So...did y'all like the last chapter? Cause I do. Idk some of it if didn't like the way it was worded but oh well.
I stared at the floor, as did Calum. "H-how did you find out?" I asked, my voice cracked.
"Ah, so you boys knew and didn't do something about it sooner, some 'friend' you are of this boy." The doctor said with a sarcastic tone.
"You listen here, our 'friend' happens to be like a little brother to us if you think any different you better...you better change your mind! Michael and I love him. I never knew that was going on with him and you have no right to call me a bad friend." Calum said and stood up.
"Hey, hey, Cal, calm down let's just-let's just go." I said grabbing his shoulders and turning him around.
We walked out of the office and he put his forehead on the wall. "Do you think he's gonna be okay?" Calum chocked out. I sighed and leaned against the wall beside Calum.
"I sure hope so, Calum." I told him. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. "What do you mean you sure hope so? He's gonna live right?" I don't wanna be the one to tell him this cause it's really sad and...ugh.
"Look, Cal, I'm just saying that if he lives, he lives. If he dies, we're going to have to be there for each other. Can you promise me that if that happens you can stick with me, Ash, and Bella?" Calum was looking at his feet, but nodded anyways.
"Come on let's go do something." I suggested. He nodded but kept his head down. I grabbed his arm and dragged him along.
I honestly felt like a little kid wanting a puppy but not getting one. And then when they finally could get it, it was taken already.
Michael and I were currently cuddled on the hood of his car with a blanket over us. "Mikey?" I whispered.
"Yeah?" He replied. I sighed what I was about to ask was stupid because I've asked this a lot. "If Luke does die....would, uhm, would you still stay with me and Ashton and Bella?" He said he sighed and turned towards me, an arm wrapped around my waist.
"Calum, I'm making a promise right now that I will never leave you or any of the boys, or Bella." He said. I cuddled into him and sighed.
"Okay." He ran his hand through my hair. "You don't sound convinced." Michael said and looked down and laid his head on mine.
"I just, don't want us to, I don't know, split up?" Michael laughed and I scooted away but he pulled me closer, and Michael being stronger than me right now, he succeeded.
"Cal, I will engrave the words in to my car if I have to. That is how serious I am about never leaving. I will leave on the day I die and I will see you again." Michael said and pressed a soft kiss to my head.
"Fags!" We heard a boys voice yell. Michael and I both turned to the boy. He had bright blue eyes that were shone in the moonlight and ginger hair. Ryan McHathy. My high school bully. He recognized us.
Michael got up and walked over to him as I tried to pull him by grabbing his arm back towards me. "Mikey, I don't wanna cause any trouble let's just go." I said and Michael ripped his arm out of my grip.
"I refuse to let him talk to us like that you are my little brother and nothing more. I'm gonna set him straight before he even thinks about saying that to you again."
Although Michael was only about one year older than me, he treated me as if I was ten years old. Yes, Ryan's words might hurt me, but who cares what he says? I know what's true and I know that I am and always will be Michael's little brother, not by blood but close enough.
"You listen good, McHathy, he is my little brother and nothing more. You bullied him for four years, four damn years Ryan! He would call me crying saying that McHathy beat me up again. I have had enough of your shit and he has too. If you say one more word about Calum or me to anybody, you're going to wish you could've never talked." Michael yelled and punched Ryan right in the jaw. Ryan was stunned and backed off.
"You didn't just-" Michael cut him off and yelled. "I sure as he'll did you dumbass!"
Michael stormed away and grabbed my arm telling me to get in the car. "Michael I-"
"Calum he has no right to say that and he shouldn't have said that. He wouldn't have a dislocated jaw right now if had just kept his mouth shut. He tortured you for four years in that living hell and if he says one more thing about you I swear I'm going to-"
"Michael it's fine, really. You had no right to punch him either. Yes, Ryan's words may hurt me but you still have absolutely no right to hit him. You should've just gone over and said that he shouldn't have said that." I said as tears filled my eyes.
"I just don't want you to get hurt. I can't have two friends being hurt that's too much for me, Mikey." I chocked out. Michael sighed and hugged me tightly.
"No, Cal please don't cry. I'm sorry. I won't get hurt Calum, I'll be fine you just need to worry about relaxing. You're so stressed out lately and I don't want something really bad, like a heart attack, to happen." Michael said rubbing my back as I cried into his neck.
"Come on we should go home Cal, Bella and Ashton are probably freaking out. We've been gone for-" he paused to check the time. "six hours?! Calum we have to get home."
"Oh my god. How we were even gone that long it felt like an hour. But I guess we could've realized that the sun went down a while ago." I replied quietly. I reached for the seat belt and buckled, Michael following my actions before starting the car.
"Yeah," he sighed. "let's just get home before they go crazy and send a search party cause I know good and well that Bella will."
It's been seven hours. Seven hours of worrying about one of my little brothers and my sorda kind not really almost boyfriend.
I had relapsed again a few hours ago and a couple of minutes ago, again. I've just been so stressed and the only relief I had as of right now is my blade. It's an awful feeling actually. I feel guilty. What if Luke finds out when he gets better? What if he hates me for it? He doesn't have to know. But the guilt from doing it and not telling him would eat me alive. I would seclude myself from him and, well, the boys at all really.
"What have I done. I'm so stupid and selfish and, oh my god what's wrong with me?" I wept and held my knees close to my chest.
"Why am I like this?" I sobbed and bit my lip.
I heard the faint noise of a door opening and closing. The front door. I was halfway downstairs when I realized that my cuts were still bleeding a bit and well, obviously visible.
I ran back up and bandaged them. I'd have to redo them in the morning. I ran back downstairs and tiptoed as I passed the lounge room where Ashton was asleep.
"Oh my god! Michael Calum!" I yelled and threw myself into their arms. "Guys if you ever do that again I swear I will freaking put a tracking device in you." I sobbed into their chests.
Calum wrapped his arm around my waist while Michael kissed my cheek and softly whispered, "I'll never leave you, babe." No matter how hard I was crying, my heart fluttered at the simple words that took so little to form, but meant so much.
"I was so worried about you. Never do that again ever. Michael you take your phone with you next time. And Calum what happened to yours?!" I asked as I looked at the two boys standing in front of me.
"My phone was dead. I'm sorry, Bella. I thought it was enough to last me but it wasn't and...sorry." Calum said rubbing his neck nervously.
"Next time you decide to leave, please charge your phone or take it with you." I said frowning at Michael. "And tell Ashton and I next time. I was worried sick. I had a panic attack because I thought something happened to you guys."
"We're really sorry, babe. We'll tell you next time." Michael said and kissed my forehead.
"Okay. Can we go wake Ashton up and watch mean girls now?" I asked looking up at the boys and wiping my eyes.
"Why do we have to wake Ashton up?" Calum asked, confusion written all over his face.
I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. "Uhm, well he's taking up all of the blanket and he's taking up the whole couch." I replied and walked towards the lounge room.
"Oh." They said and followed me.
To say Ashton was mad about us waking him up was an understatement. He was so angry, he even went and sat on the other side of the room. Ashton walked back over a few minutes later though because we had the blanket. And he loves me.
I looked at the boys and smiled. Michael had his arms around my waist and his head was on Ashton's who's head was in my lap. Calum was basically laying on top of Ashton. I had my left arm around Michael, playing with his soft hair. My right arm was around Calum and he was resting his head on my shoulder. I laid my head on Calum's and sighed.
The movie was only half over but the boys were already asleep. I thought about the past few months. It was just February, well, tomorrow it is. This year has had a bad start. I really need to talk to Mali soon. I haven't got to lately. She texted me the other day and said if I needed anything she was there. I replied thanking her.
I soon fell asleep, into a dark dreamless sleep. Until I heard a familiar, scratchy deep voice.
"Hello little girl. Daddy just made you feel good." Once again, I was tied up and had my legs spread. This time, I saw a mirror in front of me and that awful man was standing behind it.
The mirror showed me. There were cracks all over me. A single tear rolled down my face, followed by many more, but I couldn't feel them. The big cracks across my face were becoming even bigger as I cried more and more. The cracks slid down my body and went all the way down to my ankles I couldn't see my feet, they were surrounded by darkness.
"No! What's happening?!" I yelled as I tried to move but couldn't, as if I was frozen.
"Well, I broke you little girl," he said chuckling darkly as parts of me fell to the ground. "and now, you're falling apart."
I saw myself moving as I tried to escape but I couldn't myself moving. "No! Please no! Stop it!" I saw my mouth screaming the words, but didn't hear myself.
"Please..." I screamed.
Heyyy update. Please comment and tell me what you think and what you think I need to do to make my story more enjoyable. I promise there won't be crying in every chapter like there is now in a little while. About six more updates and it'll start getting happy again I promise. Lol so I love you guys so much!
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