10. Why Not?
I wake up in an unfamiliar room. "Lola?" I hear Luke say. "Hey Luke." I say as I try to get up, but he won't let me. "Luke can I please get up?" I ask. I look at him and he just shakes his head no. I can notice he has been crying.
You did it again! You made your poor big brother cry over something so stupid! The stupid thing he cried over is you FYI! I can't take it anymore! I start crying like I have never cried before. Luke comes and comforts me, we just lay there crying for awhile.
"Why?" He just simply asks. "I'm pretty sure Calum told you."I say "He did, he told me 'because you think you deserve it.'" Luke says. I don't say anything. "Lola that's just an accuse, I want you to tell me the reason why you do it."
"Luke, I can't tell you." I say. If I tell him he will think I'm just an attention whore. Damn right he will!
"SHUTUP!" I tell the voice in my head.
"Lola, I didn't say anything." Luke says with a confused look in his eyes. Oh crap. I can't believe I said that out loud. What should I say? I should tell him the truth, but instead I say; "I thought you did say something, sorry. I guess I was wrong. Luke just gives me a sympathetic look and says; "I will make you a deal. You have to start eating three meals a day, and you have to completely STOP cutting. Then, you won't have to tell me, or anyone why you cut yourself." He says.
That's a pretty good deal. I want to stop cutting, I want to be a better me so I agree to the deal. Luke gives me a long hug and leaves my new room, I'm guessing.
I notice that they already unpacked for me, how sweet. So I go in the bathroom and take a long hot shower to get my mind of things.