I guess everything went pretty good from there.
We texted every single day, and skyped most of the nights.
He had becomed one of the few persons i trust the most and thats a big deal to me,
cus i dont really do trusting very well....
I remember one night when we were skyping and he said something really funny.
I dont remember that he said, but i laughed my ass off.
He was such a funny guy, he always made me laugh and smile.
Even though i couldnt touch him to punsh him on the shoulder and say Good one bro.
I felt like he was getting to me, if you understand.
He knew me better than anyone else.
Even better than my bestie.
It was getting hard to act like he was just a friend.
Cus he was so much more than that to me.
He was like that piece that had been missing in my life for the last 16 years.
He was the better half of me.
After a while everything kinda changed.
We went from Friends, to friends with benefits.
It was kinda weird at the beginning, cus id never had such a open friendship before.
I mean i had a friend with benefits before that, but it wasnt that intimit.
This one was.
He could turn me on just by saying a few little things to me, and his voice and accent when he said it.
Didnt make anything better.
I remember that i had alot of pictures of him, and about 40% if them was shirtless.
He had an amazing body, and tbh i didnt know how he could actually get turned on by someone like me,
and by me, i mean a chubby girl with self loving problems.
But he did.
and he kept telling me that i was really beautiful and hot and all that.
and at some point.
I started to actually believe him and believe in myself alittle more.
He made me feel like i actually ment something and that i wasnt just some girl who was a mistake and needed to go away.
My friends and family and even my bestie thought i was perfectly happy and living a good life and smiled because i was happy and all.
But inside i felt like i was breaking down.
I didnt have anyone who would understand and all that.
Before i met Brandon.
He made me feel happy again.
and im still thankfull.