Calum and I both stand up from the water, still laughing.
"How was that?" Calum asks Michael.
"That was pretty good, but now you have to top it off with a kiss," he answers with a smirk.
"Ok, that's not hard." Calum says then faces me. "Are you ready?"
I scoff. "Yeah! Of course. We kissed before, haven't we?"
Calum wraps his arms around my waist in response. Before our lips connect, I look over at the shore and see Aleisha and Luke making out on the sand. My cheeks turn red from jealousy and anger and I feel a pang in my chest. When the two finally pull away from each other and face the water, I press my lips against Calum's. I didn't enjoy the kiss, however. My stomach didn't feel all weird inside. My heart didn't "flutter". It just felt like a plain kiss that didn't have any meaning to it.
We pull back and Michael claps his hands.
"Perfect!" he exclaims.
I smile weakly at him, feeling sadness wash over me. I do like Luke and I do want to be in a relationship with him, but I don't want things to change between us if we ever were to, you know, break up. Just thinking of those two words makes me feel sick. Maybe we would only be better off as friends.
"Charlie?" Ashton shouts, waving his hand in front of my face.
"Huh?" I say cluelessly. "Sorry, I must have zoned out again."
Once my feet touch the dry sand, I plop down on it. The sun was setting and it reminded me of the day I met Luke. Everything we did today reminded me of that day. I just stare into the endless sea. The color reminded me of Luke's eyes.
I groan quietly to myself. Why do I keep on thinking of him? Michael tells me that he is going to get the food from the car with Calum and Ashton and I nod. I knew he didn't want to ask me to come with, knowing that I wanted to be alone.
A few minutes later, I realize that I'm alone with Luke and Aleisha and boy, do I regret not asking to go with the boys to the car. I look at the two "lovers" and it looked like they were having fun sucking each other's faces off. I stand up, wipe the sand off my bottom, and walking further away from the two so that I could barely hear the sounds that were coming from them. I look at the moving water and smile. This reminded me of the old days, when my dad was still alive. We would have picnics on the beach and admire the way the ocean moved. Thinking of of the good memories of my dad made me feel warmth, or was it the sudden presence next to me that caused it?"
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" he says softly. I don't say anything and continue to gaze at the sea in front of me. I'm too afraid to look at him.
"Charlie, what happened between us? Ever since the boys and I came back home you've started acting weird, like you're afraid. But why? We've been best friends since forever," he asks, his voice filled with hurt and sadness. I try to resist the urge to look at him but fail as my eyes dart towards him and his sparkling blue eyes, leaving me with a stirring feeling inside of my stomach.
"I-I..." That was all I could stutter out and manage to say. He waited for me to say something, but it seemed like I was unable to speak.
Luke groans, then says with annoyance, "Just forget it."
I remain quiet, helpless. I just blew my chance. I could have confessed my feelings for him and worked things out, but no. Fear took over me.
"I'm sorry..." I say quietly, looking at him through the tears.
Before walking away, he stares at me with a somber look. "You don't need to me."
Tears drop down my face. It hurts to know that I could have fixed things between us, what went wrong. I cry freely, not caring if someone could see.
"This whole thing is useless," I sob to myself. "He won't love me the way I love him."
Hey guyz, I know I barely update and I'm sorry for making you wait. It's just that I have no motivation to write this anymore. I re-read every chapter more times than I should to make sure that it's good enough for you guys to read.
I'm still going to CONTINUE this book though and finish it for all of you who read this (and thank you guys so much for dealing with the shitty updates 😂). My writing is far from perfect and I guess I just get a bit ehh when it's not good enough for you guys :( All I want is for you to enjoy reading You Again.
Thank you guys so much. Sorry for the short chapter and bad ending. I was rushing to get it finished. Seeing all the comments and likes makes me motivated to write more :)
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