Thinking about yesterday, I wasn't going to lie, it was a bit awkward. More surprising than it was awkward for me though. It's not everyday when you're taking a shower and suddenly a fully clothed girl just decides to just come in. It had taken me a moment or so to realize that is was because her roommate was coming into the bathroom.
Being the good girl that she was, I knew that her having to see me in the shower was not something that settled easily for her. I figured that this was all going to blow over by today since it happened yesterday.
As I left my dorm building, I noticed her walking as she headed to her first class. She usually waited for me out here so we could walk together since we had our first class together. By the time she was walking past my dorm she usually ditched her friend and told her to go on while she waited for me, but she of course never told her friend that. Nicole walked with Liz and Liam usually went up and caught up with her once he came out of the dorm.
Today though was different because she continued talking to her friend as she walked passed, she gave me a small smile as she walked by me and then she turned back to Liz. I was a bit confused but I shrugged it off and just decided to wait for Liam to come out of the building and I would just walk with him.
Nicole probably just wanted to catch up with her friend today while walking to class. I couldn't expect her to spend all her time with me even though I wished she would. It was just so different for me to actually be with a girl for more than a few weeks and while it was still a bit unusual for me, I was beginning to really enjoy being with Nicole.
She was really sweet but could be sarcastic and feisty when she wanted to. She actually cared about me and didn't just want me for a meaningless hook up like some girls did, although I didn't have much of an argument there because I used girls for hook ups more than they did to me. She was new at the whole intimacy thing and I was fine with that for selfish reasons because if she didn't know what to do I could tell her in the way that that pleased me.
I was trying to keep my selfish desires to myself though because I didn't want to get her into something that she didn't want, like I could've done so when she was drunk the other night but I paced myself. After a few minutes of waiting outside of the building, I finally saw Liam walking out.
"Why are you out here?" Liam asked once he saw me.
"Not excited to see me?" I joked. "Why aren't you walking with Nicole?" he asked me.
"She kept talking to Liz and is heading to class with her so don't bothering catching up with Liz," I told him.
The two of us then began to walk to the building where our first class of the day was.
"So how are things going with Nicole?" Liam asked me as we walked.
He's pretty much the only person who knows about Nicole and I since he's been obsessed with helping me be nice to her a crap earlier when I had first decided that I liked her. I didn't know if Nicole was okay with him knowing or not but I honestly didn't care.
With the way she's been trying to hide it from her friends I should at least be able to tell one of my friends. I've been refraining from telling Liam too much though; he doesn't know that Nicole and I are officially dating now. It felt so weird to think that Nicole and I were dating.
"Things are good," I told him.
"You, me, Nicole, and Liz, should all go out sometime on w day when we can go off campus," Liam suggested.
"Yeah, maybe," I told him.
I wasn't quite sure what else to say because I couldn't exactly tell him that Nicole didn't want anyone to know that her and I were even friends so forget having us out with people from this school and let them know that we weren't exactly just friends like most people thought if they even bothered to consider it at all.
When we got to our class, Liam went to talk to Liz, and I was going to go talk to Nicole, but I decided to just not bother right now, class was going to be starting soon anyway.
Once that class was over, I waited until we all got out of the building and Liz and Nicole went separate ways before I went up to talk to Nicole since we both had our second class together.
"Hey," I said as I walked up next to her.
"Hey," she said back, not making eye contact with me as she pushed the books she was holding up closer to her chest.
"You okay?" I asked her.
"Yeah," she said, still hardly even looking at me or acknowledging me.
"Okay," I said, obviously not convinced, but I wasn't really wanting to pester her about it right now, I already felt like I was bothering her.
"I'll see you in class. Still meeting at the coffee shop for lunch?" I asked her, just to make sure and she nodded.
I nodded back before quickening my pace and heading to our next class, the class that we had together but for some reason I had felt it best to just walk on my own.
By the time all my morning classes were over, I made my way to the coffee shop for lunch. I sat down at the usual table and waited for Nicole to show up. I was relieved when I saw her walking in a few minutes later because I honestly didn’t think that she would show up even though she said she would.
“Hey,” I said to her as she sat down like I always did.
“Hey,” she mumbled back as she slid her backpack off her shoulders and set it on the table. I waited for a conversation to start but I knew it wasn’t going to as soon as she began to pull schoolwork out of her backpack.
After about ten minutes I realized that me being here was pretty much pointless right. “I think I’m going to go,” I said as I began to get up from the table.
“What? Why?” she asked, finally looking up at me.
“Well I didn’t figure you would mind,” I told her.
“Why would you think that?”
“You’ve pretty much been avoiding me all day,” I told her.
She looked like she was about to say something, then she stopped herself, but then she began to speak.
“I just feel like things may be going to fast,” she admitted.
“Is this because of the shower incident yesterday?” I asked and I took her silence as a yes.
“Hey I didn’t ask you to get in with me,” I joked, but judging by the look on her face I figured I probably shouldn’t joke right now.
I didn’t understand why this was such a big deal for her or why it seemed to bother her so much.
“Were you not ready to see that much of me?” I asked, deciding to throw in a joking tone anyway but she stayed silent as she looked at me.
“What now you think you have to throw down too?” I asked.
“What if I don’t want to?”
“That’s okay,” I assured her.
“What if I did want to?”
“That’s okay too,” I said.
“I guess I just wonder, what’s in this for you?” she said.
“What’s in this for me?” I repeated.
“Yeah, out of all the girls you could’ve had, you chose me, so if you’re just looking for…you know,”
“What? Sex?” I asked her, “You know if that was all I wanted, you probably wouldn’t be the first person I would go to,”
“I’m just going to go now,” Nicole said as she then began to get up, her eyes now focus on the ground.
“No, Nicole,” I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back. She tried to push me away but I grabbed her other wrist.
“I’m sorry I said that. I meant that you aren’t like that, and I knew that when I met you,”
“I’m just scared,” she said.
“Not you…being with you. I’ve never really been involved with someone before and you’re just so different and I don’t know what your expectations are and…”
“Nicole,” I said sternly,
“I don’t know what delusion you’re under but you need to remember that this is all new to me too,” I told her.
Before she could say anything else, my hand was pressed to the small of her back as I pulled her towards me and pressed my lips against hers. I smiled into the kiss when I felt her kiss me back and I knew everything was okay.