I took one last look in the mirror before I left my room. I made sure to have my room key in the purse I had with me as well as my phone and some money if I needed something or ended up going somewhere. I even had my power bank for my phone in case I would need it.
I always had just everything I would need for a day away in my purse; it was something my sister had taught me when we first started clubbing. In case you ended up in a one night stand it would be better to have some of the things you would need in the end. It seemed weird that my sister would teach me something like this but it all made sense to me now.
I walked down the street, hearing my shoes as I walked across the street and down to London Eye. Harry was standing there when I saw the massive great and beautiful wheel in front of me. He looked out over the water as the light from the wheel fell upon him. He was beautiful and I felt the butterflies spread in my stomach as I walked towards him. He turned around when he heard my steps and smiled by the sight of me.
I had just stopped in front of him and looked into his eyes before I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight for a second.
I smiled back at him and suddenly I felt great about being here. It wasn't the strange feeling I had had in my hotel room just minutes before.
"Are you alright?"
He looked at me different from what he had ever done. What game was he playing? I felt so confused. How could one person change this much in such a short time? It didn't make sense to me that he would do this. Why are you doing this? My brain was screaming at me and I felt pressured all over again. Was I supposed to be angry with him or how should I react now?
"I don't know. How would you feel if you spend almost all the money you have because there was this one person you wanted to talk to and he or she turned you down and got angry with you because in all honesty you thought they cared?"
"I don't make that much money Harry. I spend them all flying back and forth to England with a mother who believes I'm staying with some weird guy I barely know whenever I'm here. Yet I've once again had to spend £100 on a hotel."
"Why did you do it?"
"All of it. Why did you turn me down and then come find me? I thought you had made it clear to me that you didn't want me around."
"Elena it's always a pleasure having you around."
"Then what is it that makes it so hard to tell someone that they're hurting you and someone you obviously care about? Why is it so hard for you to say that you care? Is it because I'm just some girl who you suddenly came across? Because I'm a no one? I know I'm not a public person at least not in your league but at least I have enough self-respect to stand up to myself."
"You don't know what it's like..."
"No in don't because you've never really given me a chance even though I have made it clear from the beginning that I care a lot about you but your job, your fans, your money and your fame has nothing to do with it. I don’t wanna be a part of your silly little game, I don’t wanna be a part of the famous Harry Styles. That might have been the guy I fell for but that’s not the guy I’ve met and spend so much money on. I’ve been there for you from day one and you’ve been like a friend to me and I’ve treated you like one, so why are you suddenly denying everything?”
“It’s complicated… Elena I’m trying my best but with everything that’s been going on…”
“Answer me one thing at least. Are you my friend or am I still just another fan to you?”
“You’re not just another fan, you’ve never been just another fan. You’ve always been there for everyone in the band and especially me.”
“Then what changed?”
"Nothing changed for me Elena. But you disappeared and I was broken when you weren't around. You were gone for so long yet I heard how you met up with my friends around England you just never came to find me. Not until today."
"Don't put this on me."
"Can we just forget about all this? I haven't seen you in forever and I've actually missed you."
"You missed me? You're following me on Twitter, you know my name and I'm pretty sure you have my number so why haven't you just talked to me instead of all of this?"
"Elena don't be mad please..."
"I am mad! I'm so angry with you and ugh!"
I hit him in the chest. Not hard and just one time before I hid my face on the space between his shoulder and neck. I just stood there and then I started crying. I felt how it all left me. Everything that I had been feeling for the past long time. I felt stupid as I was crying he was right there and it was real. It was truly amazing.
He wrapped his arms around me and there in the silent night all you could really hear was me sobbing against his chest and the wind giving the trees a little life.
"It's okay Elena. Everything is going to be okay. It's always like that remember."
I felt his lips on the top of my head like he was kissing a child but I didn't feel like a child at all. I felt lost and confused and mostly because of the person whose arms were wrapped around me.