I'm thinking of writing a letter to Luke, explaining my feelings for him, but I'm not sure how he will take it.
I mean, I can't just come right out and say it like 'Lucas, hey man, I'm in love with you' like just no.
I don't know what to do.
This morning I woke up with a big smile on my face. Ashton.
He was always the cause of my happiness. I wish he knew of my love for him. But then again, I don't know what I would do if he ever found out. Would he hate me? Would he love me back? Heck, I don't even know if Ashton is homophobic. Oh my god, what if he is? He could quit the band! We would have no drummer and it would all be my fault!
God damn it Luke, just shut up. Like you said, you don't even know if Ashton is homophobic so stop assuming things
Your right subconscious, thank you.
Yeh yeh, whatever, now stop talking to yourself and go wake up Ashton. See if he wants to spend the day with you
Geez why didn't I think of that??
Because your stupid that's why
Ok you can shut up now!
I have an shower, get out and then head to Ashton's room to wake him up. Only to find him in there with-
"Michael?" I say softly, my voice cracking a little "Ashton?"
Of course they couldn't hear me because they were asleep but they were cuddling each other, practically spooning and I didnt like it.
I notice a pillow on the floor by Ashton's bed, it must've been pushed off during their sleep. I pick it up and whack Ashton in the head with it. He groans. I smirk.
Then I swing the pillow full force on to the side of Michael's face and he immediately shoots up, accidentally elbowing Ashton in the face, then before his brain can calculate what the fuck is going on, I whack him in the face really hard again and he slams back down onto the bed. Only for him to then head but Ashton. With both of them groaning in pain, I throw the pillow onto the bed and walk out.
"Get up you lazy motherfuckers" I say, my back turned to them as I walk out the room.
They groan again and I bite back a laugh.
I head to Calum's room only to find him snuggled up under the quilt, his breaths shallow and his eyes squinted shut. Aaaaw, he looks so adorable.
I hear a noise behind me and turn back to find Ashton in the doorway.
"Isn't he adorable," I ask Ashton.
"Uh, yeh. Yeh, he is" Ashton sighs heavily.
"I guess I should wake him up now" I say, smiling and still looking at Calum's sleeping figure.
I lightly shake him and he stirs but doesn't fully wake up. I then lay on top of him and blow hot air onto his face. He groans.
"EEEEW, LUCIFER STOP IT!!!" He complains
"Wait, how did you know it was me?" I ask. He chuckles.
"No one weighs as much as you do" he jokes. I gasp and fake hurt.
"Kidding, I'm kidding" he smiles "nah, I knew it was you because I could smell you" he blushes.
"Smell Luke?" A voice buts in from across the room. I turn my head and see Ashton still in the doorway. Whoops, forgot that he was there.
Forgot that he was there?! How the hell did you forget that Ashton was there?! Aren't you supposed to be in love with him?!
Shut it subconscious
Oh yeah? Make me
Look would you just please kindly fuck off?!
I hear a huff then nothing else so I assume that he did actually fuck off like I asked him to.
I thought I told you to fu-
Calum chuckles "you were staring at me for like 20 minutes, it was getting kinda creepy" he gives me a strange look
"Oh. Oh, sorry. I zoned out" I mumble out a reply
"Right" Ashton says.
Does Luke like Calum or something?!
He legit just stared at Calum for a full 20 or so minutes just then, and he says he zoned out? Yeah, zoned out my ass.
He's breaking my heart, honestly.
It's like the other day. When Luke was making tea and Calum kissed him on the cheek. LIKE, DUDE, DO NOT FUCKING KISS MY LUKE ON THE CHEEK!!!
Ok, so he's not exactly 'my Luke' but he soon will be!
I have a plan to get him to be mine. Sort of.