After Ash left My mind was boggled with a million questions and started to think about what he said "maybe the chance of being hurt is worth it." I sat on my bed and just thought about it. Why though why in the world would he even want to be near me. Let alone this. I closed my eyes and though a little nap would help this. After a while I was being shaken awake. I looked up to see my brother Caden. " Hey Dinner is going to be what ever you want dad had to going on a last minute trip for work." I shook my head and then smirked at him. He smiled and said " You want some dessert for dinner don't you." I shook my head yes and he said " It just so happen that I have cookies already made and some ice cream we can stuff it them." I smiled and then got up and went downstairs........
Although the idea of cookie sandwiches sounds good I was just barely eating it. Ash was on my mind too much I heard my brother say " What's wrong, you usual eat everything when we have dessert for dinner?" I opened my mouth as I was about to talk , but quickly shut it. Caden sighed and said " You known eventually you are going to have to talk. You just can't live the rest of your life like this. I sighed knowing I couldn't Jobs ,well most require you to talk if you are capable of. Which I am I just chose not to. I then shrugged my shoulders and sighed .
After I finish as much as I could I went up stairs and started to cry. My life is a completely total mess. I closed my eyes again just trying to remember the last time I was actually happy out side of my house. The last time I could remember was when I was with Adam or with my friends. That was when I knew my decision for Ash.. I got my phone and texted him: Lacey: Hey I been thinking about what you said!
after about a few minutes he replied : And.........
As fast As I could I said " And maybe the hurt could be worth it."
He then said " So That is a yes then?"
I texted back " Yea it's a yes."
After I texted him I guess I felt a little better I mean maybe just maybe I could actually be happy again. I then decided to write again in my journal.
I am slowly forgetting the pain you caused and am more focused on the wreak you left.As time goes by my heart sits and pretends to be fine even though you left it to rust. But now you must see it is changing for me and I am slowly getting out of this wreak. I don't know where this will take me , but we will have to see. "
I closed my journal and got into my Pajamas's. I climb into my bed and went to sleep. I woke up to the sound of beeping. I looked at the time to see it was 9:00 am. I found the source of beeping and saw my phone. I looked to see I got a text from Ash: Hey, Want to hang out today? I then replied to him "Sure pick me up from my house in 20." I quickly got dressed and raced down stairs to eat something. I then left a note for Caden saying " Hanging out with a new friend , Need me just text ."
I waiting by the door looking for Ash's car to show up. When it came into view I left my house and started to walk towards it. When he came to a stop I got in and he said " You ready for our day of fun." I giggled just a little and shook my head yes. We drove for a little till we reached this house in the a neighborhood. He pulled into a driveway of a little house and said " This is my home." I shook my head and said " It's nice." He looked at me just a little probably not used to me talking. " You did say to make an exception right?" He then stuttered " I-I-I did , but I-I didn't expect you to go through with it. I just though you would just try and at least hang with me and do less talking." I then said " Well I am going to talk , but just to you , you are an exception . Just remember you break my trust you lose this exception. " He shook his head. then said " So let's go inside. Shall we."