I woke up the next morning to screaming.
"Give me back my banana!" I heard someone yell.
"Never! He beat me up!" One of the boys yelled.
"No don't eat it!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard one of them scream really loud.
I ran down the stairs and into the kitchen to see Ashton performing CPR on a banana.
"What the hell is going on?" I asked giving them all my pissed off face.
"Ashton likes to draw faces on bananas and Luke ate it so Ashton's trying to save him." Calum simply explained.
"So this is what woke me up? A banana murder?" I said grabbing the banana and bandaging it together for Ashton.
"Thank you doctor!" Ashton yelled.
"You're welcome, you guys are a weird bunch, I like it." I said before walking back upstairs to my room.
I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep so I decided to unpack the last 2 boxes I had. I grabbed the first one and opened it. Right on top was a picture of us three I'd taken 2 months ago in the backyard. My parents first selfie. I laughed at the memory before the tears ran down my cheeks. I ran to my jewelry box and grabbed my razor walking out onto my balcony. The tears kept coming and the pain started to come worse. I grabbed the razor and held out my wrist, with the sharp side to my skin I started to cut. I hadn't cut since the funeral. After I heard they died I cut so much I had no more room. Now that they had healed a little I had more room. I kept cutting and letting the blood drip down my arm and onto the stones below me.
"Oh my god!" I heard someone yell.
I turned to see Ashton standing in the doorway.
"Ashton go away! Don't tell anyone! Just g-go awa-y!" I cried as I dropped the razor to the ground and fell to my knees crying.
"Sky, I won't tell but I'm not leaving!" Ashton said as he picked me up and carried me to my own bathroom I never knew I had. The blood was getting everywhere and I was feeling dizzy.
"Ashton I'm so sorry." I said with the tears streaming down my face.
"For what?" He asked as he was washing my arm off and bandaging it.
"Getting blood on your chest, and you seeing that, I didn't want anyone to see it." I said looking down feeling ashamed.
"Listen, Skylar, I can't imagine what your going through, but you need to know this is no way to deal with things! You did nothing wrong! Sky, you don't deserve to put all this pain on your shoulders! You're too small to carry such a big burden. Promise me you will stop? I will do everything in my power to make sure you are happy, please stop!" He said as tears started to form in his eyes.
"Listen, I can't promise to stop, and I know I'll never be happy, ever again, I will try to stop, but I can't promise you...." I said looking away from Ashton's eyes.
"Well I was coming to see if you wanted to come with us to a swim hole, but I'm sure you'd rather be alone?" Ashton said looking a little disappointed.
"Not today, maybe another time?" I said and gave him a hug before he left my room. I pulled on a big sweater and crawled back into bed.
As I laid there I remembered everything my mom had told me, 'honey, I want you to know that beauty isn't on the outside, it's what is within, everyone is beautiful inside and out, makeup doesn't make you beautiful, yes you can wear it, but no you don't need it, so don't ever think that way okay?' I cried as I almost heard her voice saying these things to me. My whole world was just ripped right from under me, no warning, no way to stop it, no signs, just vanished.
Everyday I wake up hoping I'll hear my mom or dad tell my name, but I get nothing, not even the smell of my moms perfume or my dad's cologne. I don't have my mom kissing my forehead every morning anymore. I don't hear her sweet voice saying my name to wake me up. All I hear is silence.y cries aren't even loud enough to be heard anymore.
I laid there with the tears soaking my pillow until my body finally gave out and I was fast asleep.
Sorry for the short chap! I've been super busy! Hope you're all liking this? Please let me know what you think?