It's like time stopped and i'm stuck here, unsure of what to do. Unsure of what even happened. It's funny how it only takes an instant to change everything. Whether someone lives or not. How you react to a sudden trauma, will either save them or kill them. And it will be on your hands.
The screams of random pedestrians unfreeze time, and all my surroundings come rushing back to me. I see blood. Everywhere.
Time is no longer frozen, but I am. All I can do is watch. Traffic stops, and a crowd begins to form around her. One extremely tall man pushes through them.
"I'm a doctor, let me in" He shouts as he breaks the net of people in the middle of the road.
I want to scream and run. I haven't made up my mind if I should run towards her or away, though. So I choose neither and remain exactly where I am, with the hope that if I stay here long enough, time will reverse itself and I won't utter those senseless words, drawing her towards me and into the danger.
"Time of death, seven sixteen" I hear someone say, and the tall man stands up, lurching over the croud with sorrow in his eyes. If he looks so terrified, being a complete stranger, what must I look like right now? What does it even matter though. People can see my face on the outside but will never feel the undeniable guilt that I feel right here in this moment. If I haden't called her over? If I kept my stupid mouth shut, this would have never happened. In fact, I would be leaving around now to pick her up and go out for dinner. I can't do that now though.
Because she's dead.
I hear the sound of ambulances, and it makes me feel even worse. I know they're too late. They're of no use now.
I wonder what her family will think? I remember she came for a large family, she told me when she was dating Liam.
What will he do?! He'll blame me, because who am I kidding, I blame me.
Liam will be crushed. Katy was the only girl he ever loved. Ever will love. And it's my fault she's dead. The whole reason she is dead is because I was going to see her behind my best friend's back.
What a lovely person I turned out to be.
Someone is shouting me name. A female voice. It can't be any of the boys, then.
For the first time in what seems like a matter of minutes, I move just the slightest bit. I turn my head.
She's clinging to me for dear life. No, not Katy. Her life is already gone. Wasted on me. It's Jade who is tugging on my sleeve, beckoning for me to say something.
"Jade" I say, finally recognizing her presence.
"Harry, I was so worried!" She says and buries her face in my chest, crying. But why is she crying?
"Why are you upset?" I ask her, glad for a distraction, but not one that will break my heart all over again. Not twice in one day.
"You scared me so much" She says, looking up at me with tears in her eyes. "You haden't moved for hours. You didn't even open your eyes until just now. You were squeezing them shut like you were afraid to open them. Like something bad would happen if you did"
I take a moment to think about this. I didn't notice my eyes being shut? That would explain the blackness though. And HOURS? How long have I been standing here?
"How did you get here? Where are the others?" I question.
"They're talking to the paramedics" She responds. Oh yeah, that reminds me. Katy's dead.
"That's it, i'm taking you home" She announces and drags me to Niall and my jeep, which is just around the corner.
"Can you even drive in your condition?" I ask her.
"I can drive better than you can right now" She says, and realizes the flaw in her plan. She doesn't have the keys, and I left mine at home.
"Stay here. I mean it" She says, and I don't object. I sit here patiently for a couple of minutes, until the driver's door opens and Jade plops herself on the seat.
"Did you ask Niall for the keys or something?" I assume.
"Or something..." She mumbles. What did she do?
"What do you mean 'or something'?" I pry.
"Well Niall wouldn't give me his keys because he says I wasn't fit to drive and so I kind of pick pocketed them. Maybe" She says really fast, so it takes me a moment to comprehend.
"YOU DID WHAT?" I shout.
"It's not like he'll be stuck there, he can ride with Liam" She reasons.
We pull up in the driveway and walk silently into the house. I'm starving, but I can't bear to eat anything, on account of every time I close my eyes I see Katy's dead body, and i'll make myself puke. I trudge off to my bedroom, fall on the bed, and i'm out cold.