When there are so many others...

"You don't know what it's like." I said while tears started to make there way to me eyes.
"What?" He asked a bit annoyed and frustrated.
"You don't understand!" I announced raising my voice a bit.
"Well then would you like to explain it to me?" He said calming his voice.
"When you have all these thoughts it's like... you can't just...." I stood there thinking of how i wanted to say this. He walked right in front of me and held my hand.
"What is it that I don't understand?"
"The only way I can think of putting it is like... it's like your hanging off of a skyscraper....."


7. Oh but it does

Jordan's POV

The next day I walked to school because I didn't get up in time to ride the bus. On my way I had two people on my mind, Alex and Justin. I was thinking about the conversations I had with both of them. The one I had with Alex... made me kinda think he might be into me. The conversation with Justin.... was awkward and made me know that he was into me. It made me even more uncomfortable with him. Not just knowing he wanted to do it with me, but knowing he wanted to be with me and do it all the time. It sent chill bumps down my spine. I finally got to the school and walked into the doors of the school and to my locker. I saw Alex already standing there, waiting for me to arrive. A smile appeared on my face as I walked toward him. He saw me and smiled back while his beautiful blue eyes sparkled.

"Hey." I said to him, but he didn't really respond. He just kept looking off into my eyes. "Uh, Alex?"

"Oh, sorry...um hi. Uh, so why are you late?"


"Ya, it's already almost second period."

"Is it really?" He nodded his head.

"Why weren't you-" Just as he was about to speak, Justin walked up to us and joined the conversation.

''Hey Jordan"

"Um, hi."

"Alex." He said in a rude tone.

"Hi." Alex said in the same tone.

"So what are you two up to?"

"Nothing really-"

"That's great." He interrupted me. "Cause I need to talk to you." Before I could object, Justin took my arm and pulled me away from Alex. He took me outside and sat me down at the nearest pick-nick table.

"What the hell do you want?!" I said to him.

"Watch the tone with me, and is that anyway to talk to your best friend?"

"Best friend?! Where did you get the idea that we were best friends?"

"Don't you remember our little chat yesterday?"

"Yes, but that doesn't make us friends, let alone best friends." He smacked my arm, where a bruise was forming form where he grabbed me moments ago.

"I said watch the tone. We are going to be friends whether you like it or not, that is unless, you want Bella to find out that we've been talking." I let out a sigh, knowing she would beat the hell out of me if she knew I was talking to him.

"Why do you want to be friends with me? You could chose anyone else, why me?"

"I told you why, so we are going to be friends." I thought about our conversation yesterday, and shivered. I felt disgusted and at the same time I felt a small amount of pity for him. I mean, he only wants to be friends, right? Well I knew that wasn't true, but it was the only way to get myself to somewhat put up with him.

"Ok, fine. But that doesn't give you the right to push me around." He then took hold of the collar of my shirt and pulled our faces close together.

"Oh, but it does." Then the bell rang and he released my shirt. He had a smirk on his face as he walked away and back into the building. I rolled my eyes, stood up and walked inside. I checked myself in and went to English. I didn't really feel like paying attention, so I put my head down and went to sleep. The bell rang, waking me up and ending second period. The rest of the day was a blur that is, until sixth period, math. I walked in and saw almost everyone sitting down, including Bella. As I walked in she saw me and right away a smirk was spread across her face. She stood up and followed me to my seat.

"Hey slut, has anything new happened between you and Justin?"

"No, nothing new has happened."

"Your lying, I can tell when you lie. So what did we talk about this time?"

"I haven't talked to Justin." She then slapped me with the back of her hand making sure that her ring scratched me on the cheek. I pulled my hand up to my face and pulled it back down, only to see that there was blood on it. I could feel a trail of blood slowly flowing down my face.

"How funny, what's the truth?"

"Just leave me alone." I said as I stood up to go to the nurse. Before I could get out of her reach, I once again felt her hand and ring come in contact with my face. This time, her smacking the left cheek instead of the right. Now having both of my cheeks bleeding, I rushed to the teacher to ask if I could see the nurse. He quickly told me to go and as I was walking out of the classroom, Alex walked in.

Before he could say anything, I made my way to the nurses office. Once I got there, she gave me some bandages and sent me back to class. I walked out of her room and instead of going to class I slipped into the bathroom for a moment. I made sure no one was in there and then just cried. I couldn't help it, Niall was gone, Justin is forcing me to be his friend, who knows what the hell that's going to lead to. On top of it all, Bella bullies me and just gave me two nice cuts to prove it. I just let tears fall out of my eyes and didn't make a sound. Soon enough I cleaned myself up and  walked out of the bathroom running into Justin. 'Lovely, let's add on to the pain.' I though.

"Oh, hey Jordan. So uh, do you have plans later?"

"Yes, I do actually."

"Great, so I'll see you later tonight?"

"Um, Justin, I didn't mean plans with you."

"Well, now you do, cause we're gonna hang out tonight and uh, I don't mean to be rude. But what happened to your face?"

"Your stupid girl friend smacked me with her ring." And as if the pain on my cheeks wasn't enough, Justin then punched my in the stomach.

"Don't you ever say that about her again, got it?" I nodded my head and started to walk away. "Oh and don't forget about tonight, ok?" I just nodded my head again, went back to class and once again fell asleep. The stupid bell woke me up for the second time today, and marked the end of the school day. I got up, collected my items and walked out the door. I was soon followed by Alex, who put his arm around my shoulder.

"What happened? Are you ok?" I laughed a bit. It was good to know that someone cared about me.

"I'm fine, Bella just scratched me a bit."

"Well I'm sorry she did that, but it's good to know your fine." He said as he hugged me, and when he did, it sent butterflies flying in my stomach. "So are we still on for later?"

"Ya... no. Um, actually something came up and I can't. I'm really sorry."

"Oh, that's fine maybe some other time?"

"Ya, defiantly." But I don't think that is was alright. He seemed really sad when I told him I couldn't hang out. It made me feel bad, and it seemed to kill what butterflies were left from the hug he gave me. I then walked outside and got on the bus and soon enough got off and walked home. For some reason Justin wasn't on the bus and didn't walk home with me, not that I was complaining. Once I got home I started my homework, but I wasn't able to fully concentrate. All I could think about was hanging out with Justin. As if he could read my mind, he called me.

"Hi, Justin."

"Why, hello my beautiful Jordan. I just wanted to call you to tell you to come to my place at 5."

"Um... ok."

"Great I'll see you then." He said then hung up. I looked at the clock and saw it was four thirty. 'Oh my God, I only have a half an hour.' I was starting to freak out even more, there was no way I was getting my homework done now. I really didn't want to do this but I had to. If I didn't he might beat me up, or tell Bella we talked or both! I had to go but I was so scared about what he was gonna pull.

Way to soon, it was ten til and I had to go. I started walking down the street and thinking about what he was gonna do. 'What if he was gonna beat me up? What if he had Bella waiting there for me? What if he tried to get me to have sex with him? What if he tried to rape me?' I started shaking at the though of him even trying to pull that. Before I could even think of anything else I arrived at his door. I put my hand up and knocked on his door.

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