Hey y'all so I honestly can't believe I've gotten this far into the fanfic without deleting it and idk about you guys but Claire's has amazing suspenders 😂🙌
"What?" She asked. Oh god is she mad? Upset? I wish I could just hide in a dark hole and never come back.
"Mikey, baby. It's okay." She reached out to touch my face but I jerked back and started sobbing under the covers. I think I just ruined my life.
"Baby, don't cry. It's okay Mikey." She said and rubbed my back. I stuffed my face in my hands and shook my head no. "I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean too." I chocked out. Bella laid down beside me and turned my face towards hers.
"Hey," she whispered as if she talked any louder her voice would break. "I'm not sure if I love you yet but I'm not mad at you. I promise I'm not Michael."
"Are you sure? I didn't make you uncomfortable or anything?" I whispered sniffling.
"I'm absolutely positive, Mikey." She said and kissed my head. I slowly drifted off into sleep dreaming of how else things could've gone.
"I'll be back, baby." I heard Bella whisper and kiss my forehead.
I heard her soft footsteps on the carpet. "Bella? Where are you going?" I opened my eyes and saw her turn around. She was wearing black skinny jeans and Luke's 'You complete mess' shirt.
"I'm going to visit Mali she called me and asked if I could come over and talk to her. I'll be back later. Ashton and Calum are here if you need anything." She whispered sitting on my bed. Lying down on me, Bella kissed me one last time before getting up and walking out.
I walked downstairs and hugged Calum and Ashton goodbye and then I was off. I got in my car and started heading over to Mali's house. I turned the radio on and smiled when She Looks So Perfect blasted through the speakers. I turned it up and let my top down on the car. (a/n: idk if I said what kind of car she had but let's pretend it's a convertible)
As I drove, I looked up while I was at a stop light and saw storm clouds. It's going to rain later. When I it neared the end of the song at Luke's part with his deep voice and all that I tried to imitate it...and I sounded like I was straining. I started laughing at myself and continued singing.
I eventually pulled up to Mali's house and put the top back over. I turned the car off and walked up to the door. I knocked on the door and waited until Mali came to the door. Yet I was met with a semi-familiar face.
"Hi you must be Bella, I'm Ian." He said smiling and sticking his hand out. He has ran skin and bright blue eyes, a beautiful smile, perfectly white and straight teeth. I know I know him from somewhere.
"Hi, I'm Bella. I'm guessing Mali told you about me?" I asked. He smiled and nodded but paused. "Well yes, her and my little brother." He said still smiling.
I furrowed my brows and cocked my head to the side. "Who's your brother?" I asked smiling back crookedly.
"His name is Shawn." He replied.
"Bella! Babe I missed you. I know you've been busy with all the stuff happening with Luke but I just want you to know if you ever need to get away I'm here." She said and kissed my forehead. She's quite a bit taller than me.
"Hey Mali I missed you! And I'm sorry it has been really crazy." I said.
"How are the boys taking it?" She asked with concern all over her face. I sighed. I was really hoping she wouldn't ask that because I'm gonna have to tell her that they don't go a whole 24 hours without crying.
"Uhm, well. About that they aren't doing too good. Ashton doesn't talk much and he's been really paranoid about something, and Calum he's acting surprisingly normal. Except without all of the yelling and laughing. And that's what's worrying me. I'm not trying to get bad thoughts into your head I swear, I don't want you to think anything is wrong. I'll tell you right away if anything actually does happen but how's your life going?" I asked. She frowned but it was soon replaced with a wide grin.
"I got a boyfriend!" She squealed coming closer. I grinned and giggled a bit at how happy she is.
"Oh that's great. Is it that guy, Ian?" She nodded and bit her lip. I laughed and shook my head.
"Well, I'm getting a little bit of love myself." I said looking down and blushing. "Oh my god who?!" She yelled and I laughed once again.
"Mivehal..." She grabbed my face, squishing it up. Mali narrowed her eyes and asked, "Who?" once again. I looked at her and couldn't suppress the smile on my face.
She looked stunned and I would be lying if I said I wasn't relieved when she told me that she was happy for me. After she have me that look like 'You stay away from him' I got a little scared.
"Okay so do you want to go in there and meet Shawn and Ian?" She asked I nodded but stopped her real quick.
"Mali, the boy, Shawn, he uh, was part of the group of men that-ya know-but he and Ian were not part of it and I didn't know it was him at the time but I saw him when I was leaving the place and he looked like he wished it didn't happen. So please don't make that change how you feel."
"Won't that trigger a lot of bad memories? I don't want you to be uncomfortable." She replied and looked at me sadly. I shook my head and dragged her in the room.
"Hey Shawn! I missed you!" I exclaimed as he jumped up out of his seat and hugged me tightly. I hugged back just as hard. "I missed you too." He replied putting his face in my neck.
We sat down and started talking before it got quiet after we talked about the time Luke and Calum wore the same singlet to band practice and Ashton and his stupid purple shirt at the very first band practice. I giggled at the thought of it. It certainly was the ugliest shirt I've ever seen but it's a good thing he's cute because then I wouldn't have even thought about talking to him that day. (a/n: honestly I'd talk to Ashton even if he looked like an ogre bc Ash is bæ and nobody is gonna change that).
"So Bella I have one more question." Mali said breaking the silence. "How is Luke doing?"
"And there's one more thing Mali. I wasn't feeling good the other day and so I went to the bathroom and I was really having a panic attack, then Ashton came up and he said he was worried about me and all that crap. Then when I came out of the bathroom he told me that Luke had had a panic attack the other day or whenever and it was lunchtime. So he spilled his food on himself from shaking so bad. When the nurses changed his clothes they found, uhm, they found scars Mali. And healing cuts." I said my voice breaking multiple times.
Mali gasped and shook her head with her hand over her mouth. "I can't imagine how you're feeling. I know that if Calum ever did that I'd bust his eardrums from yelling so hard then I'd cuddle him because I'm a good big sister and he knows it." Mali rambled making me laugh.
I wiped my tears and started speaking once again. "Well, I better get going. I'm going to go see Luke for a little bit. I haven't seen him for a while." I said getting up.
Mali pouted and put her hand on my shoulder. "In gonna miss you babe. Call me if you need anything. I'll be here for you." She said smiling sadly at me. I nodded and said something similar.
"Okay bye boys. We'll have to do this again except invite the boys over." I said and gave the boys hugs. I leaned over to Mali and hugged her tightly. She picked me up and spun me around.
"Bye babe! I'll miss you. Love you." She yelled and set me down. Mali gave me a kiss on the cheek. I smiled and returned the sweet gesture. To some people that probably is weird, but she's like a sister to me so it's okay for us to be like that.
"Bye Mali love you." I said and walked out the door. She waved bye as I pulled out and made my way to the hospital.
As I drove to the hospital, I thought about what I was gonna say to Luke. Should I tell him I know? Or should I keep it to myself and wait til he's better? I decided on telling him I know today.
I pulled up to the hospital slowly and got out, dreading my talk with Luke about the problems he's facing. It had started raining almost as soon as I got out. Not just sprinkling like full on thunder and lightning.
I walked in and made my way to Luke's room. Just as I was about to fully pass the desk, the lady stopped me. "Miss, what do you think you're doing?" She asked.
"I'm going to visit my baby brother, Luke Hemmings, now let me g-"
She got up and walked around the desk yanking my arm and pulling me back. "Why do you think you have the right to do that?" She said with her hands on her hips.
I copied her actions, I puffed and put my hands on my hips. "Well, I'm his older sister I've been here more than enough times that everybody in this building that's important knows me so you should probably get out of my way and carry on with your lousy job as a desk lady." I snapped.
"Miss you are going to be in some serious trouble when I get ahold of your parents." She said shaking her head. "Oh and you can go wait with his girlfriends." She said and pointed to a group of teenage girls who were squealing and laughing.
I'm pretty sure smoke came out my ears. I was getting hot and I felt as of I was about to explode from all the anger coursing through my veins. I grabbed the lady's shirt collar and held it tightly. "You are going to let me go through and see my brother before I get really mad. Okay? Do you understand? Because if you don't I'm pretty sure I can find a few good ways to make sure that it's as clear as the space between your damn ears."
She nodded shaking and gulped. "Y-yes, you may go."
I let go of her shirt and smoothed it out neatly. "Thank you." I said flipping her off. I skipped away off to see Luke.
I walked along the tiles until I reached Luke's room. I softly knocked on the door. Once I heard the scratchy barely audible 'come in' I slowly opened the door shutting it quietly behind me.
Walking over to Luke's bed, I sat down beside him and took his hand in mine. "Hey Lukey." I said rubbing my thumb across the back of his hand slowly.
"Hey Bella." He whispered. I smiled sadly at him. "So how are you?" He asked looking nervous and guilty. I may have only just made up with my brother in like October but I can read him like an open book. That's my specialty, figuring people out quickly.
"As good as I can be. Uhm, lemme ask you something. The boys and I were talking the other day and Calum and Michael told us some information that wasn't very pleasing. Then later on Ashton proceeded to tell me that the doctors found healing cuts on your thighs and stomach. Luke, why did you feel the need to hurt yourself?" I said.
"B-Bella pl-please don't be mad a-at me..the hate just came in on me so hard and you were missing and I-" I cut the boy off and shushed him wiping his fresh tears off his face.
"Hey, I'm not mad at you Lukey, I'm just upset that you thought you couldn't come to me or the boys if you wanted to do something like that. Please if you ever feel that way again please talk to me, I promise I'll help you through whatever it is." I told him, my voice cracking multiple times. I for up and hugged him tightly and rubbed his head lightly.
"I would never get mad at you because you're sad." I whispered kissing his head softly as he cried.
The door opened and somebody stepped in.
"Dad, Mum?" I said turning around with a shocked look on my face.
Lol sorry Vivian wasn't in this I got carried away love you guys xx~Bel