Bria slowly came in my room and closed the door.She gave me a small smile as she walked over and sat on my bed.
"So you wanna talk about it?" She asked while sliding me my favorite candy,gummy bears.
"My emotions are all over the place.Part of me wants to hate him but a huge chunk of me still has feelings for him.The thing I can't understand is how someone could just string someone along like he did me.I thought he liked me." I confessed.
"I don't know what to think right now about this whole situation,but if you'd like to know,I ran into Calum at school." Bria informed me.
"Did he say anything to you?" I asked quickly.She nodded.
"Well he told me what he said to you on the phone and he claimed he really liked you." She said,scoffing at the last part of her statement.
"Really like me? How do you hurt someone you like?" I asked confusingly.I didn't get this boy at all.
"And I kinda told him the whole situation with you and bullying." Bria motioned her hands around her belly hovering over her wrists and stomach,the exact places I had cuts at.I covered my face with my hands.
"Why would you do that?" I whined.I didn't want Calum to know about any of that.Hence the fact that I never told him.
"He wouldn't let me go until I-" Bria stopped mid sentence as the doorbell rung.
"Leah,go see who that is!" My mom yelled from her room.I sighed before looking back Bria.
"Can you go answer that please.I'm too much of a complete mess right now." I pleaded.She nodded her head and got up to go get the door.I heard the door open and then quickly close shut.The sounds of footsteps racing up the stairs.
"It's Calum." She said.
"Ugh,What does he want?" I asked.Why was he here? I didn't want to see him,but at the same time I do.
"He says that he wants to talk to you.I can tell him to go if you want me to." she said.
"Who was it?" My mom yelled from her room once again.
"It was just a salesperson." I lied.I looked right back at Bria again,who was patiently waiting for my decision.
"No,I'll go see him." I got up from my bed and slid on my toms.I literally felt like crap.I had on toms,yoga pants,and a hoodie going to meet the guy who I was battling my feelings for.
"Good luck." Bria whispered.I rolled my eyes before heading downstairs and opening the door to reveal Calum.He looked sad,his eyes puffy and a light shade of pink.I stepped out onto my porch and closed the door behind me.
"What do you want Calum?" I said,trying to avoid eye contact.
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry.I know I've said it before,but I really am." he said.
"I don't want sympathy." I said bluntly.
"I'm being serious.I'm not necessarily saying sorry for what you've been through,even though I'm sorry you had to go through that,but I'm sorry for how I've been treating you." he said.
"Is that all you wanted to tell me?" I said with no emotion.
"You know what,fuck this." he said,his tone angry.
"Why the hell can't you just accept my apology?"
Without another word,he slammed me against my house,his hands gripping my waist.
"I like you.There,I said it.Those feelings I had for you weren't fake at all.They were one hundred percent real.From the moment I saw you,I wanted to get to know.I wanted to be around you.I can't even remember a day that I didn't look forward to spending time with you.You were the only thing up in my head,besides soccer.I want you so bad,but I feel like I've completely fucked that up for myself.I'm sorry." he said.
"So humiliating me is your way of showing your feelings for me? Are you serious?" I shouted.
"I'm not good at really showing my feelings." he quickly replied.
"Bullshit.You were a complete gentleman over the summer.You were extremely sweet so don't lie to me Calum."
"So I can't get another chance with you?" He asked me.
"As of now? No."
I left him there on my porch.I stepped back inside my house and closed the door behind me.I didn't have time for him and his bs.I walked upstairs to my room.
"What was that noise?" She asked.
"So what happened?" She asked impatiently.
"Let's just say that as of right now,my feelings for him just got a little more complicated."