Okay so maybe I overreacted a little, and just to make life even harder, Harry was coming back to the burrow for the summer. I ran away from him when we were by the lake, and haven't spoken to him directly since, Hermione has explained as much as she can to me, and I guess in hindsight I should have let him explain, it's just I'd been there for him over the previous week, I had hardly left his side, and he couldn't say anything, not a word and then he turns around and dumps me without any logical reason. But now I get it, I get that he's going to go on this mission Dumbledore set him but he doesn't know what he's actually looking for, okay, so I don't really get it but I don't think he does either, I'm trying to understand.
Hermione explained it’s because he loves me that he's leaving me, it's for my own good, we all know that You-Know-Who is after Harry, and if that means taking those closest to him to lure him in then that happens, so I would be targeted, just like Sirius was, and anyone else Harry has ever been close to.
I still couldn't understand why Hermione and Ron could know this mission that he had to undertake but not me, I could be of some help? Surely! My mind went from anger to heart broken, and back to anger, I felt like there was a dragon rearing its head inside of me, about to burst out of me and combust into flames, rather than shouting, I once again burst into tears as I felt this was a more controlled way to deal with it, Ron had taken Harry's side, saying it was safer, and there I was thinking he was gunna kill any guy that ever hurt me, so I don't even have my brother to stand by me anymore, great. It was only now that I thought, I had kissed harry for what could be the last time, by the lake just after Dumbledore's funeral, and now he's off and may be killed or I don't know what else.
I just need to clear my head!