My sleep was full of restlessness, my thoughts continuing to go to Louis, I wanted to be angry and I was trying to be but I can’t help but want to hear him out and listen to what he has to say, I know I don’t want to fight even if he did the stupidest thing any person could have but as much as I want to I can’t feel mad. After a few hours of sleep I couldn’t do it anymore, calling my mum and specking to London for at least an hour before taking a shower, the time had hit eight and no one but Sophia and Liam where up, we ate breakfast together and even though no words were spoken about last night’s events the tension and slight awkwardness was there.
Liam and Sophia sat cuddled up on the lounge opposite me as I lay on my back, the diary of Anne Frank held in my hands and ear phones placed in my ears, the time had past nine and still no one was awake, the boys security guards had been in and out of the suite all morning but that was the only movement amongst the large suite.
I woke up and my phone told me the time was just after nine, the bed was cool, missing Ellen’s body, I prop myself up on my elbows looking around the room, I didn’t even remember getting back last night, I don’t even remember leaving the club. I flung the bed sheets aside and sat up, rubbing my hands over my face I stand and change from the clothes I was wearing last night, I must have passed out, I skip the shower just wanting to find Ellen and head out into the hall, my stomach telling me how hungry it was and my head telling me it needed pain killers, I stand in the door way of the large sitting room of the diamond suite, Sophia and Liam sat on the far lounge both of them watching me curiously. I could hear the faint buzz of music and I knew it was Ellen straight away, stepping down the two small steps I make my way towards the back of the closets Louis, Ellen lays there, ear phones in, reading a book, Liam and Sophia still watching me as if on a television. Ellen’s eyes flick to me but only stay for a split second before returning to her book, I frown and grip it gently prying it from her fingers, she rolls on her side tracing over the pattern on the lounge, when I look up at the other two their eyes are on Ellen, Liam looks at me and shakes his head flicking it in the other direction before standing, I leaving the living room and follow him into the kitchen.
“Do you remember much from last night?” he asks getting a bottle of water from the fridge and throwing it to me, I shake my head as I catch it.
“Why, what happen?” he just watches me as I undo the lid, “Why isn’t Ellen talking to me.” I ask more urgent.
“You remember preposing?” I nod.
“You kissed another woman and Ellen saw.” My lips part and body slumps.
“Tell me this is a joke.”
“After Ellen left Paul made you stay at the club, you got really fucked up man, telling everyone about how if you could start tonight again it would have been Ellen because the other girl was discussing.”
“Im sure she was.”
“You have to explain what happen to her. Because if she leaves again, you’re going to be back to the old Louis, she has changed you and everyone can see it.”
“Im not going to let her leave.” I shake my head, “I might have fucked up but I am not having her leave me again.”
“Well go fix it.” I stand from the chair leaving the still open and untouched bottle of water on the counter and head back to the lounge room but only Sophia is there.
“Where is she?” I ask looking around but she is definitely not in the room.
“Balcony.” Sophia’s soft voice replies and I thank her before going towards the balcony, I push the glass door open, walking past the spa and see Ellen sitting on one of the metal chairs which once sat organised around the table, I quietly walk up to her, crossing my arms over her chest and nuzzling my head into the crook of her neck, from behind.
“Im sorry.” I breath, “I don’t know what I was thinking, I couldn’t tell you, honestly because I don’t remember a thing.” She doesn’t say anything, “Baby, please say something.”
“You know what hurts me the most.” I sigh.
“Not that.” But she continues.
“That you asked me to marry you only a matter of hours before you kissed her.”
“Ellen. Baby. I can’t tell you how sorry I am and I can’t tell you how stupid I feel because I might have ruined this and I only just got you back.” I feel her arm brush mine slightly and I pull my head away as she sniffles, I walk around the front of her and kneel down, “Why are you crying?” I ask wiping the tears away, “please don’t cry.”
“I don’t know what to do, Louis.” tears uncontrollably slid down her cheeks and I sigh resting my head in her lap.
“I don’t want this to be over, baby. It was my fault, my stupid mistake and I wish I knew what caused me to do it because im never going to do it again, ever.” I look up at her as I say it, she sucks in a long slow breath before releasing it.
“I wish I didn’t believe you.” She sighs, “I wish I didn’t love you.” I smile.
“So you forgive me?”
“More or less.” I engulf her in my arms kissing her cheek frequently.
“I love you so much, baby, and I love our daughter and I love the fact that she is our daughter.” I hear her lightly chuckle.
“Me too.” She says and I pull away from her looking in her multi coloured eyes.
“You are the best thing that has ever happen to me.” I hold her face between my hands and push a hard kiss to her lips, “And I want to take you away from everything next week when we have the three day break, just you and I. No shows, none of the boys or security to bug us.” she smiles.
“I’d love that.”