Zoe's POV ;
He backed off "Do you trust me?" And looked into my eyes
"I.. I can't do this" I pushed him away to get up
"It's okay to be scared" dimples
"What? I'm not scared"
"Yeah you are.. And that's fine"
"I'm not scared but whatever"
"There's nothing wrong with being scared you know"
"Stop saying I'm scared.."
"Well maybe cause you are"
He stared at me for a few seconds.. "Can you prove it?"
"Sure I can" I'm so dead
"Close your eyes" he came closer
I did so
His hand moved down to my waist and then under my shirt. Goosebumps.
His hand started to move up till he touched my bra line. Then I opened my eyes
"Come here" he pulled me to his arms "saying yes to sex doesn't make you a grownup"
"I didn't say it did"
"But you thought so"
He was right. I wanted him to think we're even, that I can do whatever he does. But I can't. I'm not ready for any of this.
"When did you.. How did you... What did you.."
"You can ask whatever you want" he laughed
I got up from his chest "when was your first time?"
"I was 16 nearly 17"
"Not so much.. If you do it with a person you love it's never too soon"
"And where is she? It's a she right?" I smiled
"I like girls yeah. We've had a serious fight.. It ended up bad, we didn't speak to each other since then.. And that's it"
"Did it hurt?"
"No.. The break up"
"Well, she cheated on me and I loved her.. Yeah kinda hurt"
"Oh I didn't mean to.."
"It was four years ago.. I think I'm over it"
I am scared. I'm scared to fall in love. I'm scared that Ashton won't be there when I'll need him the most. I'm scared to get hurt by someone I loved.
* lost in stereo lost in stereo *
"Ashton it's my dad" I singed him to be quiet
"Hey babydoll. I need you to come home"
"Why what happened?"
"We have to talk"
"About what dad? Don't freak me out"
"It's nothing bad.. Just come home as soon as you can. Me and Alice are waiting"
"Okay bye dad" I hanged up
"Want something to drink?" He asked from the kitchen
"No I'm good thanks"
He came back to sit next to me, holding a beer.. What a man.
"What happned?" He took a sip from it
"Your face.. You look different"
How the hell can he tell?! "I need you to drive me home"
He put the beer down on the coffee table "bet I can make you stay?"
"It's not up to me.. Now get up" I walked towards the front door
He followed me. Then grabbed my wrist, and turned me to face him. "And.." He stroked my cheek with his thumb "what if I don't want you to go?"
I closed my eyes "that's.. That's not up to you either" I backed off "now let's go"
He went to put on his shoes and we left his apartment.
As usual he didn't drop me by my house so I had to walk a little.
"Hey I'm home" I closed the front door.
"We're in the kitchen" I heard Alice
Dad cooked and Alice watched him. They're so cute.
"Hey what's that thing you wanted to talk about?"
He didn't say anything. I looked at Alice.
"Don't look at me.. He didn't tell me either"
"We'll talk about it while having lunch" he stirred some red sauce
"I'll be in the living room if you need me"
I watched some tv and waited for them to call me..
A pillow hit my head
I threw it back on Alice "thanks"
Dad was already sitting, me and Alice set as well.
He made some spaghetti. YUM.
"So here's the thing.." Dad started