. Everybody starts walking to the house but I kind a walk behind everybody.
I watch out the window waiting for Ruth. Everything is so loud. Smoke is everywhere. Mostly everybody is drunk and grinding on each other. The music is booming and disco light go of everywhere. I stay by the window watching Ruth. She stays behind everybody as they walk. When all the boys go through the door she stops and looks into the door. She's scared. But she's so cute. She finally steps in and the perfect song comes on 'it's going down for real'. I smile as she walks in. Every boys eyes land on her. She sits down at the bar and watches everybody. She spins back around in her chair facing the tender. I walk over and sit beside her. She doesn't notice me sitting beside her. I tap her shoulder. "Hey!" I yell over the loud music. She spins around looking for someone until she sees me. "Oh hi" she smiles then turns back around. "What would you like?" The tender asks me. "I would like two beers!" I yell. Ruth looks at me. And I smile at her. The tender brings the beers. I pick one up and nudge Ruth with it. She looks at it. "I don't drink!" She yells over the music. "Oh come on! Don't be your goody to shoes self tonight! Break loose! Have a little fun!" I say giving her a big grin. She yanks the beer right out of my hand and takes a big swig. You should have seen her face when she got it all down. I burst out laughing at her. She laughs right along with me. For the first time forever I see her lip piercing. "I didn't know you had one of these!" I say smirk and and running my index finger over her piercing. She blushes. Awww so cute how she looks like a little strawberry. "Care to dance?" I ask to her. "Actually! Yes!" She says tuning back around in her seat. "Come on you are dancing!" I says while taking her hand. She hops of the seat and follows me through the crowd. When we get there I spin her around and grab her hips. I start to grind against her and she just stands there in shock for a moment but quickly joins with me. After about three songs I spin her back around and look deep into her eyes. I reach down and kiss her soft pink luscious lips. I grab her thighs and push her up she where she can swing her legs around my waist. She does as so. We walk through the crowd until we get to a hallway where you can barley hear the music. It is dim in hear. I can barley see Ruth's face. Nobody is in here but us. I kiss her passionately. I start to slip my tongue in her mouth when she draws back. Disconnecting our lips. "I can't do this" she says pushing me back. I stare at her in disbelief. Did she just really blow me off like that? "You know what?What the fuck ever!" I accidentally blow up on her. She hangs her head and runs out of the house crying. What did I just do? I keep screwing everything up! I mentally slap my self so hard that it hurts. I run after her. I see her sitting on the curb by the drive way. I walk over to her and sit down beside her. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every thing. We always help each other then push each other away. I don't want to do that anymore. I want you to be mine. Yea yea I know I sleep with girls then break their hearts the next day. But not you. When I met you... Huh you changed all that. You changed every last bit of me. You are the only girl I want to be with Ruth. I want to be more than we are now. And I promise that if we ever got together I wouldn't let no one hurt you. No one will ever leave you scarred or in pain ever again. Cause I won't let that happen." I says looking strait into her eyes. Without saying a word she makes our lips collide once more. Our lips dance with each other. We both intwine out right hands. I slowly lay her down on her back. After a minute or two of kissing. I stop and watch the light in her beautiful blue eyes. I peck her on the nose and help her up. "Come on!" I say taking her hand and racing down the road to my car. We get in. "Where are we going?" She says looking around. "We are going to my moms little get away cottage." I smile at her she smiles back. We park in the middle of the woods by a little cottage. I jump out of the car and race to the passenger side. I open the door for her and she steps out. I take her in and lock the door behind us. I throw a bunch of cut up wood into the fire place. There is no light except for the fire light. Ruth lays on a little couch bed type thing watching the fire. Well it's a couch that folds out into a bed. It was already folded out so she just plopped down on it. "This place is amazing!" Ruth's says staring at the ceiling. I sit by the fire watching Ruth. I crawl over to her and plop down beside her. "Why did you say it was Trent and Tray but it was really me and Tray? Why did you cover up for me?" I ask her. She just shrugs. "Is your stomach hurting?" I ask her. "No not really. You can still sit on me just don't put all your weight on me like last time." She smiles. "I promise I won't!" Say rolling over on top of her. I bend down and kiss her lips. My lips move from her lips to her jaw then to her neck. Making sure that I leave hickeys. I find my hand start to slip under her shirt. I take her shirt off then yank my shirt off. I run my long fingers up and down her body while we kiss. I tug at her jeans then finally gets the button to pop open. I unzip them then slide them down her long smooth legs. She just slips mine right off. I bite her bottom lip. "Kinky one aren't we?" She giggles. "Oh you have no idea" I smirk at her. I kiss her lips again. I literally tear off her bra and then take off my underwear. I move my kisses down to her breasts. She moans a small moan. I move my kiss back to her lips. "Come on baby you can do more than that?" I mumble into her lips. I slide my fingers down her smooth body. I slip my finger into her panties, pulling them off. "Open your legs Ruth" I mumble into her mouth again. I slide three of my fingers into her. She moans even louder and grabs on to the sheets. "Oh come on I know that you can be louder than that?" I smile to her. "Hmm well I don't know let's see!" She says biting her lip. I hold her waist while I enter myself inside of her. She moans very loudly. "There we go!" I say pecking her on the lips once more. I flip us over to where she is on top of me. She leans down and kisses my lips. She runs her fingers through my hair. "You turn me on so much!" I smirk at her again.
When we get done which is about 3:00 in the morning. I plop down beside her. We stare into each other's eyes and start to giggle over nothing. "Your so beautiful" I say while i hold her chin and use my thumb to play with her lip ring. "Are you going to move on tomorrow?" She ask me with concern in her eyes. I look at her in disbelief. I grab her face and kiss it. "No not you. You are different. I want to keep you!" I say. That makes her giggle a little bit. "Good" she says with relief. She rolls over and I wrap my arms around her waist. I put my lips down in the crook of her neck and kiss her gently. I squeeze her then fall asleep.