Everything I Didnt Say

5sos made a vow that girlfriends are off limits. But when Ashton falls in love with the girl next door, how will he keep it a secret. With bitter words spoken, everything's broken. It's too late to bring it back to life. With time ticking away, will it all be okay? Or will they fade regretting everything they didn't say. Contains: Violence, Self harming, Drug use, Alchohol, Suicidal scenes, Hospital scenarios, Near death experiences, Brutal Arguments You could say it has everything but to a certain extent. Don't freak out if you feel uncomfortable about any of those things. The story makes for a good read and you will not get bored. Give it a go! Please Fan me and if this Fab fic isn't your cup of tea then I have 2 other fan fics that might float your boat. Cheers, Maddie.


17. Ashton's suicide letter.

Michaels POV

Here is what Ashton's letter said.

Well I guess if you reading this I finally did it. I have had this written for awhile since lukes been in hospital. This is my letter.

Dear luke,

The only thing I know is that I'll either be joining you or you'll wake up. I hope I will be going alone and not with you. You deserve to live and I will die regretting the fact it wasn't me. But now it will be. Luke I know what you have been through. I opened your draw. I saw. And it's either your reading this or this is getting read to you at your funeral. I told you I will take your secrets to the grave and I meant it. I love you buddy.

Dear Calum

Thanks for being my shoulder to lean on. You've helped me through this a lot in my life and I'll never repay you for that. I need you to know that this isn't your fault. It's not that you couldn't help me this time it's that I didn't deserve to be saved. Calum, to all the times you listened to me, helped me, saved me.... Thank you.

Dear Michael

I am sorry for doing this to you. I have put a lot on your hands. Being the oldest is cool trust me. I am so sorry for overreacting that night. I hope you know it wasn't your fault. You are one of the greatest guys I know and I'm so glad we mended our friendship and I don't mean to break it like this. But I have no options.

Dear Belarna,

The most kind, beautiful and amazing girlfriend/bestie anyone could ask for. This is not your fault. None of this is your fault. It's all mine. I'm so sorry for leaving you but this pain is to much for me. I don't want to be the burden that drags you down. Our moments were special. I know you'll never forget me but it's best you move on. Comfort the boys when luke passes. If Luke doesn't then I need you to make sure no one ever hurts him again. Not as bad as I have.

Goodbye Belarna

Goodbye Calum

Goodbye Michael

Goodbye Luke

Goodbye Life.....

and with that the pen smeared down and smudged. I was in tears. I know ashton is still alive but he definitely tried and nearly successfully committed suicide. I have to call Belarna.. But what do I say?


B: hello babe xx

M: actually this is Michael

B: oh hi Michael Whats up?

M: um i don't know how to tell you...

B: what's wrong, is it about luke?

M: Belarna Luke woke up from his coma but ripped away vital medical equipment. After he stole my car I had to call Calum to drive me. We found luke bleeding on the steps.

B: oh no that's awful I'll come right away.

M: there's more. Luke had gone to help ashton, he tried to kill himself and some instinct Luke had meant he could tell. Luke had dropped ashton and hit the stairs while ashton was on the ground. Cuts on his wrist. I am really sorry but we have just arrived at the hospital. I'll wait for you outside.

*dead line*

I know I should've waited for a response but we don't have time. She needs to hurry over here.

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