10. Depressing Song
I sat there in the recording studio with the boys. They talked and I sat there quietly. "So what should we write a song about- main idea?" Liam finally asked. "How you can break a girls heart and try to fix things but she decides to break yours." I said in a soft voice so they wouldnt hear me, but they did. "Hazza, something wrong with you?" Lou asked and I shook my head. "Nothing." I said and kept looking at my feet. A moment of silence stayed in the room until Zayn started talking. "Something besides depressed music. Our girls are going to be listening to this and-" I cut him off.
"Our girls. Our girls listen to our music and say, "Oh their voices are beautiful and I love the meanings and how they make you feel." Then there are those who just look at our faces and say, "Oh he's so cute when he makes that face." That's all they ever do. So lets change things up a bit?" I said and all the boys looked at me. "Harry, what the hell is wrong with you? You're acting like a stupid weirdo who is depressed." Zayn asked. Niall looked at me and motioned me to meet him in the hallway.
I followed behind him and he looked at me for a minute. "Harry, this is not like you. But I do know what it is all about. It's about Ava." He said and the words punched me in the guts. "Yeah." I said with a rocky voice. "Haz, you got to get your mind off of her. You tried to say sorry but she doesnt want to hear those words. She wants to hear something else." Niall said and I looked up from the floor and at him. "You mean, tell her how I feel of saying I'm sorry, in a song?" I asked and he nodded.
"I've made so many stupid mistakes and one was letting your heart break." Niall sang and I smiled. "Thanks Niall." I said and we hugged and walked back to where the other 3 were. "So, boys I have a different idea. Have you ever tried saying I'm sorry to your girl, but she wants to hear something different?" I asked them and they looked at each other and nodded. Me and Niall started to sing some of it. "I've made so many stupid mistakes and one was letting your heart break. I'm sorry. I try to find the words to say." We sang and the boys loved it.