After a while we decided to take a walk around London. It wasn’t usually the best thing to do in the middle of the night but I guess it was a good idea to get some of my frustration out this way. That night I felt like I really got to know Harry Styles. Not the famous singer but the guy I wanted so desperately to know.
When we were walking back up the street towards my hotel Harry took my hand. I looked at our hands first and then up at Harry. He smiled at me and I couldn’t help but smile back at him. He was the best person I had ever met and I loved him with all of my heart but I guess it was because he had always been there. This guy had no idea what he was doing to me or for that matter what he made me want to do to him.
We stood in front of the premiere inn hotel I had booked for the next couple of nights and looked at each other in another way than I had tried before.
"Tonight was great. I'm glad we met up and got some time to talk Harry."
"Yeah me too."
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head like he had done earlier and it felt amazing. I knew I loved Harry but it wasn't till this night that I realised I was in love with him. I had known him for long but this personality he had shown me today was different but it was a good different.
"Can I come with you up for a while? Just really need to use the toilet."
I took his hand and led him the way to the purple room I was staying in. He seemed surprised that this was everything the hotel had and that the rucksack was everything I had with me.
"You didn't bring a lot?"
"That because I don't need a lot for the time I'm staying here."
"When are you going back?
"Sunday night I think."
"Well you didn't seem to want me around earlier so yeah. Also I have college to get back to."
"Aren't you too old for college?"
"College is different where I'm from Harry. I'm in my last year anyway."
“When will I see you again?”
“Why are you suddenly so eager to be around me?”
“Because I’m your friend Elena and I want to make it different this time. I don’t wanna be a stranger to you anymore.”
“I believe I’m the stranger to you. What do you really know about me? Beside what I’ve talked about tonight.”
“I know enough.”
“Really? You think you know enough to call me a friend? You know I’m not like those other girls right Harry?”
“I know you’re something special. Something worth fighting for, something that no one else is really like.”
“Then why me?”
“As you said, you’re not like those other girls.”
“You confuse me…”
“One moment we’re stranger, I flew over here so many times for you and everything is just a chaos okay.”
I turned around and was about to walk out into the bathroom but Harry stopped me and spun me back to face him.
“Don’t let it confuse you. Just think of me as anyone else.”
“But how can I do that, when you’re the person you are. You’re confusing me, you’re scaring me and most of all you’ve been hurting me.”
“I never meant to hurt you! We’ve already been over this.”
“That doesn’t change the way I feel and have been feeling Harry!”
“Don’t put your anger on me! I can’t help what those people have been saying about you and you know I want to stop it! You know I said I should have spoken up about it but it’ll only make it worse if I start talking about you, because it will be something completely different. You’ll become part of this and there will be rumours and things will be a living fucking hell.”
I sat down on the bed and started crying. The reason I had become angry again was because someone had commented on the fact that I was outside the studios today and that Harry had recognised me once again.
“My beautiful little Elena. Why are you so angry all the time?”
Harry had sat down beside me and held an arm around me to comfort me once again.
“They are still talking Harry and it hurts. It hurts so much knowing that these people are out there and talking like this about me. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep pretending I’m okay when this is going on. I can’t keep fighting or fly over to see you, and it’s breaking my heart that I never know when I’ll see you again, hear your voice or get a chance to talk to you, because you meant the world to me Harry Styles. And that you have done for as long as I remember. Ever since the first time we met where you took my breath away for the very first time and you made me realise just who you are.”
Harry was silent as I spoke and ran circles on my back and held my hand with his other hand. It was a beautiful moment.
“I know it hurts babe it’s gonna be okay. Everything is gonna be okay.”
His words were what made me stop crying and feel better but I don’t believe you will ever fully recover from this. We sat there for a while and enjoyed each other, and it was the best feeling ever. I don’t think I’ve ever felt safer around him than in that moment. Before he left we posed in front of the mirror and took a few pictures together. He also took some on his phone and I made sure to put my number into his phone, and he knew about it, so maybe I would be lucky enough for him to text me sometime.