As I splurged out all my feeling into Dolly's arms I relised Cameron had been out the shower for quite a while. I walked over to the door and saw him on the couch with his head in his hands. I pulled myself together and walked over.
"Baby what's wrong?" I asked him rubbing my hand calming my down his back.
"I heard. I heard everything." There was a long pause before a reply.
"Cameron. I've been through a lot. And the love of my life died while I was carrying his baby. Me and you happened so quick and I had her so I haven't had time to cope. I've lost my son and my fiancé and now I get upset. And I will always love him and I will always want just one last kiss and one last hug and for him to have met his daughter just once. But your here and I love you. I just have to get used too rolling over too you and not Dylan. It's really hard. And I'm trying my best. I love you and so does she but I'm going to cry and miss them. Even more Dylan JR. You have to help me out. Please. Just try with me." He looked up his eyes were bloodshot with tears and his cheeks and nose red like they get when he get emotional.
"I can only try as hard as you. Not more. And you can't expect me to be Dylan because I can't be him." He put his head on the back of the couch and looked at the ceiling.
"I will try my hardest. And I don't expect you to be him. I just expected myself to just forget and move on but it's harder than that. And you make it a hell of a lot easier but it's still hurts me. And I hate to admit it but it's going to hurt you too. Things aren't as easy as you think." He turned towards me and looked me dead in the eye.
"I can't wait forever for you to stop comparing me to him. I see it happen all the time. And I know what you been through sucks but I'm going though something too. My life isn't any easier than yours. So you need to relise your not the only one grieving and hurting and try harder." I couldn't believe what he just said. But I knew it was true.
"Okay. I'm sorry. I'll try." I placed my head on his shoulder and he stiffened up. I wasn't forgiven as much as he put on.
"I'll be back by tomorrow night." He harshly got up and walked out into his car and drove off. I slowly came to the realization that I wasn't the only one hurting.
"I did." I said as Dolly sat down next to me.
"What?" She asked confused.
"Everything he said is true." She looked at me with sympathy.
"It only gets better hun. It only gets better!" She laid my head on her lap and I fell asleep.
When I woke up I was laying on my couch and Dolly was sitting on my bed feeding Braelynn. I sat up and slowly remembered everything that happened. I got up and walked over to Dolly.
"Thanks boo bear. I'll take it from here. Go home and get some rest. I'll be okay home alone." I said grasping my little infant and kissing her head.
"You sure. He might be gone for a while?" She said standing up.
"Yeah. I've done it before when Dylan was a baby." I said looking at my baby and noticing the resemblance of her and her brother.
"Okay. I love you. Be carful with my princess." I waved goodbye as her car pulled away. I checked the time and it was now 5:30.
"Time for mommy and baby to get in there jams." I said quietly to the baby smiling in my arms. She gave out a little coo. I laughed and remembered the first time Dylan cooed.
"Hows mamas little gentleman?" I said kissing my baby's nose.
"He was great while you were gone. He's so perfect. I can't imagine life without him." Dylan said as a small coo came out of Dylan'JRs mouth.
"OMG. His first coo!" I jumped into Dylan's arms and he kissed my lips.
"I can't believe I get to spend the rest of my life with you two!" Dylan whispered into my ear.
End of flashback*
I didn't feel like crying. But like smiling.
"Your dad would love you up right now. And so would baby Dylan." I laughed picking up her now unclothed body ms bringing her or the bathroom. Her eyes fell heavy once the water touched her bare skin. Just then I heard the door open and keys drop on the table next to the door. I thought he would be home a lot later.
"CAM?!" I yelled.
"Nope!" I got a reply from a voice I haven't herd before. I quickly rapped up Braelynn and ran into my bedroom. I placed he in her bassinet and covered her so you couldn't tell she was there.
"Who is it?" I said walking into the kitchen and grabbing a knife.
"You can't tell by my voice?" He sounded surprised but I knew it was fake.
"Nope..." I said poking my head into the living room and seeing a tall man with dark hair and dark eyes looking me directly in the eye.
"Hello daring. My name is Pete!" I looked at him and just stood there without responding. "Oh don't worry I'm not going to hurt you anymore." I looked at him confused.
"Anymore?" I asked stepping into the living room fully keeping my knife in plain sight.
"Oh. Yes. I'm the man who crashed into both your Dylans and causing them both death." I felt as if he just used my knife and stabbed my chest.
"I'm going to call the police. Get out." I yelled through gritted teeth as my eyes welled up.
"Oh. Did I ruin your life? Must just be karma for what you did to me." He said firmly stepping one step towards me.
"I didn't do anything to deserve that. Not to you. Not to anyone." I said letting a year fall.
"So you aren't the Ali that gave my brother the speed that he overdosed on?" My head flashed back to the night before my baby's death. I had been slipped a pill at a party and it was in my drink. In placed it down next to another kids drink and left not wanting to get high.
"That wasn't my fault. And you killed my baby. My precious baby. HE WAS ONLY ONE!! YOU TOOK THE LIFE OF MY PRIDE AND JOY BECAUSE YOUR BROTHER ACCIDENTALLY DRANK MY DRINK INSTEAD OF HIS. YOU TOOK A LIFE THAT HADENT BEEN LIVED YET!" He instantly went blank. "AND THE LIFE OF THE FATHER OF MY NEWBORN BABY BEFORE SHE COULD EVEN MEET HIM. ALL HE WANTED WAS TOO HAVE AN ACTUAL CHANCE AT PARENTING AND YOU KILLED HIM. YOU KILLED HIM. YOU KILLED MY FIANCÉ. YOU KILLED A BABYS FATHER." I started to ball and I pointed my knife at him and locked the door. "Sit on the fucking couch." I said at he sat and I dialed 911.
"Hello what is your emergency?"
"There is a man who just broke into my home and admitted I killing my fiancé and one year old son ." I said trying to sound strong.
"Okay what is your address."
"74 kings ave" I hung up and sat on the barstool and watched the man.
"I'm so sorry I didn't think of it like that!" He said looking at his thumbs.
"Shut up." I said pointing my knife towards him. When the police showed up they put him in cuffs and he told me he would confess. I ran into my bedroom and grabbed my baby. The door was locked and I was okay. I just came face to face with the man who killed my son and my fiancé. I needed Cameron. I sat in bed until 10:35 just holding my daughter. I finally put her in a pink onesie and put her to sleep. I got up and grabbed a bottle of water and My phone rang.
"Hello?" I said cautiously.
"Babe! Are you okay? I'm on my way home. The neighbors called and told me the police were there. What happened!?" A worried Cameron said on the other end. I sighed of relief.
"I'm okay. Just come home please!" We hung up and I waited by the door like a little puppy who heard a cop car. When Cameron got home I ran outside and gave him a hug.
"What happened?" He said whispering in my ear and he held me tight.
"The man who. He was the one who crashed into the car both times when I lost both my son and my fiancé." He slowly let go and looked me in the eyes.
"Why didn't you call me?!" Cameron said walking me inside.
"You probably didn't want to answer my calls." I said as we sat on the couch. He repositioned us so we were cuddling.
"I wouldn't have done anything to put you in harms way! You relise that this is a big deal. You can't deal with that kind of thing by yourself." He held me tight. I felt safe.
"I don't want to hurt you!"
"Ali if you think that keeping me away from your emotional issues isn't hurting me your wrong. The only thing that hurts me is when I find out that I left the love of my life and my daughter alone and she had to meet the man who took the lives of the two most important people in her life. I want to protect you." He rolled me so I was face to face with him.
"I love you so much!" I said kissing his soft lips. We fell asleep just like that