21. chapter 21
After skipping one day of school I knew I had to go the next day. I didn't talk to my friends most of the day as I began to avoid them. I knew one of them was a rat and was spilling my secrets to people, one of them being Aaron. I didn't really care if people knew that Luke and I made out that night in his car, or whether they think something else happened, I don't care if people know about anything in or relationship really it's just trust is big for me. I trusted my friends with my secrets and opening up to them about some things was hard and one of them let everything go and to Aaron! Worst of all.
I sat down and lunch basically slamming my lunch of the table. My friends had have me a strange look and continued their talk about about some random topic. They asked my earlier where I was yesterday and where I went after the party on Sunday and why I didn't spend the night. I have them one word answered and continued to just stare at my good. At the moment of silence I finally spoke up, "did any of you guys tell Aaron about Luke and my relationship?" They all looked confused. "I didn't." Most of them said. They all looked innocent except for Caitlin who slugged down into her stool. "You told him didn't you?" I said standing up and looking at Caitlin. I knew she did it! She had the look of guilt on her face! "Vanessa I'm so sorry I can explain." I stormed off before I could let her explain. I wasn't angry I was furious! My best friend betrayed me! I heard her calling my name down the hallway but I just kept walking till it felt her grab my wrist, "Vanessa please listen to me for a minute." I turned to look at her she had her famous puppy dog face on. "Why the hell would you tell people I trusted you! You're suppose to be my best friend and I open up to you and you told Aaron the guy who has been putting my down since he found out about Luke and I!" I yelled at her. I had never raised my voice at her before and I could tell she was even shocked by the look on her face. "Vanessa I'm so sorry! I was upset! I thought you were going to ditch me to be with Luke! Aaron's in my math class and he kept asking me about you and I was mad at you and I blew up and told him everything! I really didn't mean it! Aaron made it seem like Luke was a bad guy and that I should be upset! After we hung out at the mall I told Aaron that Luke seemed cool after all the things you told me and that me and you were ok and he went on and on about how Luke is trying to change you and that's why your look and had suddenly changed was because of Luke and I stopped talking to him and told him to fuck off! Vanessa I'm so sorry. I really am. I can see why you're so upset with me I'm stupid and I made a stupid mistake! You're my best friend and I don't want to lose you." I could see the real guilt in her eyes and my temper started to go down. I gave her a hug. "I forgive you." I said patting her back. "Thank god because I don't know what I would do without you!" I just laughed. "Vanessa, Luke isn't the reason you changed your look right?" I gave her the "really" look. "No that was my choice. Luke didn't even know about it till afterwards." She nodded, "ok just checking." I nudged her arm, "let's go back the cafeteria now.
Thank God Aaron was in music today because I would have honestly blown up in his face. He tried to turn my own best friend against me. That's a low, even for him. I still didn't understand why he was so suddenly obsessed with me. I had known him for years and he didn't even know that I existed. Now suddenly he was to "be with me" it was so confusing.