I found the nearest Premiere Inn hotel and booked a double room for the next three nights. It wasn’t that expensive but it was still a lot of money, and money wasn’t what I had most of in time. I was confused and out of myself as I sat down with my iPad in the room. I had bought Wi-Fi so I could be online all the time while I was there. Not that I was planning on staying here more than the next three days but I never knew.
“It’s been some day in London so far. Don’t really know what to say about what happened out there.”
“I don’t understand why you’re so different this time. After all I came here for you.”
“If you see this, let’s talk at some point. But you better be real with me next time.”
I saw how people questioned who I was talking about and what had been going on, just the usual twitter stuff. This is how it always ended out.
I sat with a few snacks and my iPad as I was watching something on the TV and a message suddenly popped up in my DM’s.
“Where are you at?”
I looked confused at Harry’s message for me. He actually wanted to talk to me this time? He was actually being serious about something? I felt bad for how I had treated him earlier but it was the right thing I did. He said he was there for me so he was the one who had something to prove not me.
“Because we need to talk…”
“So now you wanna talk?”
“Please meet up with me Elena. Where are you staying?”
“Premiere Inn by London Eye.”
“Meet me in the lobby in 30 minutes?”
“Why would I?”
“Because you were right and we need to talk about what’s been going on.”
“I’m leaving my place now and asking for your room at the hotel Elena.”
“Meet me in front of London Eye in 30 minutes.”
I took a deep breath and looked at the conversation we had just had. I then looked out of the window. It was already dark outside and I was scared of what was going to happen now. I was confused because he had never asked to meet up with me before. I had done it to him but he was in my country when it happened and I was around the hotel. We met up but it wasn’t for a long time because he was busy and soon the fans found us as well and it was scary and I just wanted to be away from it.
He changed whenever the fans were around and somehow I understood. I guess I would be changing as well if I had fans and he came around, or for that matter someone else. Someone who wasn’t a public person. I guess he was right when he had said that but it still hurt me badly and I still felt how it touched my heart whenever he was like that to me.
I could be the public person? Couldn’t I? Of course I could but would I get the success that’s needed to be the kind of public person he needs me to be? I didn’t think I could ever do it and I lost all hope in myself as I sat there thinking about it, yet I was really good when it came to celebrities because for me they were just people, honestly I couldn’t care less what their job was because that’s not what I was interested in. Of course there were some things that actually interested me when it came to these famous people because they were so different from what everyone expected them to be and who they were on stage, in front of the camera and so on wouldn’t always be the person they were when you were suddenly alone with them.
I got up from my bed and looked into the rucksack I had with me. It wasn’t anything special and I knew I needed to buy some more clothes and maybe even a trolley I had wanted a trolley for as long as I remembered and never gotten myself one. Why I don’t know, but that was how it was with many thing in my life. I guess as long as I had a camera and a rucksack that would be all I needed. Also my passport updated of course that was probably the most important thing.
I was quick to take a shower and dry my hair before I would be meeting up with Harry. I needed to look like I was on my way out or something like that because then maybe I would have a chance to make this quick yet have him to myself for as long as I wanted. I always wanted to look my best when I was around him. I loved the guy so of course I wanted to look my best.
I was dressed in some warm tights, a denim dress, leather jacket and my best shoes. They didn’t have a heel but they were cute and suited my feet perfectly. I remember wearing this set at Harry’s birthday party last year. I snuck into the party and that’s the first time he recognised me. I felt so blessed when he pointed me out while I was standing there in the bar and minding my own business. I didn’t want him to think I was following him. It was magical. I smiled all over my face by the thought of the time it happened.
I found a small purse and some accessories to wear. I hadn’t brought the lot but I had brought quite some because I always needed to be able to go different places. It was one of the most important things for meeting up with these people. When I finished I left my hair hanging and did my make-up as if I was about to go clubbing.