He made me feel like the most loved girl in the world.
Even when i was with my friends, he just talk to them too over skype like they knew each other.
They do now, he made a few friends here in Denmark.
He was so amazing, and i loved him a little bit more for every day to pass by.
He couldnt do anything that would make me give up on him, at that point.
I admit, i got pretty jealous all the time.
like this one time, my friend Natalie started texting him, like she didnt know i was with him...
I remember feeling so nervous all the time, cus i knew that she was so much prettier than me.
I loved him more than i'd ever loved anyone, but i had my doubts about if he would stay with me because i was me or if he would leave me cus we lived far apart, and i wasnt like other girls.
I was different, i still am.
I'll never change.
Permently i mean.
I remember the first time he looked at me on skype, and told me that he loved me.
I felt so warm inside, and couldnt stop smiling.
I kept thinking that he was the one.
but then again nothing lasts forever, so who knew.
We fighted alot.
Like real bad at some points.
I felt so bad every single time.
i kept blaming him for everything instead of listening to him.
I was the one to blame.
I still am.
I wonder if he still thinks back at that and feels as bad about it as i do.
I think it was the distance that made it hard for us.
He kept telling me how much he wanted to feel my lips against his, and how much he wished i could cuddle up in bed with him..
and it broke my heart every time, cus i had to say that i couldnt...
After a week into our relationship, it felt like i'd known him forever, like i was just ment to know him.
I dont know if he felt like that too, but im sure im not the only one who thought a long distance relationship wasnt that hard, but the truth is that it is so damn hard just to remember to text each other enough and tell the person in a different country that you actually love them without you have ever even met the person in real life.
I remember that at some point i was joking around about having a baby, just because i wanted to see his reaction.
but when i first brought it up, he was so open about it and said "Lets have our first time, first and then if you still want a baby after that. lets do it"
It was like he was planning our life together.
I'd never talked with a boyfriend about having a baby before that.
we even talked about him going to Denmark and start studying here as we lived together and got a baby and stuff.
Some dreams, are just ment not to be lived.