Heyy so I have the flu :\ ily enjoy xx
Bella and I were lying in bed my arms were tightly wrapped around her waist and her arms were bent at my chest and resting under her chin.
"So you really think yo-" I started. She kissed me gently and put her hands on my chest pushing me back a bit so she could see me. "Yes." She whispered and leaned in again and kissed me again before resting her head on my chest.
"So Calum seemed to really be happy today." I pointed out.
"Yeah I think he really liked her." She replied. I nodded.
"Where did you find her anyway? I mean you just like, brought her to the pizza place with us and that was just I don't know, weird." I said and pulled her a bit closer into my chest.
"Well I went and saw Luke today and we talked about his uhm, little markings that I'd rather not talk about ever again but I'm probably gonna have to at some point when Luke gets out of the hospital. But anyway, Mother and Dad came in while I was visiting and Liz got kind of mad at me and then I might or might not have said she reminded me of the wicked bitch of the west-" She explained.
I laughed so hard that I had to sit up so my stomach would hurt less. "Y-you called her th-the-oh my god. You called her the wicked b-bitch of the west?!" I stuttered. Bella sat up and smiled at me.
"What? It's not that funny and let me finish my story." She said and hit the back of my head. I finally calmed down and leaned against the headboard, my stomach was still hurting.
Bella sat up and leaned against my shoulder. "Anyway, so when I walked out I was getting ready to punch someone and then Anni started talking to me and she was nice so I thought hey why not she's a fan the boys will like her." She said looking at my eyes. I nodded and laid my head on hers and closed my eyes.
Bella wrapped her arms around my waist and cuddled into me closer. We were just about to fall asleep when there was a knock at the door.
"Come in." Bella croaked a voice that showed she must have been asleep or almost asleep like I was. The door opened a bit and Ashton was standing there with his head peaked in just a little bit.
"Oh hey Ash, what's up?" I asked as he stepped in just a little bit more. "Hey I was wondering if I could borrow Bella for a second." I nodded laughing at hot serious he was. Ashton never serious so this must be important. Probably asking about Luke.
"Bella,babe, go on." I said and nudged her a bit.
"Just don't leave cause I wanna get this over with and come back and cuddle with you." She said sleepily. I laughed and blew her a kiss before the door shut.
I started to doze off when I heard my name from outside the door. What are they talking about?
"We have to tell them Bella." Ashton said trying to keep his voice low. My eyes widened. "Uhm, absolutely not. I tried that when Michael and I didn't know we liked each other as much as we do. We are not telling anyone." I snapped at him.
"But Bella listen I was-" He started but I wasn't having it.
"No ash we're not telling anyone." I pointed my finger at him. "if you tell them behind my back I swear I will be so mad." I said. Ashton's eyes were wide and he looked like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar.
"Ashton Fletcher Irwin don't tell me that you have told one of the boys." I growled through gritted teeth. He laced his fingers together in front of him and nervously laughed.
"See funny story Bella, Calum and I were talking about that kind of stuff and he asked me who and your name kind of slipped out and I didn't mean to Bella I promise please don't be mad at me." He rushed out before I could get a word in.
"Oh my god, did you tell him not to tell anyone?" I asked. He nodded.
"Ash, you gotta be more careful. What if that was Luke or Mikey?" I said. "What if Luke found out and then wouldn't let us hang out anymore."
"He doesn't control what you do Bella." Ashton said frowning.
"Ash, Luke is a 185 pound over-six-foot male I'm pretty sure he could do something about who I hang out with. Besides he'd probably pick me up and lock me in his room after dragging me there." I said and grabbed Ashton's arm pulling him in for a hug.
"I know but I just want to get it off my chest. I feel really bad and I know you weren't even friends with them when that happened but I was and I'm their friend now and I just feel bad for keeping something that big from them." Ashton explained.
"But Ashton what about Michael and I? How would he react to that? That's a big deal and I don't wanna ruin what Michael and I have so far. If it even goes far." I said and looked down. I really like Michael maybe even love and I don't wanna ruin what I have with him if he feels the same way.
"Hey," Ashton whispered and tilted my head up. "It won't ruin it. It's in the past and there's nothing we can do about the past. Yeah it happened and yeah we were stupid to do it but I'm sure he'll understand." He said. Tears formed in my eyes.
"But what if he doesn't? What am I gonna do? I need him Ashton I-I..I really just need him and if he gets mad when we tell him I'm not gonna have him." I said as tears slowly started to fall.
"Hey hey, shh, shh. It's okay, Bella if he's not smart enough to know that you regret that and I regret that as well then he's stupid and doesn't deserve you. And I'll be here for you. It's my job as your best friend of four years." Ashton said holding me close to his chest. I nodded and got a right grip on his waist.
"Thanks Ash. You're the one person that I fully trust ya know? I mean yeah I trust the other boys and yeah I love he other boys, I love you all equally, but you're the only one I fully trust. You're the one that I can tell something to and you won't overreact or tell anyone or treat me differently." I said and wiped my tears on his shirt.
"Awwh, babe. I love you and I trust you just as much you trust me. So can we tell the boys? I just don't want to keep it a secret any longer now that everyone is good with everyone." He said.
I thought for a moment. I need Michael. But if he doesn't want me after he finds out I have people to back me up. And Michael wouldn't make the boys pick sides. I don't think he would anyway. I guess we can tell them.
I sighed and closed my eyes. "Okay. But can we tell them together because I don't wanna tell Michael alone." I told him. Ashton nodded.
"Of course. In fact, we'll do it right now. Tell Michael we need to meet in the living room and I'll tell Cal. And we'll tell them together." Ashton explained and went to get Cal.
"Okay." I huffed before opening the door to Michael's bedroom. Michael was curled up and I could barely see his face but it was scrunched up and he looked like a little kitty.
"Awwh, I'm sorry Mikey. Michael wake up!" I yelled shaking him. I have him a kiss on the lips then the cheek, then down towards his neck, a low groan coming from his throat alerted me that he was in fact awake.
"Okay, we gotta go downstairs. We have news and it's important. Family meeting, go,go,go." I said trying to push Michael up.
"Baaabe.." He groaned. "you can't just stop like that."
"Come on Michael. This is important and you'll probably wanna know." No he won't. He'll be mad.
Finally, I got Michael downstairs and sitting on the couch beside Calum who looked just as annoyed and confused. "So what did you call me out of my amazing bed for?"
"It's important and I'm finally ready for you guys to know." I saw Michael tense a bit. "Yeah because I mean this us really big news and I've wanted to tell you guys for a while now but she just didn't want to." Ashton said. That little manwhore was looking at Mikey the whole time. He knows Michael likes me. I saw Michael tense up more at Ashton's unneeded and misleading information.
"Okay, well boys. Do you remember when we were all talking about mean girls and Mikey, you said that thing about jingle bell rock. And I tried to be sexy which was a bad idea because it didn't work. And I said I wasn't ready and you were like really surprised that I haven't done it?" The boys nodded except for Ashton. The little bastard was smirking.
"Yeah well, the thing is I have done it. And my first time was with Mr. Ashton Irwin here." I said awkwardly rubbing the back of my neck and letting out a nervous laugh.
Calum's jaw was hung open and Michael was sporting a blank state towards the wall behind Ashton and I. "Michael please say something." I pleaded, tears welling up in my eyes.
"Why, uh, who didn't you tell me sooner?" He asked in a plain voice that matched his expression. "I just didn't think you'd be happy about it."
A tear ran down my cheek when he started shaking his head. I hung my head but it was soon lifted by Michael. "Babe, do you think I'm mad?" He asked.
"Well, you weren't really saying anything and it was scaring me. Because I thought you were mad." I whispered trying my best not to look at his eyes.
"Well you should be scared because I am mad." He said.
I looked down once again as more tears threatened to spill out of my eyes. Ashton and Calum tried to leave the room without being awkward. "We'll just leave you guys alone." They went upstairs probably watching tv in one of their rooms or something stupid no doubt.
"I'm gonna go get ready for bed." I said and left the room. I walked upstairs with my head still down and went into my room. I put on one of Luke's shirts instead of Michael's this time, and put my shorts on. I walked to the bathroom and started taking my makeup off.
I was about to start washing my face when I felt two arms wrap around my waist. "I'm mad because you thought I was mad." Michael's deep voice whispered.
"I'm mad because you thought I would be mad that your first time was Ashton. Now I know you're gonna tell me something really cliché like you wanted to get it over with and you didn't want someone at a party that you barely knew so you and Ashton just canoodled. But I don't need a story because I don't care. It's in the past and I can't do anything about it. I mean, yeah I'm really jealous because ya know my best mate was your first time and I didn't know until a while after it happened. But I'm not mad. It happened and it's over with so it's okay." He said tracing patterns with his thumb on my hip.
"Okay," I nodded.
"But there's one thing I do wanna know." He continued. "When did it happen? Did it happen while we've been sort of kind of a thing or before that." I smiled before replying.
"Okay, do you remember about a month ago when I kind of disappeared?" I asked Michael nodded looking kind of hurt. "It was about three and half years before that." I told him. He smiled and hugged me tightly.
"You scared me there for a second. I thought that was when it happened." He said and rested his head on my shoulder letting me turn around and finish my business at the sink.
I washed my face and made sure to get all the soap off before turning back towards Michael and putting my arms around his neck.
"Let's go to bed, Mikey. I'm tired." I said. He nodded and we walked back into my room.
We later down and got comfortable. I cuddled up to him and started trying to fall asleep when I heard him whisper something so sweet. My heart swelled as he continued.
"....Goodnight baby, I love you."
Hey ily xx~ Bel