Two years after. Carter age 19, Justin age 21. (In case you are confused)
My eyes were about to pop out of my head when I saw the news this morning. I hadn't talked to Justin after that night in my room, where I told him to leave and not look back. I moved on and apparently, so did he. I am together with Brody. He's a really nice guy and I like him. Not love because I am still not fully over Justin.
About him. The news said, that he was back together with Jasmine Villegas. I can't say I am not jealous, I mean.. Have you looked at his body? He's a God, just walking around on Earth.
"Carter? We are gonna be late if you don't hurry that big fatt lovely ass of yours, up!" Brody called from outside the bathroom door. He makes an evil sentence and then turns it into something nice. We are going to my brothers wedding. He's getting married to Rachel. She is so nice and her hair is so beautiful.
Molly and Ryan are still going out. (They are same age as Justin and Carter) And they recently found out that Molly was pregnant. I am so happy for them.
Brody is lovely.. I mean, he is nothing compared to Justin be he is kind to me. And that's all I need right now.
I got out and wrapped a towel around me. I walked out and saw Brody sitting on the egde of the bed. He saw me and walked to me.
"Gosh, you're so beautiful.." He said and wrapped his arms around me from behind. He started kissing my neck and that's when I pulled away. I walked into my closet while yelling, " We don't have tiiiime!"
You see.. I am still a virgin.. I know, I'm 19 and haven't done it yet. What a loser. No. I haven't done it yet, because I am insecure and because I still haven't told Brody that I love him.. I just can't say those three words, if I am not complete sure that he is the one.
I put on a light-blue dress that had pearls on the bottom and one side. Molly got it for me.
I took on some white heels, and walked to the bathroom. I started doing my hair and make up and finished by the time Brody told me we had to go.
At the wedding- (Warning** Some bad language)
We arrived at the wedding and everything was so beautiful. They did a good job. I saw my brother and instantly got out of the car and ran to him. Yes, I can run in heels. You'd be surprised of the things I can do.
"Stephan! Oh my gosh, this is so beautiful. You are such a lucky guy. Rachel is a darling." I said as I hugged him. He picked me up and spinned me around.
"Thank you, shortie" He said and chuckled.
"Hey! Don't make fun of my shortness" I said and pouted. As I pouted, Brody came and kissed me. Weird, he never does that.
"Carter... Is that really you?" I pulled away and there he was..
The love of my life.. The man of my dreams.. The guy I hate the most..
"Justin?.. What are you doing here?" I said and hugged as a sign to others, saying we aren't on each others bad side.
"I missed you.." He whispered in my ear. I pulled away and looked at him. All I could see, was hurt and sadness.
"It's been a while.." I said. He nodded and then the slut came.
"Carter, right?" She asked and gave me a dirty look.
"Yes. Annoying girl, right?" I said and made my way inside.
"Excuse me? How dare you?" She yelled after me. Everyone was seated outside in the backyeard. (It's a home wedding for those who didn't know)
I turned around and gave her a fake smile. "You are excused. And I dare because I am not a fucking chicken. Now if you'll let me be, my brother is getting married. Laters." I smiled again and went to my seat next to Brody.
"As well. I ask you, Rachel Monica Charleston. Do you take Stephan Daniel Raines, to your lawfull wedded husband?"
She looked at him with such love.. Such passion.. Then I heard something I did not wanna hear.
"Say yes. Get us that money.. Come on love.." Brody said next to me.
"Stop!" I yelled and got up. My brother looked at me with pure hatred.
"Don't do it. Don't marry her."
"Carter, what are you doing?" Brody said.
"What am I doing? What are you doing? You are sitting there and whispering, that she should say yes and get you and her that money. You are cheating on me with her, aren't you?" I said with tears in my eyes. My brother looked at Rachel and asked her the same.
"Is that true? Are you with him?" He asked as he backed away.
"I-I'm sorry Stephan.. Please don't leave me. I love you, I really do." She asked, faking the whole thing.
"You fucking liar. How could you? How could you use me like that? For my money? Is that all you care about? My family and friends.. I introduced them to you.. I spoke so highly of you.. So many of them told me I was making my biggest mistake by marrying you but I stood up for you .. You just proved them right.. You are the biggest mistake.. Get out of my face. I don't ever wanna see you again." He said. Rachel started crying really loud and then she ran off, with her sister after her.
Stephan came down to me and Brody. I had pulled away from him, not wanting to be near him.
"And you, my dear friend. I trusted you with my baby sister. My heart. My life. It's amazing how good you are at acting like you love her. She gave her heart to you. She trusted you with her deepest secrets and you just threw that away. For what? Nothing. Next time I see you, I will put you in a coffin. Do you understand?" Brody looked so scared. Good.
Then Justin got up and walked to me. He grabbed my hand but I pulled it away.
I looked at him then back at Brody.
"You know.. I am happy I never said those three words. I was actually starting to wonder why you were rushing things so much. I can't believe you. I thought you cared. Guess I was wrong. You don't care. You never did. You only care about yourself. I fucking hate you. I fucking fuck fucking fuck fuck fucking hate you. Get out of my face, you heartless, stupid, worthless, piece of ass. Goodbye." I said and left.
Entering my house, Molly came to me and hugged me. She had just seen me pull into the driveway like a maniac. I don't drive like a normal person when I am mad or sad. I drive like me.
"Oh honey. I am so sorry. First Justin, then Brody then seeing Justin.. Babe.. Talk to me.." She said. I just gave her a squeeze and pulled away. Ryan looked at me with sad eyes but i just ignored it. I went upstairs to my room. I closed the door, still not saying a word. I changed into my sweatpants and a tanktop. I went and sat on my bed then took my Diary out of my nightstand drawer. I opened it and started writing.
Well, today has been an interesting day. I met Justin again. Brody cheated on me with Rachel. Yes, my brothers fiance. Well, ex-fiance.
I have some question.
1; Why do we hurt?
2; Why do we not care about others?
3; Why can't I just find a guy who loves me for me? Who will put up a fight for me? Who would come at 3.00 AM just to bring me food? Who will buy me cupcakes and rub my stomach when I am on my period?
Where is he? Where is my Prince?.. 'Cause I really need him..
And I then went to bed with a even more broken heart.