Luke's POV -
I sat in the hotel lobby with my mom and the boys. Michael couldn't stop talking about this girl he saw yesterday. He claims that she was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen, and also that she looked really familiar. Liz was smiling at him, I can tell that she thinks he's cute, in a 'mom' way of course.
She's like a mom to Cal, Ash and Mickey as much as she is to me.
Mom looked at her phone and smiled even wider when she read one of her new texts.
"Who is it?" I asked, and tried to look at her screen, she moved away from me while laughing, "none of your business Hemmings" she teased and padded my hair, "mooom, don't ruin the haaair" I said while pointing at my hair, "ooh, the holy hair, I'm sooo sorry" my mom sighed and started laughing at me trying to fix my hair.
I waved goodbye to my mom as she left the Hotel. I just realized that she looked extra nice today. She had a bit of makeup on, and curled her blonde hair. I smiled while looking at her through the huge windows in the lobby. I guess she was meeting up with that guy that texted her.
"We should get going, the car will be here to pick us up for the gig soon." Ashton said tapping the watch on his phone.
We were having' a little gig at this bar in the center of London.
We started playing some of our old song. Over and over, Perfect Disguise. It was fun playing them again.
Ashton started playing the beginning of an old song... And then I could feel this little tingle in my stomach. Independence Day... I regret this song so much. I still remember Tiana.
I was her everything and she was mine.
I was such an idiot when I cheated on her for some slut. And the reason I cheated on her is even worse... She told me she wasn't ready. She probably still hates me...
"I just don't feel ready yet!" She shouted and her voice cracked a little. I could feel my blood boiling through me. "Why not!?" I clenched my fists, her big eyes were watching me filled with fear. "I... I just can't..." She looked down, wiggling her feet.
"Don't you love me?" I frowned, I felt the urge to push her onto the bed behind her. I started feeling the lust gathering inside me. "Luke. I'm just not ready." she stated. her voice was beginning to sound rusty, and her eyes were filled with tears.
I stepped closer, for every step I took - she moved further away. At last her legs touched the bed and she feel onto it. I leaned over her and started kissing her neck- things got a bit heated up. She tried pushing me away- but I didn't move one bit.
"LUKE! Stop! Please! I don't want to!" She cried out and dug her nails into my back. I realized what I was doing and quickly moved away. I watched her roll over and cry into the sheets. What did I do wrong?...
I ran outside, I could't look her in the eyes again... I felt so wrong. She's just not the one for me.
Soon I have to leave - for a long time. One Direction wanted me and the boys to tour with them. Unbelievable!
I can't wait to get away from her.
*later same day*
My sight was a bit blurry, and the music was beginning to give me a headache. A redheaded girl was holding on to my shirt while dragging me with her into the girls bathroom.
She smashed me into the white walls and kissed my lips, It felt amazing in a every wrong way possible. She started unbuckling my belt. I moaned a little while cupping her boobs.
We didn't stop kissing. The next thing I see is all of our clothes on the floor. She's moaning in between the kisses. I felt free.
Suddenly a girl is standing the the door opening watching us. As far as I can tell she looked hurt. Her eyes widened. "Luke?!" She whispered loud enough for me to hear it. I felt empty and didn't know what to do. I pushed the redheaded girl away from me. Standing awkwardly naked in front of Tiana. It felt like the walls were closing in on me.
''How could you fucking do this!?'' She tried to yell, but failed miserably. All about her was miserable - everything.
''Fuck off'' I frowned while putting my pants on.
''What-'' I cut her off by yelling louder, ''I said, fuck off!''
''Fuck you'' I mumbled through my gritted teeth as I walked past her and through the door.
~end of flashback ~
I first realized that leaving her like that was the worst decision of my life when I started having these 'one-night-stands'. I missed the feeling of being in love. And I am sure that I'm in the top of her top 10 worst things that ever happened in her life.
Someone nudged me in the side, I looked around and saw everyone looking at me, "You have to sing!" Michael whisper shouted and laughed at me. "Oh?.." I listened to the music and began to sing.
"I'm over this, I'm over you" the words were burning my throat.
I'll post 2 chapters in a row today <3 The other one will be published in a sec :D <3
Lub u ~<3