1 moth further:
I'm on tour now for a month. I know you're confused right now, that I'm not in prison, but Louis is still alive. And now you must be really confusing but it was all a trick of Emilie. She called Lorie and presented her as Louis' mom and said that I had beaten Louis to death which I didn't. I'm not a criminal, you may think that because I did not very well last months but still I won't ever kill someone! So,.. How did we find out? Well I got called by the police and of course I got punished but it wasn't that bad, I just had to pay compensation, that's all. I was really confused when I got called because yeah, we all thought Louis was dead. So I told them that someone called to say he was dead and eventually Emilie got punished as well. So, now about Lorie... She was so relieved when she found out Louis was still alive. I've never seen her so happy, and I know it's ugly what I'm gonna say right now, but it hurt and... I really don't understand her. I mean he cheated on her, Emilie did something horrible and now... she's just back with Louis. Yes!!!! Louis' her boyfriend again. That's what she told over the phone...
After the incident, it's now like 1 month ago, I haven't spoken to her, I haven't seen her anymore. The last thing she said to me was: "You killed him, Justin! Congrats!!". I didn't sleep that night and the night after, and the night after... I know I had lost her forever and I couldn't make it up with her. Luckily I had Ry who was there for me and who's there for me now and who will always be there for me. I thought Lorie was too but apparently not. I can't blame her but I didn't beat him up just for fun I beat him because I thought she was hurt. Later on my told me she was relieved that they broke up, you know.. It's so confusing! She didn't care he cheated on her but she was mad at me and now she's back with him? I don't get it and I don't question her. I tried to call her many times but she never picks up her phone. I miss her so bad! Next month it's prom and the thought of not going with her or not going at all is literally killing me. It was my only dream that I wanted to come true but I guess it won't.
I was cleaning my room, it became such a mess. I looked under my bed to see if there was any stuff. I saw a big purple box. I pulled the box from under my bed and opened it seeing old pics of me and Louis, of me and Justin. I smiled then let a tear fall. I now realized what I threw away because I miss him so bad. I remember the day I found out Louis what cheating on me, I went to his house and I talked to his mom and then suddenly he stood in the doorway and we hugged. I miss his smile, his beautiful eyes, his silly jokes, his hugs... I just miss him but then I think of the fact I was mad at him and then after I told him that I was back with Louis... which isn't true.... I feel bad. I only said that to hurt him because he hurt me and somehow I wanted to take revenge. That was clearly a big mistake! And he called me several times but I was just too stubborn to pick up. I regret every single bad word I said to him.
I put the pics of Justin and I at my bedside table and the pics of Louis and I in the garbage, beside one. I have to tell my kids later who my ... yeah never mind, Justin will always be my one and only true love. Although he doesn't know and probably never will. I went downstairs seeing mom making pancakes. "Smells good!" I said. "Thank you honey!" She replied. "Mom,..." I stopped. "Yes?" She asked. "Well, uhm... It's about Justin..." "You miss him because you love him?" My mouth widened. How does she know? "How..." I said. "You can't hide things from your mom, Lorie." She said. I sighed and smiled. "I haven't spoken since, yeah you know... and I don't dare to call him but I do wanna know how he's doing." I said. "Maybe you should call Ryan?" She suggested. "Yeahh... Good idea! Thank you mom!"
I ran back upstairs, grabbed my phone and dialed Ry's number. "Hye it's Justin with Ryan's phone!" I didn't expect to hear this. My mouth widened and I heard just repeat the same word over again. "Justin?" I finally said. "Yes... That's me. Ry is went out tonight... I can I tell him who called?" He asked. "Tell him that Lorie called." I said and hung up.
Hiii! Finally updated!!! :)
I tried to listen to everyone who commented so I made Louis back alive, and I tried not to rush into things. So I hope I did well this time! :)
I saw it was confusing with the dates so I changed them... I 'm sorry.. :)
Anyways, I hope you like it! Please let me know in a comment! And as always, advice and feedback is always welcome!! :)
Love you all! :) xxx
-Lise xxx :)