1. Chapter One
The grass feels soft against my skin. The sun feels warm and the wind feels cold. I can hear the sound of birds up in the trees. I can feel the earth under my hands. I have my eyes closed. I only see the inside of my eyelids. It usually dark but with the sun beaming down on me they are filled with yellow and red. A breeze creeps over my legs and I get goosebumps. I take a deep breath and slowly open my eyes. The blue sky is the first thing I see. There are almost no clouds in the sky. I sit up and look around. There's a couple walking near the lake. Some kids are playing at the playground with their parents looking at them while talking to each other. There's also three girls lying on a picnic blanket and giggling. I can't help but think of a younger version of myself when I look at giggling girls. It reminds me when my biggest problem was if I could sleep at my friends house or if I could go watch some movie when it was dark and not being able to take the train home alone. It reminded me of a time I had a curfew. A time someone needed me home.