Okay so I'm really mad because it got deleted the first time I wrote it and I was actually really proud with how it turned out and then I had to re write it and it's not as good ugh :////
But there's going to be an authors note at the end this time so stay tuned
I don't go to Spencer's house, like what happens in every story. Instead, I just stay at the bench I was on. After finishing my drink, I got up to throw it away and decided to just walk around after that.
My eyes gazed around, just looking at all the little things.
Small children ran around, playing on the playground not a care in the world. Giggles filled the air and I couldn't help but smiles gently too, at the sound.
Checking my phone, I see that I still have a lot of time before Elle is done with work, so I decide to walk down a path. Hiking is one thing that really helps me relive stress and with all the problems happening in my life right now, this is one thing I truly need.
I was surprised at how well I took this whole thing with Spencer. Normally I end up feeling super bad about the whole thing. This time though, it caused me almost no pain and I can feel that it's for the best. If there's no more feelings there, why try and save something you know won't last?
What also made breaking up better was that I knew it was coming. I could feel things changing and that's why I had that last date with him. It was kind of my way to end things sweetly before totally separating us.
Fresh air swirls through my lungs and as I finally feel free from all the stress. I come to a cliff area with a huge rock. I've reached my destination. This look out place is my escape that I come to when I want to escape problems.
I climb onto the rock and admire the view. It overlooks the city because this park is on the edge of the city, it's right before you get into the crowd.
My eyes take in the scene; cars slowly move up and down the roads and people rush from place to place; the buildings stand there, looking like they're keeping the city in order, as if trying to keep everything from bursting out if the area; the clouds touch the roofs of the buildings in the distance and although it's not night, the faint sign of lights is apparent.
No matter how many times I come here, it will never get old. The view will continue to astound me.
I stare off at nothing and start to smile. "This is life," I whisper. A tear streams down my face. "And I'm me and I'm alive." I'm now grinning. "And love... Love is actually quite funny. Isn't it strange how one person can just, like, take over you?" I ask the city. A giggle bubbles out of my mouth. For years I've bottled up my emotions and now I can't hold it in anymore.
My eyes look off at the city below me that stretches miles and miles backwards. It looks as if it never ends.
A few more tears roll down my cheeks. I've finally exploded after holding in everything. I've finally had my breaking point and I can help but finally realize how amazing everything is. It's perplexing how we are living and no matter how much I think about it, my mind can't process the thought of life. I laugh suddenly, just feeling so free and for the first time in years, I feel fully and genuinely happy.
My eyes gaze around a bit more before I lay back, looking up at the clear sky. That's how how my mind felt, clear. I sat there silently for a few minutes, just letting my head be free to think about anything, when Ashton came to mind.
I shake my head before I smile and whisper, "This is life." Another laugh comes out before I say, "And I get to live it with this wonderful boy, Ashton."
Since the first time I laid eyes on Rosie, I knew that she was easily the most gorgeous girl I've seen.
The contrast between her black hair and hazel eyes was beautiful and her smile just made me want to stop and stare. She had a dimple on only one side of her face which was completely adorable.
I lay on my bed, just relaxing and thinking.
To be honest, I was freaking out the night of our date because this was like the make it or break it point.
I took her to a restaurant, a basic first date. At first it was awkward, but as we continued to talk, it was like speaking to a best friend. We got to know each other better and, I don't know, I was just ecstatic thinking that there's a chance that we could be a couple.
Then, when dinner was over, we walked to get ice cream then headed back to my place to watch a movie. The places were nothing special, but the night definitely was.
Just being in Rosie's presence and talking to her makes me happier.
Overall, last night was amazing. Tomorrow Rosie is taking me somewhere else and I couldn't be more excited for it.
I let out a breath and got up to go shower. Things in life are actually going well for once, it's really nice.
Thank you Rosie for coming into my life, I hope you don't end up leaving it.
A/n okayyyy so this update might seem irrelevant but basically it's just saying how life is actually going good for both Rosie and Ashton. Rosie's all like, bye Spencer, bye past and hello present. If you didn't pick up on it, Rosie's had a tough past and she always kept her emotions to herself and now she's letting them out and is happy with how her life is now going sooo I knew her pov was weird but it's just showing her letting go. Soo yeah I just thought I'd clear that up... Let me know if you have any questions!
Happy holidays and thank you so much to every single one of you who decided to read this book, it means so much! :-)))))