9. Is this goodbye?
Ashton and Michael were quiet. I just sat looking at Luke. He had blood coming from the side of his head. You should've seen it. He was knocked back so hard against the wall. The nurse put a mask on him to regulate his breathing but he is still unconscious. I hope we get there in time. I don't know exactly who's fault it was. But for some reason I think it's mine. I could've stopped them before Luke tried to. I'm on my phone texting and Ashton and Michael are staring at Luke. Ashton looks at Michael and starts bawling his eyes out. Not loudly, he presses his face into Michaels shoulder as if to say "I'm sorry". I can't help but feel like nothing in this world of many people.
I am an idiot. I can't even begin to tell you how I feel. I lost a girl because I yelled at Luke and I blamed it on my best friend. I punched him and now my 'little bro' is unconscious. I wish that right now if I close my eyes. That I would never open them again. I wish that I could disappear. I wish, I was dead.
Of course I'm not mad at Ashton. I love him to bits. My tshirt is wet as he is laying on my shoulder. I wonder if he is having thoughts as bad as me. This was all my fault. Pranks are not funny when they backfire. Calum is trying so hard to hold back tears while he is staring at Luke. It feels like this trip is going for ages but it's only been 5mins. I can't hold it, I cry, my head is in my hands. Calum breaks to. The paramedics rush him out the back. We all fumble to our feet behind them. They head to the emergency clinic and we sit in the waiting room. I am just thinking how much of an idiot I am. Maybe if I wasn't alive it would be better. I shouldn't of tried to prank Belarna. I guess I just didn't want to believe that she was falling for Ashton.
2hrs later a doctor walks out with a look that I read like a book. Is this goodbye?
Hey thanks for reading, sorry for the wait. If you can show your support by commenting I would really love it! Poor Luke, right now Ashton's life is a mess. Calum's best friends in a hospital bed with a drip and Michael doesn't even know why he is alive. The next chapter will be good. ~Maddie