Omg I can't believe, I already reached chapter 21! Thanks to you guys who read this shit! I'm forever grateful xx
I had my beautiful Zelda back in my arms. Safe and sound as it should be. Without her my life didn't make sense, but now I could finally breathe again and everything was alright.
"Good morning love" my lips made their way to her forehead and kissed her gently. "Good morning Lukey" she yawned, kissing my lips and intertwined her hand with mine.
Today was going to be a nice day, my gut told me that. There was a month to the tour and I was getting pumped. Hopefully Zelda would decide to come.
"What should we do today?" Zelda looked at me, her eyes twinkling. "How about just lying in bed and watch a movie?" I replied holding her hand. She nodded and kissed me.
I can't believe the mistake I made, having Zelda by my side was perfect, why did I even mess up in the first place? She was everything to me. I had to show her how much I loved her.
The letter wasn't enough, I had to do more, just to show her so she'll never doubt how I feel.
Zelda stood up from the bed and went over to her closet and changed her clothes. I watched her as she glanced at herself in the mirror. She looked so beautiful. Her hair was put up in a loose bun, her skin was glowing and she had no makeup on.
Her sweat pants hung loose over her cute butt, and she put on a Rolling Stones tank top. "I can't believe you're mine" My eyes were stiffly set on Zelda as she came towards me. "And yet I am" she kissed me slowly and passionately running a hand under my shirt.
After that everything was magic.. It was our first time together and it was everything and more than I imagined it to be. Is it possible to love someone even more? Because that's what happened to me, I loved her even more.
Luke was my first, and thank god for that.. Even though I've heard some first times can be awkward, this wasn't awkward at all, it was perfect in our own little way. It wasn't awkward because we were together, two people that loved each other unconditionally.
How could I say no to Luke now? I just gave him my v-card, I had to go, or what?
So many things were running circles in my tiny head, how could I ever make a decision that would benefit both of us?
For no reason I started to cry. Luke sat up and looked at me awkwardly "What's wrong? Was I that bad?"
"No Luke you were amazing. It's not about that. It's just.. I don't know what to do, I mean, I really want to go with you on tour but at the same time I'm wondering.. Will it make me happy? You know.. And if I stay, will that make me happy? I'm so confused Lukey, I truly am.." My mouth blabbered on and I almost had no control over it
"Zelda, just follow your heart, whatever you think will make you most happy, that's what you should do.. I could just cancel and stay here with you?" Luke said pulling me closer and wiped away my tears.
I pulled back in shock "Are you crazy? I know you love me, but cancelling tour is not worth it! As much as I want you to stay, I also want you to follow your dreams which is what you're doing! Don't ever give that up and especially not for me, I love music as much as you do, you're basically living the dream for the both of us"
"How are you so amazing? I just want you by my side Zelda, that's all I want. I know I shouldn't push you to come with me, but I really want you to come, us travelling the world together for music is a dream I'd had since we met" Luke smiled kissing me and pulled me into a hug.
I giggled slightly and hugged him tight. This was a tough one but at the moment, going with Luke was were my heart was headed, I couldn't live without him period.
"Even if I don't go with you, will you still go? For me?" I held his hand and laid my head on his shoulder. "Yes for you.. But I just don't want to leave you" he said sadly "It's okay Luke, I know you'll come home and see me. Let's just enjoy the moment before it's over" I kissed his cheek and cuddled into him.
"Always, I love you" he kissed my hand stroked my hair.
"I love you too" I smiled softly squeezing his hand.
The rest of the day was spent in bed until Luke had to go to band practise.
I laid in bed thinking about Luke when he had left. Should I go or should I stay? I actually didn't want to stay, that meant I would have to be near my dad and right now I didn't want to.
He lied to me my whole life, he knew where my mother was from and that I had family living in Brazil. Maybe it would be good to see my grandmother and grandfather in Brazil sometime?
Was I ready for that? No.. Not quite, I wasn't there yet, but maybe soon I'd feel ready to meet them.
I hope they would be nice people, maybe they could tell me what happened to mom. Maybe I'd even look like my grandmother? I had so many questions that needed answer.
But for now I just wanted to sleep, so I closed my eyes and felt the sleepiness take over.