“How you feeling?” Beau asked wrapping his arm around my shoulder.
“Better, I think.” I told him, unsure.
“It’ll get better soon, everything will, I promise, I’m always here.” He reassured me but something told me differently. The way he looks at me just isn’t the same anymore, I can see it and feel it. It pains me to see he is in love with someone else, her.
“Want to go and grab something to eat?” Beau asked.
“Uh, no, I’m tired, I want to go to bed.” I lied. I’d do anything to spend time with him but things aren’t the same anymore. He just hasn’t noticed it yet.
“Oh, okay,” He muttered, disappointed.
When we got home Beau’s phone went off, making him smile instantly. It’s her.
“Do you mind if I go out for a bit?” He asked, eyes full of hope. I can’t say no, I can’t deny the truth, deny what’s right in front of me. I’d only be lying to myself. I spun around heading for the bedroom door.
“Yeah,” I mumbled, my back facing his. Tears building up in my eyes, I can’t let him see me cry, I need to stay strong, I can’t break down, not yet.
To Georgia, Grace, Tilly, Rosanna:
I love you guys, you know that, right? Thanks for being here for me xx
I slummed myself on the bed, thinking, thinking about everything and everyone. Why can’t everything be easy, simple? Life will never be the way you want it to be.
Goodnight beautiful, I’ll see you in the morning, I love you. X
Lies, lies, lies, full of lies. Lies.
I’m not beautiful, I’m not anymore. He won’t ever love me like he used to, she’s back now.