Here is what Ashton's letter said.
Well I guess if you reading this I finally did it. I have had this written for awhile since lukes been in hospital. This is my letter.
The only thing I know is that I'll either be joining you or you'll wake up. I hope I will be going alone and not with you. You deserve to live and I will die regretting the fact it wasn't me. But now it will be. Luke I know what you have been through. I opened your draw. I saw. And it's either your reading this or this is getting read to you at your funeral. I told you I will take your secrets to the grave and I meant it. I love you buddy.
Thanks for being my shoulder to lean on. You've helped me through this a lot in my life and I'll never repay you for that. I need you to know that this isn't your fault. It's not that you couldn't help me this time it's that I didn't deserve to be saved. Calum, to all the times you listened to me, helped me, saved me.... Thank you.
I am sorry for doing this to you. I have put a lot on your hands. Being the oldest is cool trust me. I am so sorry for overreacting that night. I hope you know it wasn't your fault. You are one of the greatest guys I know and I'm so glad we mended our friendship and I don't mean to break it like this. But I have no options.
The most kind, beautiful and amazing girlfriend/bestie anyone could ask for. This is not your fault. None of this is your fault. It's all mine. I'm so sorry for leaving you but this pain is to much for me. I don't want to be the burden that drags you down. Our moments were special. I know you'll never forget me but it's best you move on. Comfort the boys when luke passes. If Luke doesn't then I need you to make sure no one ever hurts him again. Not as bad as I have.
and with that the pen smeared down and smudged. I was in tears. I know ashton is still alive but he definitely tried and nearly successfully committed suicide. I have to call Belarna.. But what do I say?
B: hello babe xx
M: actually this is Michael
B: oh hi Michael Whats up?
M: um i don't know how to tell you...
B: what's wrong, is it about luke?
M: Belarna Luke woke up from his coma but ripped away vital medical equipment. After he stole my car I had to call Calum to drive me. We found luke bleeding on the steps.
B: oh no that's awful I'll come right away.
M: there's more. Luke had gone to help ashton, he tried to kill himself and some instinct Luke had meant he could tell. Luke had dropped ashton and hit the stairs while ashton was on the ground. Cuts on his wrist. I am really sorry but we have just arrived at the hospital. I'll wait for you outside.
I know I should've waited for a response but we don't have time. She needs to hurry over here.