Luke's POV (say what?)
I look down at Ashton's sleeping figure and sigh holding him even closer to me if that's possible.
He doesn't know how much he means to me. It hurts knowing that he gets hurt by the people he once trusted and called friends.
Fucking Michael. Tony's a pain to but I think Calum's just as bad as Michael.
I don't understand why Ash keeps forgiving him. He hurts him yet he still forgives him.
I will never understand Ashton. But that's okay. He's perfect just the way he is.
I brush a piece of his curly hair out of his face. He needs a hair cut. He stirs a little bit but all he does is hold me tighter and bury his face in my shirt more.
He needs sleep, I can tell.
I look at his face and then at his neck and I go down to his shoulders and down his stomach and- I freeze once I see that his sleeves have ridden up and I see all his scars. Some old and some new, like really new.
I bite my lip and lightly trace over them with my finger. He pulls his wrist closer to him and I kiss the top of his head.
I know he's got so many questions but I'm not aloud to answer them. Not right now anyway.
Hell I'm breaking a rule right now. I'm not actually suppose to be here with him but I just couldn't help it.
Have you seen how adorable he is?
How can you not love- like him.
It was hard to keep away from him before but now that he nows I'm here it makes it all better.
For both of us.
I sigh as I look at the time and see that it's only 4:00 now. Wow time really went by.
I bury my face in Ashton's curls and close my eyes.
I smile as I lean against the tree, watching Ashton spin in circles and he falls back with a loud giggle.
God he's amazing.
I can't say anything though cause according to him he's not gay. And I've got respect that.
I've been in Ashton's head evers sense he was 6. He always thought it was just him and little kids don't really care cause they think it's all fun and games most the time.
Ashton, he was a little different. He didn't like people that much. He had 1 friend.
That friend was Michael.
I really shouldn't say anything else..... That's Ashton's job to tell if he wants to.
I walk over to him and he smiles up at me.
"Hey Ashton." I say sitting beside him.
He doesn't say anything only moves closer and wraps his arms around me. I blink a few times a little shocked but can help the heat that spreads to my cheeks.
He smiles up at me and I feel my breath get stuck in my throat at the sight before me and my heart beats faster.
He's so amazing.
"Luke why didn't you come to me before?" He asks and I sigh, trying to think I how to tell him without actually telling him the main part.
"I wasn't aloud to. Ashton, I'm not even aloud to be here but- I just couldn't stay away from you any longer." I stamper out as he raises an eyebrow at me. Well hell I'm just making a fool out of myself. My whole body heats up.
I've had a giant crush on him for the last few years.
I could never admit it to him.
"But your here now so I guess breaking a few more rules won't hurt right?" He asks with big hazel eyes.
I shake my head. "Sorry. No can do Ash."
He sighs and leans his head on my chest making my heart pick up speed more. Shit I hope he can't hear it. "Alright. That's okay I guess."
I pull back making him look at me. "Ashton you know I would tell you if I could but I- it's just- I can't tell you."
He gives me a sad smile. "I know. I should stop asking but I'm just curios." He says pulling on his sleeves.
I grab his hand and hold it tightly in mine and I grin sheepishly at the blush that goes to his cheeks.
"What time is it?" He asks after a long silence.
I furrow my eyebrows. "Not sure. Wait. When are you suppose to meet Michael?" I ask.
His eyes go wide and he bites his lip. That damn lip.....
"At 7 I think." He mumbles and I nod my head.
"We should get up." I say and he nods but none of us move.
"There's a problem." He says and I give him a confused look.
"How do I wake up when I want to wake? My body usually just wakes up when it's ready. I think." He says and I laugh.
I brings his head toward me and I close my eyes, kissing his forehead.
I open my eyes slowly and I see Ashton waking up with a yawn. God he looks so adorable with his messy hair and sleepy haze look. I could just kiss him and- whoa okay stop right there Luke.
He blinks and then turns to me and gives me a smile but then looks at the time and gasps.
I look and my eyes widen. It already 6:28pm! Holy fuck.
"Shit I've got to get ready!" Ashton yells going to get out of bed but falls on his face.
I laugh and he shoots me a glare as he stands up. He quickly gets up and runs into the bathroom. I lay back down and get out my phone going on twitter.
Nothing good. Then an idea pops into my head. I search Ashton Irwin and a bunch of people come up.
I scroll through them all and I find my Ashton- yeah I'm serious he's mine.
And I don't plan on sharing. Not with Michael or even Calum.