7. chapter 6
After like half an hour of the shouting downstairs Luke kinda got me to calm down and is currently trying to make me fall asleep. But I already know nothings gonna work, so I think he should give up now. I tried to show him that by sitting up and cuddling into him. Obviously it didn't work though, he kept putting me back under the covers. So I got up and just clutched onto his body, he tried to pull me away but I was holding onto him really tight. Finally he gave up as his arms wrapped around me and I sat in his lap.
It was quiet and I actually thought that they were done screaming at each other. That was until I heard a big crash and even louder screaming which I didn't even know was possible. It seemed I wasn't the only one who was surprised since I felt Luke jump. When I looked up at Luke's face I saw his expression change from fear to confused to anger. He gently placed me beside him and kissed my forehead then told me not to leave the room. I was slightly confused but then he got up and walked out of the room and closed the door again, I heard him run down the stairs. I heard him shout at the other three boys but that only made things worse as the screaming got even worse.
My heart started beating really fast as it got harder and harder to breathe. I felt as if the walls around me were folding into a small box and squished me in. I looked around shakily and spotted a window. I carefully got up but immediately fell over, I started to crawl over to the window and slowly lifted myself up by holding onto the ledge. My hands shook as I opened the window, and took in a deep breath of the fresh air. But I still couldn't calm down. I quickly climbed out and saw a tree branch not directly in front of me but if I jumped I could hang on. So that's what I did, I jumped and grabbed onto the branch. I climbed down the tree, and touched the grass with my foot before jumping down completely. I just laid down on the soft grass and cried. I'm cried for what felt like hours, it's weird how no one has even looked for me yet. I guess they really didn't care, I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't care because I actually do care. I was beginning to think I found people who cared and loved me. I guess my parents were right, I will always stay unloved and worthless, like a piece of trash someone dropped on their lawn.