I head right home after school to start my english paper. It would be a few hours until my mom got home so about an hour later I had almost finished my paper and decided to save it and finish it tomorrow. I took out my phone and text Luke asking if he wanted to come over.
-Hey it’s Hazel I was wondering if you might want to come over
-Sure be there in a few
Ten minutes later the doorbell rang and I head downstairs and open the door for him. He smiled his lip ring shining in the light outside as I let him in.
“So um why did you want me to come over?” He questioned biting his lip in a way that made me shiver.
“I wanted to talk to you” I say leading him to the couch in the living room.
We both sat down on the couch staring at each other. Luke must have read my mind because he sighs reaching a hand into his pocket.
“You want me to tell you what happened don’t you?” He says his voice shaking.
For the first time since I met Luke he seemed so fragile. Like he could fall apart at any moment.
“If you don’t want to talk about it you don’t have to” I say feeling guilty because how upset he looks.
“You will hate me” He says in a whisper looking away from me.
“why would you say that?” I ask him placing my hand on his cheek and and make him meet my eyes.
“Because I hate myself” Luke says pain washing over his face.
“I couldn’t ever hate you” I say and and he smiles slightly letting out a shaky breath. He pulls his hand out of his pocket holding out a photo to me. I take it from him gently.
“I take this photo with me everywhere. Ever since it happened” He says as I look over the photo.
I nod not able to find words. Luke and Ashton look so different without their dyed hair and tattoos. I stare at the other to boys to the were also pretty attractive. They seemed like they were all great friends.
“It is from a year ago. We took it on the way to Calum’s house” He says as he takes the photo back from me he stares at it and tears gather in his eyes.
“Promise me that you won’t hate me after I tell you” He says sounding so broken that I feel a part of me break with him.
“I promise Luke” I say and he moves a little closer to me pointing to the picture.
“The one that is piggybacking on me is michael and the one who is piggybacking on Ashton is Calum. We were all best friends and did everything together. One night we had all gone to a party. I had gotten a bit high and was mad because my ex was there with another guy. I wasn’t making the best choices that night I tried some pills which I had never done before and got really messed up. I wanted to leave the party so I headed to leave. Ashton and Michael were still inside dancing with some girls but Calum had come with me wanting to head home too. He got in the car with me and we took off toward his house. The pills hadn’t started to really take effect until a few minutes after we took off. I should have pulled over. I should have let him drive but I didn’t. We were on the highway and I was getting very dizzy I started to swerve into the other lane. Calum yelled at me to pull over but I told him I would be fine. I went to pull into the next lane but lost control. I slammed into this other car and we flipped over it. Two other cars car slammed into us before the car finally came to a stop. When it stopped the car was upside down and all the windows were busted. I looked over at calum to ask if he was okay and he-he was crying. A piece of debree from one of the other cars had flown through the window and into his chest. It-It was sticking through his chest all the way through the back of the chair. He kept begging me to pull it out but I didn’t know what to do. I was crying to I tried to tell him he was going to be okay but he knew it wasn’t true. He looked at me with fear in his eyes as blood started to fall from his mouth. He tried to say something to me but he couldn’t because of all the blood that was pouring from his mouth. He was terrified and all I could do was hold him and beg him to hang on he started shake as he was choking desperatly trying to get air in his lungs. He stopped moving and his eyes were staring at me. I kept begging him to blink but he wasn’t moving. The ambulance showed up a few minutes later they had to pull me from the car because I didn’t want to leave him. I closed his eyes and kissed his forehead as they pulled me from the car. He was gone and it was all my fault. I miss him so much. He was my best friend. I loved him so much. Everyone hated me after that. Michael he hasn’t talked to me since his funeral and he had only talked to me then to tell me he hated me and he hoped I would rot in hell for what happened to Calum. After that the only one who was there for me was Ashton he kept telling me it wasn’t my fault but I could see in his eyes that he blamed me too. I started to lose myself after that I got all these tattoos and dyed my hair trying to change who I was be someone else so I didn’t have to hate myself. Ashton had done the same to he slipped into a depression just like me. Then our dad passed away and mom couldn’t handle anything anymore so she found a job and moved us here. She wanted us to have a new start but it doesn’t change what happened. It won’t bring Calum or my dad back” He says sobbing loudly.
I pulled him into me and held him while he cried and I was crying to. He had been through so much. They both had.
“Oh Luke I am so sorry this happened to you. I don’t hate you. What happened to Calum is awful but you didn’t mean for it to. You loved him and he loved you. Michael needs some time but I am sure he will try to talk to you again in time. I am here for you okay Luke? You are going to be okay” I say as I rub his back.
He looked up at me and opened his mouth to say something but a sob cut him off. Instead he shocked me by placing his lips to mine. I wrapped my arms around him as I sank into the kiss. The feel of his lips making the world and all our problems fade away.