I woke up when I felt Harry place a kiss over my lips the next morning. He had been lying there awake for some time and I hadn’t been sleeping much either but I wasn’t ready to wake up when I opened my eyes the first time.
“Good morning beautiful.”
I was curled up and hugged my pillow but cuddled up to Harry when he had awoken me and rested my head on his arm.
“Ready to get up?”
“We have a lot to do today.”
“You my friend, need to look perfect for the concert you’re going to, and I need to get up to my band and get ready for the concert we’re about to play.”
“Fine… but no surprises tonight!”
Last night had been way too surreal for me and I wouldn’t want to have another night like that. It would be too much. Also the fans would get the wrong impression of what was going on and it just wouldn’t work out the way Harry really wanted it to work out.
He placed another kiss over my lips.
“Also you can’t keep doing that.”
“But you like it.”
“Yeah but I don’t want to be just another girl you kiss Harry. I’m not that type of girl. You better be serious about me if you want to continue kissing me.”
“I am serious about it.”
My heart literally skipped a beat when he said those words and my eyes widened. I had never had a boyfriend in my 20 years of living so my view on this whole thing was a little different than most people my age.
“So you won’t go off to Germany and kiss other girls?”
“I was hoping you’d be the girl I’d be kissing in Germany.”
“Harry you know I can’t come.”
“Harry I can’t. I need to finish college.”
He looked at me with a disappointed look and then leaned in to kiss me. I knew what he was trying to do but it didn’t work. I wasn’t going with him on tour, I hadn’t known him like this for enough time to go on tour with him.
“Just promise me you won’t be flirting around, flirting and sleeping with other girls because it would break my heart knowing that when I’ve kissed you.”
“There’s no other girl for me than you right now. I like you remember.”
He was such a tease and I wanted him with all of me right now. I gave in to the passionate kissing and moved closer to him. I felt him against me and it felt better than I had ever expected it but was I really ready to lose my virginity to him?
“There’s something I need to tell you…”
He stopped and looked up at me sweat on his forehead and out of breath from kissing me for such a long time.
“What is it?”
He looked into my eyes and seemed worried for what I was about to say but I guess it was mostly because I didn’t know how to get the words out of my body. I had really no clue how to tell this boy that I had never been closer with anyone than I was with him right now.
“Remember I told you my dad is a Mormon?”
“What’s that to do-?”
“I don’t know a lot about sex and it’s not something we talk about in this house. My dad is really strict when it comes to this and I know I’m an adult but I have never been with a boy Harry. I’ve never been with a girl either but I don’t know what to or how to…”
He placed a kiss over my lips to make me shut up. He knew all along that I was a virgin, it definitely wasn’t a secret to him.
“I don’t care. You’ll learn like everyone else has done over time.”
“I don’t know if I’m ready for this…”
He stopped again and looked me in the eyes of course I was nervous and I knew I wanted to I was just scared it would hurt.
He lay down beside me and tried to relax for a while. He was still looking at me but concentrated on his breathing.
“I’m sorry Harry.”
“It’s okay princess.”
He smiled at me but I still felt a little ashamed of myself. He moved his hand up to my cheek.
“Don’t think about it baby.”
I smiled at him and then sat up in the bed we were still in.
“We better get ready. I’ll go take a shower.”
He smirked at me, and I knew exactly what he was thinking but if I couldn’t have sex with him how was I ever going to take a shower with him. I wasn’t ashamed of myself. I was despite a lot of things okay with my body and knew how I looked.
I winked at him as he followed me out into the bathroom and we locked the door behind us. It felt weird having him in here but I liked it. It was the good type of weird.