Zoe's POV ;
What if Em's right. What if he want to use me and nothing more. What if he's dangerous.
She told me she'll be supportive. Should I talk to her? Tell her what happened? What if she starts lecturing me again. Maybe she didn't mean to when she said 'I won't bother you'. I have no one to share this with, not even my best friend.
Em didn't come to school today, she texted me this morning that her mom is sick and she had to spend the night taking care of her so she didn't get much sleep. So most of the day at school was boring, lonely is boring.
* lost in stereo lost in stereo * (my ringtone) dad's calling.
"Hey sweetie. How's school?"
"Fine.. You never call me during school. What happened?"
"Nothing. I just didn't see you last night, and I'm tired of texting.. Umm I can't drive you home today either. Too much work has to be done. Can Emma drive you?"
"Yeah sure she'll drive me. Bye, have a nice day."
I know I lied and told him Em will drive me but if he knew I don't have a ride back home, he would leave work just to take me back. I'll just walk.
I texted Em that I'm walking home but if my dad asks, her mom gave us two a ride.
Plugged my earphones in and started walking, and walking, and walking.. 10 minutes on the road with dad seem to be short, walking with Em seem to be short as well..have I lost the way?
* lost in stereo lost in stereo * the call stopped my music
It's Ashton. Why the hell does he call me?!
"Hello?" I answered like I'm talking to a stranger.
"Hey. I guess you know who is this..need a ride?"
"What?! How do you.."
"Turn around" he laughed
His car parked behind me.
Why I don't think when I do things?! I could simply ignore this freaking call and walk home! If I could find the way..
I walked towards his car. He opened his window.
"What're you doing here?" He asked
"Me? What're you doing here? Stalking me?" If I could seriously punch myself right now it'd be great.
"I'm not stalking you.. I just stopped to buy something. I saw you walking and assumed it'd be nice to say hi.. Then hi" two beautiful dimples appeared
I'm being a bitch every time we meet, why does he keep doing this?
"I don't need a ride thanks" ignored his greet
"Stop lying. You're totally walking the other way. Let me take you home."
"How do you.."
"I dropped you by yesterday. I know where you live. Now get in"
I'm pushing him away and he keeps coming back. What's wrong with this guy.
I set in the passenger seat next to him.
"What did you mean when you said 'you find me interesting'?" I broke the long silence
"I want to get to know you" he looked at me and then back on the road
"Oh" that's all I had to say
"Is that bad?" He kept looking on the road
"Ashton I don't know you"
"I don't know you either"
"Yeah but that's different" I looked at my laps
"Well, you're a guy... And you can do stuffs...."
He suddenly pulled over
"Tell me it's not what I'm thinking it is" he stared at me
"What?" I was a bit scared he's going to do something
"Tell me you don't think that I'm going to rape you or use you"
"I'm.." I had no words
"Zoey is that what you really think of me?"
"Well... I'm.. Ashton.. I don't know.."
"Do you really think that I capable of doing something like that?!"
I just kept in silence. I was ashamed.
"Zoey answer me!"
"Well yeah! Sorry. A part of me really thought you were capable of that." I opened the car door
"Where do you think you're going?!" He climbed over me and closed my door, then locked all the car doors.
My heart was going to burst out of my chest.
"Let me out" I sighed
"No. You're not leaving until we've worked things out"
"Ashton I have nothing to 'work out' with you. Now can you please let me out?"
"No." "Zoey look at me"
I kept staring at my laps like before.
He took his palm and rested it on my right cheek, trying to lift my head up. As he did yesterday. Somehow, today, I didn't back off. And not because I was scared he'll do something if I resist him, because I actually believed he wouldn't hurt me.
"Look at me when I'm talking to you" he looked directly into my eyes. For the first time. And I felt good. I felt loved somehow. Like he really cares.
"What?" Nothing else came out besides that word
"Can we speak like matures?" He rubbed my cheek with his thumb
"Y..ye..ah we..we do" I felt my cheeks getting red
He took his palm away. And I wanted it back there. Back on my cheek.
"Listen, I'm not going to hurt you" he gave me a tiny smile "I dropped by your phone. I'm driving you home. Don't you think I've had enough opportunities to 'use you'?"
"Can you do that again?" I can't believe I just said that
"Do what?" Dimples appeared again
"That thing with your hand" my mind wasn't thinking clear.
"Oh you mean.." He took his palm again and rested it softly on my cheek.
I closed my eyes and just enjoyed this moment. I wasn't mad at him. I was mad at myself. Then I realized I asked him to touch me. What the hell is wrong with me. I opened quickly my eyes and took his palm away with my hands, keeping it there for a while.
"I didn't mean to ask you..." I started feeling red again
"It's okay" he laughed shyly "hey are we good?"
"Yeah" that was the wisest word I've said by now.
"Now let me drive you home"
For the whole drive we both kept in silence, it wasn't an embarrassing silence though. It's like we actually cleared things and nothing bothered us, nothing to talk about.
We arrived. "Thanks for the ride" I smiled
"No problem" he smiled back
I admit I wanted him to say 'call me' or 'we should really hang out together sometimes' but he didn't. I went in, placed my keys on the dining table like always, threw the bagpack by the front door, and went to look for something eatable.
"So who's that?" She jumped out of nowhere
"Holly shit Alice! You scared the hell out of me!"
"Just some guy I met the other day. He gave me a ride back home" I opened the fridge
"Does dad know?"
"What?? I didn't do anything!"
"Alice I know you.. Don't you dare telling him this.. He'll keep my locked in here"
"Hey hey calm down.. New Alice. Remember?"
"I'm sorry.. I just really like this guy.."
Did I actually say that? 'I like this guy'
"So what's his mane?"
"Ashton" I washed up an apple
"Does he treat you right?"
"Alice I just met him!"
"Calm down jeez.. I'm just being curious"
"Sorry I just really like him..I don't want it to be ruined" I said I like him again.. What's going on
"I won't tell dad don't worry"
"Thanks! It's really important" I hugged her
"No problem" she laughed and hugged me back
My dad is being very protective, especially now. I don't want him to meet ashton or any other boy before I'm 18.