I sit there going through all the messages and I get to the newest one. "I'm on my way if you don't answer me in five minutes."
That was sent 6 minutes ago. It just turned 6 minutes.
My eyes widen. "Fuck."
I hear someone talking down stairs and I feel my throat dry up.
"Fuck." I say again.
"Well he wasn't kidding. That was fast." Luke says and I groan.
Someone knocks on my door and I start to panic.
"Ashton?" I hear Calum say as he opens my door and peaks his head in.
I glare and he gulps as he steps in and closes the door behind him.
He takes a step closer to me and I move back. He sighs and runs his hand through his hair.
"I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't know that they would show up. I swear." He says moving toward me fast and I jump off my bed and move away from him.
He stops and bites his lip. "I won't hurt you."
He inches closer and my eyes go wide in fear as my back hits my far wall. I'm trapped.
I'm gonna die in my room. I can feel it.
"Calm down Ashton. It's gonna be okay." Luke soothes me and I sigh.
"Just- can I talk to you without you freaking out thinking I'm gonna hurt you?" He asks looking at me with big puppy eyes.
I look down shrugging. I hear him sigh.
"Okay. Fine." He says.
He sits on my bed and I cross my arms.
"Why?" I choke out.
He looks taken back and smiles. "Why what?"
I look down and rub my arm. "Why'd you do it?"
He grins but it falls and he looks nervous. "I didn't want to. It hurt me knowing that I hurt you."
"You left me." I whisper.
He scratches the back of his neck. "I know I did and I feel like shit for doing that. How bad did I, yeah know."
He gets up and walks over to me making move away.
He reaches for my hand and I flinch away. He looks hurt but it goes away just as fast as it aprared. "I wanna see what I did."
I shake my head quickly and throw my arms around my stomach.
No he can't see how fat I am. No, then he'll have another reason to beat me along with Michael.
"Ashton please." He says and I shake my head even harder. He can't see the scars and the bruises.
"Ash, you have to trust him." Luke says and I shake my head again.
"No. No. No. No. No I can't." I mumble and Calum looks pained.
"Ashton it's for your own good. Please!" Luke begs me and I grab my hair shaking my head. I squeeze my eyes tightly shut.
"No I can't! Just- this is all to much. Please stop, it hurts!" I sob out and I fall to my knees.
I feel my whole body start to itch, especially my arms and stomach.
I feel hands on my shoulders and I scream backing away from whom ever it is, well only one person it could be and that's Calum. I look up to see Calum close to me, on his knees in front of me.
He looks at me with teary eyes. "Ashton..... I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I never should have done all that stuff I did to you the other day at my house. I know you won't forgive me but please, give me another chance." He wipes his nose as he chokes on a sob.
I think about it for a few seconds and I pull on my sleeves without even thinking about it.
I sniffle and I slowly nod my head. He sighs and gives me a watery smile.
He brings his hand up to my face and I flinch away but let him out his hand on my cheek.
He wipes away my tears that are falling down my cheeks. "I'm sorry." He whispers.
His eyes are big and brown and full of pain and sorrow.
"It's not okay but that doesn't mean I want you to feel like shit cause of me." I whisper but were so close that I don't have to speak any louder.
More tears fall from his eyes and now I bring my hand up and wipe his tears away.
"I just feel so bad because of all the pain I brought on to you." He says and wow when when did we get so close......
"Ashton don't you think your a little close to him....?" I hear Luke say but I ignore him and all my focus is on Calum right now.
I move closer to him, eyes never leaving his.
"Ashton what are you doing?" Luke's voice echoes through my head as he sounds frantic.
I feel his breath mix with mine, my nose hits his softly and I feel my eyes close half way.
"Ashton! What-?!" Luke's voice breaks but I don't really hear him.
My lips graze over Calum's and before I know it, our lips are pressed to each others.