Three weeks later
We all stand around two holes in the ground, Ellen and London’s casket hovering over them making everything feel more real, I stand to the side of Ellen’s Brother, him and her dad either side of her mum as they comfort her as she cries into a touché. The boys and I had to put a few shows on hold so we could pay our respects to Ellen’s family and attend the funerals; the shows hadn’t been the same since the accident, mostly on my part but no matter how much I want to put my all into it I can’t.
“If you would all bow your head in a final fair well.” The priest says and slowly every one bows there head, I close my eyes as I head the soft rumble of the machine lowering my two girls into the ground. “At this time we would ask for the Family of Miss Ellen Aprils and Miss London Tomlinson to step forward with your offering.” I look to my side to see Ellen’s Family slowly starting to walk forward with two white roses, I follow a moment later and they throw them in after the two caskets, I stand at the foot of the sights after her family started going back to their spots, and that’s when I felt the tears start to fall, saying a silent goodbye I throw one rose in with London’s casket then the finally into Ellen’s, I close my eyes as the tears start, my hand going up to smother the sobs and stop the tears, I feel hands on me guiding me away and a moment later I notice its Harry.
More things were said as I blindly looked on, everyone else going up to the graves and laying roses, after the ceremony Ellen’s mum embraced me in a hug, I rubbed her back as she cried, I could only imagine what this is doing to her, her second daughter now gone and along with her granddaughter, she must be braking, I close my eyes and hold her tighter. “Thank you Louis.” she almost whispers and we pull away, “You made her so happy.” She says weakly trying to hold back her sobs, “and I am very sorry this happened.” I take in a deep breath and shake my head.
“Im sorry. This would never have happened if they weren’t going back and forth for me. It’s my fault.”
“Don’t be silly Louis, I don’t want you thinking that, I don’t want you blaming yourself. They should not have been in the place at the time, it was the pilots fault and only his.” She states and smiles at best she can at me, “I want you to live a good life, Louis. I want to hear you’ve found happiness, Ellen would want it too. You and I both know she would.” My eyes water even more and I shake my head.
“No one can replace Ellen.” She brings her hand up to wipe my tears from my cheeks before she strokes her thumb over my cheek.
“You were a greet boyfriend and fiancé, and I just want you to know that no one will look down on you if you move on, sweetie, you can’t go on the rest of your life and have Ellen being your burden, you still have a long way to go and honey you will find someone, I can promise you that, and you will love them, with all your heart.” I pull her into a hug as she cries further.
“Please don’t forget I loved her.” I almost whisper, “Please don’t forget I loved my daughter and if I do move on I want you to remember that no one will ever replace your daughter, she will always be my first love and she will always have my heart.”
“I won’t forget honey, and before time runs out I want to see your face back here. You need to keep in touch with me. You hear me.” I smile and almost concur a laugh as I nod.
“I can promise you that too.”