Well, in order to get myself distracted, i decided to do a sleepover. Valerie, Mel and i were laughing our hearts out; We even drank wine since it's considered as a classy drink, and you know us girls, always staying classy!
Out of nowhere, Zayn entered the living room so we left the sleeping bags in surprise! "why are you back?" i asked. "i'm truly sorry to interrupt, Hope i need to talk to you in private" he said making me worried. We headed to the back yard and sat on the swing. "what's wrong? you're gonna be late" i said. "i still have time, they'll wait for me, i've been wanting to talk to you for quite a while now" he said clearing his throat.
"So about your scars..." he began to speak when i cut him off. "No please don't, i already screamed at Niall for telling all of you, i didn't want you to blame yourself for anything" i said. "but... i'm the one who left you all alone, i just wanna make sure that it's all good now" he said when i sighed. This was such an uncomfortable situation!
"y- yeah it's all good" i said smiling. "one more thing... can i see your wrist?" he asked. "uhh..." i thought about it, he might not notice the new cut so why not give it a shot?
i rolled my sleeve up for him to see. "i'm sorry for everything" he said rubbing my wrist with his finger. "wait... that seems recent" he said. I could feel my nervousness level rising, i just wasn't prepared for this!
"okay here's the truth, i did it again today right after Niall left... and i'm sorry" i said facing the ground, i couldn't bare to look him in the eyes. "W- WHAT IF I TELL NIALL HUH? WHAT WOULD YOU DO?" he yelled. "why would you tell him? he has nothing to do with me anymore, please don't" i cried when he pulled me into a hug.
"HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO REACT TO THIS TELL ME" he yelled again. "i- i don't know i said i'm sorry" i said with tears rolling down my face. "i can't stand leaving you anymore, i'll be thinking about you non stop" he said wiping my tears with his thumb. "no boy is worth crying for even if it's my best friend" he continued. "please don't worry about me, i'll be fine, just have fun with Perrie and the boys, and make sure to let your fans know how beautiful and worthy they are" i said.
"i'm gonna pay extra attention to my fans, i don't want any girl to deal with this" Zayn said pointing to my arm. "alright now go or else Simon Cowell will kick your butt" i said sarcastically, he didn't laugh though!
"can i have a promise please?" he asked. i hesitated and looked at the ground. "HOPE COME ON YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THIS, YOU'RE WORTH SO MUCH MORE" he yelled. "stop yelling, i don't want Valerie and Mel to hear us, i promise" i said. "fine i'll call you as soon as i get to Spain" he said walking away. "oh and Zayn" i called his name making him turn around.
"thankyou I LOVE YOU" i yelled. "I LOVE YOU TOO" he shouted back making me laugh.